By Jacobxrossi

You don't need to get to church, you need to get to God.

Pastor Matt Hayden

vincent giarrano

I cut myself and now I'm really fucking sad

Well, much as cutting can feel satisfying, it can be emotionally strenuous and harmful. There's not much that works for everyone, but what works for me is to count the days (or the hours if it's that bad) that you refrain from self-harm and just think of beating your previous record whenever it crosses your mind. Just beating it by one day, and then one more, etc. I'm proud of you for seeking help. If you're under 16 and living in Canada/US (I'm not sure about elsewhere), Kids Help Phone is a fantastic resource, where you can remain anonymous. God bless you on your journey of recovery.

Without You

Oh, you're running through my head Get out right now I don't have time for this I've done my time with you Can't you see I just I just want to go home

I'm not too good for you Oh, why can't you see I'm on my way to a new life Without you and me It's not like I don't want to see you any more I just need to open up a brand new door

I still love you more than ever I just need some time I still love you more than life I just need to figure out mine Without you Here

Oh, I'm talking to myself I can't sleep I dream of you all night I guess what you sow you reap My life's not on the line But it's getting hard to See the bigger picture Even though I am free

I still love you more than ever I just need some time I still love you more than life I just need to figure out mine Without you Here

I'm just tired, I'm just worn You've opened up my heart You're the best thing to ever Happen to me...

Nikolai Astrup - Bonfire celebrating Midsummer Night (btw. 1912-1926)

Old song, but it's snowing out, so it kind of fits!

Snow is falling at your feet You think to yourself, man, isn’t that neat Every year it comes and goes Quite a lot like wind that blows

The world keeps spinning round and round Everything keeps making sound The rain will pour down on your parade People will continue their masquerade

Is it really worth the pain? All the aching, all the strain One would really move to think That we will soon run out of ink

Doesn’t matter what you say Doesn’t matter what you do This world won’t ever stop for you Scream as loud as you can You’re still just a man

They may say you’re not enough Or maybe it’s the voices upstairs, they’re rough Hiding yourself away Won’t ever make it really go away

Maybe you are different Maybe you’re not on the hunt For something of a way out Maybe you’re just trying To figure out

How to keep calm Carry on Just because everything’s going to change Doesn’t mean nothing will ever be the same The night was long But here comes the dawn Say a prayer, build a bridge Hope is coming o’er the ridge Just keep calm And carry on.

Merry Christmas!

Hey, everybody! Sorry I've been gone so long, both here and with my phone. I've been doing a lot of writing music and a lot less poetry, so I might change the general attire of this blog soon. I hope you lovely people are having wonderful holidays, and that whatever it is you celebrate went incredibly well. I, myself, celebrate Christmas, and it was a total blowout for me! I not only got the freaking beautiful BOSE headphones that I asked for from my grandparents and uncle, but also a gorgeous mini-speaker from my parents (also by BOSE) that connects via Bluetooth. It's ridiculous how spoiled I am. :3 Let me know in a message what's been going on with you guys! I may or may not have my phone around, for those that have my phone number. I'm visiting a lot of family, and it's been a bit exhausting. Sadly, I've become unable of going to sleep before midnight without doing something, and this just happens to be it tonight. Also, there will be a sledding "party" (could you imagine me actually throwing any kind of real party? That would not go well at all.) after school someday behind Aurora High School. All are invited. It will probably be during exam time, so we can all go to our exam and just bring snow gear with us and then use it to the edge of its spontaneous combustion from pure awesomeness. I wonder if any of this is actually making sense right now.

TL;DR -I'm not dead -I probably won't have my phone for a bit yet -Sledding at my school during exams