People In Fanfiction Are So Good At Identifying V Specific Smells. I Literally Struggle To Identify Vanilla

i love destiel but i wish the other ships were as popular. like yes cas and dean are my favs but what abt samandy?? sastiel?? dean and lisa?? sam and jess?? saileen?? hello, where’s their representation??

i'm going to move on from supernatural posting, i swear to god, but first i'm going to talk about ep 9x07 bad boys

the episode itself is fine and good (i mean it's another example of dean having a support network while sam can't have anyone and dean keeping secrets while when sam does it it's the worst betrayal ever but that's not what this is about and sometimes i think about what this show did two earnest, loving traumatized characters by turning them into the most tragic versions of themselves and - ok, this really isn't what this post is about)

but fandom interpretation of this episode actually drives me up a wall because it does a disservice to literally every character

one, john did not leave them without enough money for food. dean gambled it and lost it. there's nothing in canon to say that john was taking longer than expected, that they were running out of money, none of that. dean gambled food money and lost it and then tried to steal to make up for it. he was 16 when this happened and it was a bad decision but i don't think he should be at all vilified for this. he made a dumb mistake and then tried to fix it with another dumb mistake. john was right to be mad and sam was also right to tell him that he shouldn't beat himself up about it. just like with shtriga - yeah, dean was climbing the walls stuck in that hotel room. but you know who else was stuck in that hotel room? sam. and he didn't get a break to go play at the arcade. again, i'm not blaming dean here, he shouldn't have been stuck taking care of his brother that young and he was a kid and john leaving his his children behind while hunting a child eater, whether he was using them for bait or not, is crazy. but dean stealing food wasn't about john's neglect and all the sacrifices dean had to make for sam. it was about him trying to fix his fuck up

two, and this is the one that really gets me, dean didn't go back with john because he had to take care of sam

listen. listen to me. i am speaking from experience when i say this

parentified siblings are still, first and foremost, siblings. especially with only 4 years between them. the show shameless i think did an absolutely excellent job with this and is why i love the first few seasons of it so much. fiona is without a doubt parentified, she is raising those kids, but she's also clearly their sister not their mother

i know later seasons dean and fandom like to make it seem like dean literally raised sam and john was just a background figure but like. that's not realistic, and frankly doesn't even make sense

the reason dean leaves sonny and goes with john isn't because he feels like he has to keep him sam safe. it's isn't because he feels like he has to raise him. it's because he loves him

you are reducing dean to the most pathetic woe is me archetype with this interpretation and ridding him of all his rich loyalty and care and love to saddle him instead with comparatively flat duty. dean is more than sam's caretaker. he's his brother

there's also no reason for dean to feel this way. he just massively fucked up in taking care of sam - that's why he's with sonny in the first place. john has alternate people to take care of sam when he can't do it himself, as he has just proven, and while i don't think we should turn a couple teenage mistakes into making dean incapable, dean absolutely would - and did! he carries every fuck up regarding sam with him! so right now he's really, really low when it comes to his own estimation to take care of sam and leaving sonny because of that doesn't make any sense

but he looks at his brother and is reminded how much he missed him and loves him and realizes staying means he loses his brother. the good and the bad. so he goes, because he loves sam more than anything else

this is also why sam leaving for stanford cuts him so deep. that's why this moment is a parallel to that rather than being unrelated. stanford isn't about sam leaving dean even though he has a duty to care of him, because he doesn't. dean's 22 and at this point is always hunting with their father so there's no reason for sam to believe his presence is necessary for either john or dean's safety

no, dean's mad because he chose his love for his brother over a normal life and sam didn't

(sam didn't want to choose at all but this isn't about him)

anyway. dean fucks up sometimes and john sucks but not quite in the ways fandom thinks and dean loves his brother past reason or sense

I was reading the Arcane “council archives” of Jayce’s journal and that man is never beating the ADHD allegations.

He talks a lot about science but scattered amongst his research is.

Lamenting how he left his measuring equipment in his apartment after traveling to the dessert.

Him workshopping insults to call another student who almost caught him throwing out an illegal experiment.

Jayce figuring out his grades were probably dropping because he wasn’t sleeping and he decides he wanted to graph the correlation instead of sleeping or studying.

Ranting about the how the pastries are better than the inventions at the Day of Progress celebration.

A pros and cons list about continuing his experiments that included the fact that he’s failing his classes instead of doing anything about it.

Writing himself a reminder to ask Viktor his last name.

Also he has yet another random ass sandwich on his desk.

Also bonus: He didn’t think he’d work well with other scientists at all before he met Viktor.

for my fellow lds folks, check out emma nissen!! you are obviously also welcome to check her out if you’re not, but she is lds iirc so that’s more where her music is based. she does christian music in a jazz style, and i love it!! these are some of my favorites of hers:

you don’t hate modern religious music, you hate megachurch worship bands that play to packed stadiums and roll in cash while writing the most stereotypical and soulless lyrics imaginable

probably waiting for Padme and Luke at the spaceport or sth ajshdgkasd

i had a dream that my life would be so different from this hell i’m living. [x]

ummm random style change (i'll be switching) anyway angst art of the 'boy with the demon blood'

you are not a misfit! You are a needed part of the body of Christ!

he's on an iced coffee break