“I Don’t Know What Living A Balanced Life Feels Like. When I Am Sad, I Don’t Cry, I Pour. When

The Moon & Art by Théodore Gudin 🌙⭐

Chinese garden in Berlin. 🌿

𖧷 We met two very friendly, cute ducks - a couple. They sat with us and even touched my feet.

more playlists for hyper-specific things :-)

“hi everyone! as you may know, my spotify is constantly booming with new playlists and i wanted to share more with you to help you start 2022 on the right foot! 

1. “but somewhere lost inside me there’ll always be the person i am tonight” is a quote from f. scott fitzgerald himself and also a playlist that I made for nighttime pondering. if you are stuck between studying and dissociating, watching the stars and pondering your life’s meaning, or anything in between, you’ll like this one :) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0gGnjtGs7VztONYhNk1lYH?si=c8fb3d25e92d4c32

2. “but you, unlike me, are a git.” - this playlist is yet again a drarry playlist, i fell back into their spell a little while ago and wanted to create an updated one with the way i felt while falling back into it https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0SGzrgukQKKThoTS1hsdZv?si=10b2bc5c67594b1a

3. “there are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy”- a quote from the famous shakespeare and a great modern playlist for the play hamlet. i loved hamlet when i read it and it is kind of a reflection of how i felt reading it for the first time :-) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0GXsq2HXVeIjpXNfGUYM1b?si=b658fe03d5f7462c

4. “I see you loving on the sidelines” is a playlist i made for the transition from summer into fall, but hey, no issues listening to it now!! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1rj7ClK2ThIgB6HAHrcuZ3?si=04d0a55120a44a89

5. “love is a million things” - for all of my euphoria lovers out there, this one is for you! It’s based off of the show and I am constantly adding to it because of the new season https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0nQ5Q8Uw54LiM8IKp6EnUs?si=68c9e60e2a1141cc

6. “nothing american dream about this place” is about the movie McFarland, USA on disney +, i fell in love with it when i watched it and thought i should keep that feeling https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0r1APWI112PeTzJB8JqFyr?si=6e3615097d9549a6

7. “i had simply failed to notice how extraordinary it was” is a playlist dedicated to the movie Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, which i watched the other day and fell in love with it all over again. here’s to reliving childhood! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7dtLmkUlpSrZGYBOJQNavC?si=941c856bdc544cbf

8. “you’re not lost, you’re redirecting” is a playlist i made for my friend who is going through a lot of feelings right now. if you feel like you’re about to explode into catharsis, this one is for you :-) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4gsvitdyARM0PKjarrsOo4?si=36b3d049296f4c50

9. this one is called “you’re outside a halloween party” because the aesthetic is being overwhelmed and sitting outside in the dark as the music bumps behind you in a faded tone. i created this in october, but any time of the year works for this!! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6xbVMsLqiR51uJ9J8WKN00?si=8e6fdc54b3be4926

10. “and this is when the feeling sinks in” is yet ANOTHER drarry playlist, but it is based on some of the social media aus i’ve seen about them on this app. it’s a little more carefree and less hogwarts-ish. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6tbYNL482gRYOogWKATUYT?si=71f412886dbd4de2

those are my ten for right now, happy listening! 

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Uh I think I done goofed up y'all..

happy valentine’s day 💌

the only “Gojo has a God Complex” moment i accept is when he calls himself a God once before wasting Toji and then 20mins later he has an absolute breakdown bc he’s a teenager with way too much power and the world’s expectations on his scrawny shoulders, cradling a young girl’s dead body even younger than him while surrounded by the people who celebrated her death and feeling this close to snapping and ending it all bc he can, can’t he? he is Gojo Satoru. Six Eyes. Limitless. his power beloved and praised by all, standing on a lonely podium, seen and not seen at the same time. people wouldn’t lament the fall of Gojo Satoru, but rather the God they projected onto a particularly blessed child.

I love dead poets society so much, I wish gay people were real.

sagau

imagine if the reader respawned after they killed her. she just like, wakes up again on top of one of liyue's mountains, a huge scar in the form of a line around their neck. they could practically still feel the fear and adrenaline rushing through them as the guillotine fell down. it'd be simple for them to run off and try to hide somewhere.

meanwhile, the everyone is in absolute chaos.

they saw the golden blood and immediately realized how badly they fucked up. the corpse was there for a few seconds, just allowing everyone to get a nice, good look of it, before teyvat pulled the body into the ground to be healed somewhere else. i can imagine how xiao might try to chase after it; quickly falling to the ground with centuries worth of repressed tears flowing from his eyes. zhongli would be frozen for a few moments, the geo power flowing within him seemingly quiet. no hesitation from the sobbing venti to scratch at the ground and beg for their grace to come back.

teyvat knows that the reader can't go back to their home, teyvat never planned to bring them back in the first place, but at the world is protective enough to separate them from their acolytes.

-888 anon

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Imagine reader having unending night terrors after that— how can they not? How can they even pretend they're okay after they were so brutally killed with their death being celebrated by the masses, by people they once adored and loved and built. If nothing else, the scar around their neck reminded them of their unjust murder, and so they keep themselves away from everybody, even children. They're painfully lonely, so scared and tired but they would choose this loneliness a hundred times over being killed again.

Reader's acolytes are tearing Teyvat apart in search for them, and are tearing into themselves for their foolish, unforgivable actions. Zhongli doesn't leave a single stone unturned even when the earth stubbornly ignores him, his adepti and the qixing at every other corner of Liyue; Venti flies over every nook and cranny of Mondstadt with the knights and even with dvalin, always praying and praying for forgiveness; Ei has all of Inazuma and the Commissions working triple time in her desperate search for you. Each night is spent wallowing and weeping for the horrific mistake they did.

None of them can find Reader of course; Teyvat no longer trusts them them with its Creator and so now, Teyvat will ensure they won't ever again hurt Reader.

i cannot make speeches

cinnamon girl - lana del rey // emma (2020) - dir. autumn de wilde // text post - @tturing​ // the unbearable lightness of being - milan kundera // the song i’ll never write - gary barlow // earth, my likeness - walt whitman // the most profound things are inexpressible - christina badal // @theweeknd on twitter via @z-ndjenja​ // cinnamon girl - lana del rey