Look Who's Fallen, But Swears Is Back Again

"You are what you want to be, if you wanted to be skinny you would be"

-my mom

Why should you lock in

To feel confident in anything you wear

To make any outfit look good

To have your dream body

To wear a bikini and look good

Thigh gap

Flat stomach/no rolls when you sit or bend

The envious stares

The attention

People being worried about you

The sense of control and achievment

To be the skinniest in the room

Crop tops

Low rise jeans

Slim sculpted face

No jiggly fat

To admire your bones

People asking how you did it

To feel dainty

To feel and look prettier

To be light

You can ignore the hunger, but you can’t ignore the fat on your body.

You are in control, not your appetite.

i ate sooo fvcking much these days that i'm planning a two day fast

Hey :) I know its hypocritical for me to say but i really do hope you get off this part of the internet and try your best to enjoy yourself while you're still a kid. There is so much more to life than how you look. I would do anything to be 14 again!! I know its easier said than done but go see a band or make some new friends or something else where you get to live your life and be alive. thats what i was doing when i was your age before this shit got me and i will never regret anything more than destroying who i was & all the friendships i had made just to be skinny. Youre so young and you have so much potential and life ahead of you. Please look after yourself and dont let this evil shit get ahold of you. Even if it can be hard. -some anorexic adult

hiii, don't worry, we all go through bad stuff. I have some really strict parents and so does all my friends, so we can't really do anything or else our parents will do something very bad (like for example, being kicked off the house or k!ll3d by them). all of us are sick (sadly) but we all try to make each other better, like getting out of a bad habit. since always I've been jumping from different forms of "controlling" my life, and this is the one I found recently. I know it's not the healthiest one, but I've also been very obese since little. I know I will get out of this one day, I always did, I just want to find comfort in something once again. oh, and in fact, last week I turned 16, so I am not 14 (I put the wrong age when I created the blog and never realised, very clumsy, sorry). but thank you very much for caring, it really means a lot to me <3

( hypothetical scenario )

look at me and look at you

i’m embarrassed to even be around you

you’re just so fat it’s disgusting

lol there’s a reason we don’t take pictures with you

you’re like a garbage disposal

eating all of our food when we go out

always asking for seconds

omg that constant heavy breathing

ugh it’s just so disgusting

your face constantly looks greasy from all that shitty food

you should be ashamed.

hunger sc4le

painfully hungry: hunger pains, dizzy, feeling ill

very hungry: could eat anything, might binge

mildly hungry: strong signs of hunger, a little dizzy

hungry: 1st signs, stomach growling

neutral: emtpy not hungry or full, content

comfortably satisfied: hunger has been satisfied

very satisfied: hunger has been satisfied a little too well, full

beyond satisfied: starting to feel sick but manageable

uncomfortably over stuffed: feelings of guilt, heavy feeling, a bit nauseous, food coma

extremely stuffed: could throw up, bloated, feels heavy, sluggish, can't look at food

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This is the hunger scale, knowing this can hep you read your body. I personally try to stay 3-6. This helps keep me with my from b1ng1ng/ overe4ting.

keepingn track of your feelings and emotions before and after you e4t is also helpful, so you can find patterns in your eating behaviors like:

(before) am i actually hungry?

(before) what is my hunger scale?

(before) am i sad?

(before) am i stressed?

(before) am i happy?

(before) am i angry?

(after) how much did i eat?

(after) what is my hunger scale now?

(after) how do i feell now?

stay safe loves xox

Nos garotas meio My Melody

I know I have to describe myself, I'll do it once I find out who I am. here's a few things about me though:

genderfluid/ace/bi

pronouns: any

fav colour: blue

fav animal: fox and cats

dreams: move to a nice country, be who I really am

will change it when I find out how to do this properly