LUCID DREAMS + VIVID SHIFTING DREAM!
i believe that before this dream i had been struggling with lucid dreaming a bit (i hadn't had one in the past few weeks and was doubting my ability) when i did have one. i can't remember this one very well since it was a little while ago but i do remember that i'd read that if you close your eyes in the lucid state you're sent straight to the void state, and while i didn't do so, the dream faded away and i thought this was the perfect time to try to shift.
i think part of what i did incorrectly was not set a firm intention - i just wanted to shift - but i ended up waking up in a bed and grover, percy and annabeth were in the same room sleeping.
now, i haven't yet finished my pjo script (like, at all) but i did think i shifted, mainly because of how incredibly vivid the dream was. i tried doing reality checks in the dream but didn't focus on them enough (trying to breath through a closed nose tends to work, though in more vivid dreams i find that there's an initial resistance, almost like i can't breath through it, so i try to do longer reality checks during the day because of this).
anyway, in the dream i walked around excitedly because i was like, "this is it, i shifted", though i overlooked lots of odd aspects about the world since it was a dream. when i woke up i was partially bummed that i didn't shift but this was also great motivation.
i also had a lucid dream another night where i was able to create a portal for the first time! i have had trouble controlling dreams especially in the past so during the day i planned what i was going to do in the dream, which was to accio a sword (luke's sword from pjo) and use it to create a portal.
i ironically had a dream before this about both hp and pjo, but anyway, after i woke up i was still tired so i closed my eyes and allowed the dream to materialize in front of me, and once it was tangible i started moving around. i accio'd a sword, and it worked! then i created a portal but woke up prematurely ๐ญ
but that's about it! i don't know what it is with me and having 'false shifts' in my dreams but they're pretty common. i just tend to use them as motivation!!
back to โ shifting journal.
Bruce Wayne: *traumatized by his childhood and has a plethora of communication issues*
Me: *special interest is communication, community and building lasting healthy relationships*
random, but I think the way people talk about abusers as hypercompetent, calculating manipulators that Know exactly what they're doing makes it easier for people to get into abusive relationships
daydreaming vs visualization vs imagination
i was thinking about before i got into the law. you know when you imagine steamy scenarios before you go to bed for fun? i know you know what i mean. i used to do that every night in 2020 (even now) with the same scenario bc it was fun. keep in mind that i didnt know about the law at this point so i obviously didnt intend for it to "manifest". a year ago when i started to understand states, i used to think back to 2020 and wonder why those scenarios didnt manifest since i kept visualizing and imagining the same thing. last week i randomly remembered about how i used to wonder that and i immediately knew the answer: i wasnt changing self.
when i was visualizing/imagining, i wasnt becoming the person who actually knew i was experiencing it. i was not being someone who was experiencing those steamy scenarios. in order words, i was just daydreaming.
daydreaming
in my own words, i think daydreaming is visualizing something while being someone who knows they dont have it. for example: visualizing owning a car while knowing that you dont have it. so you are just visualizing it for fun, not for the purpose of changing self but for the purpose of just experiencing something in imagination (via visualization) just for your own enjoyment. daydreaming is like visualizing for fun, without changing states/self. this "knowing" i talk about is based on what state you are in, so if someone knows they dont have a car, they are in that state.
i think daydreaming is always visualization but visualization is not always daydreaming. daydreaming is for fun, without the intention of "manifesting" or changing states while visualization is changing states whether or not you intent to do so.
so i was visualizing my freaky scenes as the version of me who didnt identify with those freaky scenes (aka daydreaming). i wasnt identifying with it or using it to change self. same thing applies to when i used to repeat positive thoughts 100k times but i didnt identify with them. those are called vain repetitions and can be used to change self but if they just dont change self/states, then it is just daydreaming/vain repetitions. you can change self/states without realizing too which is why i think people put so much power onto techniques by thinking the techniques themselves are doing something, when its only self (imagination/you) that is changed by the techniques. those techniques were the things that consciously or unconsciously made you change self. regardless, self/you will always be the thing manifesting.
