Ok But Like What If I Did This

So heres the protagonist of my little persona story thingy! I very clearly edited the picture a bit cuz it was super blurry n shit so I'm sorry if I made it look worse

Regardless his name is both Noya Koji and Okita Horiuchi, though I prefer Okita tbh

He moves in to a very old and traditional town near a famous forest, to live with his grandparents there. His parents were both physically abusive towards him and so he was taken by social services after his first year if highschool. So now hes transferred to a old school in town as a second year, where rumors and gossip about a kid that went missing in the woods a few weeks ago buzz.

I might redesign the uniform cuz I accidentally made it too dark, but yes

Here he is

Welp I forgot I fucking rebloged some of my old stuff from my old art account so nevermind but STILL

hellooo!!! I'm popping in to firstly apologize for all the sudden reblogs!! I'm sorry if it's annoying xdhfjzhgjhkf but also here to express how much I adore your art and I am so happy I decided to go through Golden Rose fanart and stumbled across your (absolutely gorgeous) mc! <333 Your art is very pretty and your style is so expressive and soft in a way I can't hope to describe; just know it's so so pretty!! That's all, have a wonderful day and I look forward to seeing what else you post!

AAAAAAHH ok I'll admit I got a bit of a jumpscare from the sheer amount of reblogs but THANK YOU SO MUCHH

By all means I'm very flattered you like my art so much, it's a bit hard to appreciate my own art since I take it for granted most of the time so, seeing someone else love it so much brings a bit of a different perspective to that matter so, thank you for that too!

I hope whatever I post next within this century will be worth the wait for ya

SO I FINALLY GOT AROUND TO PLAYING THE SOUL STONE WAR, and I made this basic bitch and I love him, he is the only normal one besides Strassa maybe. At least as normal as a person trouble loves to follow anyway, but I digress.

The Soul Stone War is a lovely little game made by @intimidatingpuffinstudios, I’d probably play it sooner if I had… money, BUT I managed to get some and got both 1 and 2, they’ve been a blast even if 2 was a lot more, emotionally draining.

I’m gonna get into more deets about Isak here so, if ur not interested I’ll cover it up with a read more! Also it contains spoilers for books 1 and 2 so, if u wanna avoid that don’t look lol

Now seeing as the deets about the origins in game haven’t been revealed yet, I unfortunately cannot tell you exactly what happened to him, however I can give you how he reacted to all the shit that went on and how it affected him!

Isak grew up with his brother Jorgen and his mother, until she passed away probably around the time Isak was starting to reach maturity, he was heart broken of course, but Isak needed to be strong for Jorgen so he coped by looking on the brighter side of things. He tried to be a positive influence on his brother, and always did his best in taking care of him, either by working his absolute ass off in a toxic work environment for money or by telling Jorgen grand stories he made up based off of the tales in the scrolls in his village. He truly loved his brother and would do anything for him, including taking abuse by the locals that were particularly nasty to him and his brother.

He still tried to be friendly to the locals, even if they were cold, at the very least to try and make life easier for him and his brother. Of course the only person he considered a friend was his neighbor, who was the only person that was kind to him after his mother’s death, seeing as everyone would remain cold or even hostile to him despite his efforts.

Bain was his reoccurring tormentor, he tried many methods to placate him, appealing to him, letting him beat him, hell he even faught him once! But Isak lost, seeing as he avoided conflict where it would arise. Still none of these worked, and Bain continued to abuse him, but his brother especially

Which is probably what led to Jorgen’s subsequent death.

I cannot say what happened specifically, but regardless, Isak was completely crushed. For the first time in his life, he decided to give in to his rage as a way to placate the grief he would feel for the rest of his life, and he regretted doing so. Very much so.

After fleeing his village, he honestly considered just killing himself then and there, he couldn’t see a bright side his situation and the death of his brother was still fresh on his mind, but of course dear old lady Conch was there to remind him otherwise. With her help he regained his positive attitude, if not shaken now, and managed to pick himself up as much as he could from the depths and press on. To live a good life, one Jorgen likely would’ve wanted for him.

However Isak did develop a bad habit of spiraling if he doesn’t manage to convince himself that things will be ok, which usually leads to panic attacks, but of course he still tries despite this.

Hopefully this more or less sheds light on who he is a bit! He is an absolute peach and I love him, his design is probably a bit too bright for the setting but eh, it suits him, I’ll probably edit this to add his relationship dynamics so far if people r interested enough

Drew my Mordred for @llamagirl28 ‘s story Bastard of Camelot, overall not having a good time but I digress

‘It’s a lil old but I like it kinda, though I recommend BoC a lot, maybe not for everyone per say due to the themes it explores but I think they execute them rather well! Also the plot is just very compelling and I really like the oc I made for it, so overall it’s pretty pog

DREW MY FAVORITE DND CHARACTER IN CASUAL CLOTHESSSS, I love her so so so so so much u have no IDEA

Okay so this is Ghorzah Boi, she is a full blooded Orc Fighter who was a mercenary, she got Excalibur on the first session and then became queen of the Orcs after the campaign, she used to live in fantasy Texas but after the campaign she retook it for the orcs because it was originally thier’s and fantasy Texas was really racist. She is also really nice and tries really hard to help out people and get money to send to her family in Texas but literally everyone treated her like garbage so she developed serious self esteem issues. Which btw turns out her family has been dead for like a long time but her mind repressed that fact and she had been living in denial her whole life, where her new caretaker let her live that fantasy and took the money she was making and used it for himself. She did not take it well.