realize that regardless of everything, your state/version of you you are being, will always determine the "3d".
visualization โ imagination
visualization is a tool to change self / imagination. you can visualize things but that doesnt mean you are identifying with it or accepting it as true. i think of visualization as a smaller form of imagination but its very small compared to imagining/imagination itself.
imagination is what you are (aka self). imagination is not a tool like visualization because you always are operating in imagination since everything is self. you are always being a version of you. you arent always visualizing. visualizing can be daydreaming if you arent visualizing that thing to change self.
when you imagine something in a law of assumption context, imagining = what version of you you are being.
imagination is not limited to visualizing. there are some people in this community who have aphantasia and think they have no imagination and therefore "cant manifest", etc. but they just cant visualize. imagination is not equal to visualization. no matter what type of or stage of aphantasia you have, you will always already be manifesting.
visualizing and thinking without changing self means nothing. changing self means being a new version of you who knows they have (insert whatever desire).
self changes everything
so back to my story, i was just visualizing me and my imaginary bae, i wasnt being the person who was experiencing what i was visualizing. this is why it didnt manifest. i like this idea because that is just more proof that self changes everything, who ever you are being in imagination will express. it also means i have control bc i can daydream anything for fun and control whether or not it expresses bc i dont have to identify with that version of me who is experiencing whatever i am daydreaming.
i hope this makes sense and if it doesnt, dont stress. just focus on changing self, be the version of you that has whatever it is you want. i made this post because its been on my mind and hopefully it can help someone else realize that changing self is all you ever have to do.
kisses, jani โ
Person in my Better CR: how are you able to afford a newly renovated house, a car, two cats, a full time job and be a university student only at age 19???
Me: *who scripted my perfect life and out every inconvenience*: yaโknow boot straps or whateverโฆ
a man self immolated in front of the israeli embassy in washington dc yesterday. not just any man. an active member of the us air force. he live streamed his death, and said that he refused to be complicit in a genocide any longer. he said that compared to what palestinians were facing every day, setting himself alight was nothing.
let me reiterate. an active duty air force member burned himself alive because he was so disgusted by what the us government was openly supporting. he live-streamed his own suicide, so the whole world could bear witness as a man in his military uniform set himself on fire to protest his governmentโs complicity in the horrors that we have all been forced to watch happen in real time. he became a new horror. footage of the immolation blurs him out the moment the fire catches, but you can hear him. it is over in seconds, really, but you can hear him screaming. he shouts โfree palestineโ until his body physically cannot make any sounds other than guttural screams of agony. and then he falls silent. a police officer arrives and points a gun at his still burning body, shouting at him to get down on the ground. and it is over.
his name was Aaron Bushnell. he was twenty five years old. and he isnโt here anymore because the political ruling class has decided that genocide is perfectly fine as long as it preserves imperialism. in the coming days, people will try to discredit him. to say that he was mentally unstable. they will try to bury his actions to save face and defend israelโs propaganda. do not let them. aaron knew what he was doing. he knew what he was doing when he put on his military uniform, set up his twitch stream, and made his final walk up to the embassy. he knew what would happen to him when he flicked that lighter. do not let them forget. aaronโs blood is on the hands of the political ruling class.
felix & venetia having matching star tattoos
the vampire scene hinting at venetias death
the catton players display with the stones ontop at the end
venetia telling the doppelganger story and seeing a felix doppelganger in the window (hints at felixโs death)
these r some of the details i really love that emerald put into the film & i feel like they add a lot
๐ list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your moots or followers <3
Drawing
The colors purple, pink, green and blue
My zodiac sign (Sagittarius RAAAH)
Shifting (mainly to rich and royalty DRs)
Aesthetics
now that i think about it. do yall think i could break the curse on gotham and close the pit of hell thatโs in gotham?
Happy birthday!!
awww thank you ๐
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