She is also extremely buff and has a invisible psychic ferret? He was a dick too tho

Sorry for the ramble but she is really cool to me and I wanted to share my blue gorlllll

Welp, lazy art, again

As u can see, m!byleth makes me go awooooooooga,,,,, he look cool :)

And hes autistic I have decided, yes

Transcript for those that can't read my shitty writing

Byleth: Rapier, Longsword, Falchion, Sabre, Claymore, Cutlass, Estoc, Tsurugi, Arming Sword, Viking Sword, Gladius, Khopesh, Spatha, Xiphos, Wakizashi-

Sylvain: Asked to name every sword

Okay… so like, I found @lyragames to be released interactive novel, and uhh, I haven’t stopped thinking about it since, at all Bro I didn’t think I needed this till I saw it but I’m hyped as SHIT it looks so interesting right nowww Anyway I don’t have too much on this guy but his name is Otto, and he a pretty boy perfect beauty that kinda thing. Probably secretly insecure and it gets worse when he turns into a fucking goose lol the details however I will have to work on These are rough design notes but I like it so far :)

Trainer Cloud is waiting for an ass kicking

Ejddheidj trainersona babbbeyyyyyyy, fucking love pokemon and I love these assholes in particular, so here ya go, a family portrait uwu

My hand hurts

I'm sorry I'm letting this affect my performance in art, as I mentioned in the tags in the last reblog I'll do my best to get literally anything done

Well I'm working on some Persona Ocs so if that will satisfy yall I'll gladly show em off!

If not I'll stick to the fanart, as an apology really

So, Unus and Annus are reaching the last hour of existence, and they said that if we want, we could write our last words to them and our aspirations, and.... I wanna do it

I'm taking this stupidly seriously but this, this channel became important to me, it made me expand my thoughts on what I thought death was to me and what my life is to me

But here we go

I haven't been here for the beginning, I didnt watch every video and I never bought merch, but regardless this channel and these videos worked there way into my thoughts, and this livestream made me stupid sentimental. My internet currently is shitting itself and I might not see the end properly, but that's ok.

Death to me, is the end

That's it, I dont know if there is an after and I dont care, I dont fear the emotions and pain I might feel facing my demise but I do fear one thing. I fear of what my death will do to the world i leave behind.

Will it change? Will it mourn? Will it rejoice??? Or will absolutely nothing happen, and time keeps moving forward as it does. More importantly however, how would the people I love remember me? After death I will be gone and over, there wont be anything left of me besides the legacy I have left and the memory people hold of me, so I cant help but think of the only thing I CAN think of involving my demise. But this is egotistical of me is it not? Death is normal, and I am not special for thinking this way, I am going to die and so will you guys. But in all honesty I cannot think of any other way to perceive my death, I cannot for the life of me think of anything else to say about it.

That's also ok, I'm alive

I'll never understand my death as long as I live.

But I obsess so much, about what will happen after I die, but I try not to think about what will happen as I continue to live.

I am young, and I am childish, I am naive and I am hopeful.

I only really truly desire one thing in my life more than anything, even if it may change over time.

I want to make a story I love, and characters whom can share my thoughts and feelings, in their own unique experiences, and become their own people from them as well. I want to create art that would do them justice and I want to love it so, so, so much

I know I dont draw as much as want, I should not force myself to per say, but I find it difficult to find motive to.

At this moment that is my only goal in my life, I just want to love what I create

I will one day

Even if I may die before I create such a story, I will love my art, I do love it now

I love it because I CREATED it

I made it, I birthed something simply because I wanted to, because its fun

And I really, really wish I could see that everyday.

But I do not, and that's ok, that's ok

Its ok

This channel taught me to, learn what it is that I value about my life and my death, and because I overthink MANY things this was not always a good thing lol

It will die soon, and that's ok

But that does not mean I will not feel, grief

No matter how much or little that grief may be.

So what shall I do? When it does? When it dies 20 minutes from now as I'm writing this?

Well I'll cry

I'll cry, and cry and cry

Because it is what I can do

.

I don't know what my life will be like, I cant find the words to describe what I think of it as, as of writing this at least.

But

But I

I want to live

I AM living

I AM ALIVE

and I'm so glad that I am, I used to think living was a burden, I used to hate that fact

But I'm still here, I'm still breathing and I'm so

I'm so relieved, that I chose to stay alive.

And I hope that those who are reading this feel that too, maybe not today or tomorrow, but soon.

Soon.

Because it is, such an amazing thing to be here, with you, and with my family and friends, and with strangers I'll never meet

..

This has gone in a while

This is clearly important to me so I wanted to be transparent in my feelings. I dont know how u all will react to this and I dont know if you will care.

But that's okay, you dont need to take anything from this.

Well

Except for one thing.

Momento Mori, Remember Death

Remember Life

Unus Annus

Thank you so much for reading my rambles about my existence, thank you so much

I'm glad you are alive reading this as well

I'm glad we exist :)