Update: Said Cat Apparently Also Loves Caramel Pudding

As a neurodivergent fucker myself, it's always so very rewarding any time I can introduce one of my equally neurodivergent peers to the joys that is microsoft excel/google sheets.

Anyways, here's a link to a google sheets version of my supernatural masterdoc tracking every on-screen death. It's filled with some pretty creative solutions and formulas if I dare say so myself

(I work in excel, but it's a bit finnicky with sharing there, so just lmk if you want the proper document and I can mail you the file. Had to remove a couple of things that didn't translate to google, so the true document also has a list of every single killer in the show, and a list of episodes with no deaths)

Just some actual destiel things that haunt me:

when Dean and Cas are going after Raphael in s5 and there's that whole 'last night on earth' vibe and Dean tells Cas "two things I know for certain: one, Bert and Ernie are gay. two, you are not gonna die a virgin, not on my watch."

"Cas, not for nothing, but the last person who looked at me like that? I got laid."

FROM THE SAME EPISODE, when Dean is ready to surrender to the ~Apocalypse and Cas shoves him up against a wall, seething, "I gave EVERYTHING for you, and this is what you give to me???"

"I'm hunted, I rebelled, and I did it, all of it, for you."

all of "The Man Who Would Be King" in its entirety, not a second less, but ESPECIALLY when Cas narrates "and the worst part was Dean, trying so hard to be loyal with every instinct telling him otherwise" while the shot lingers on him staring at Dean, JUST PINING AWAY.

the entire Purgatory arc of season 8 🙏🙏🙏

THIS NO GOOD, RUINOUS LOOK CAS GIVES DEAN IN SEASON 9 WHEN DEAN'S BREAKING UP WITH HIM AND SAM:

when the camera pulls back on this gaze that lasts approximately forever:

when Cas dies in season 7 and Dean keeps his dang trenchcoat

THAT HE THEN RETURNS WHEN CAS IS RESURRECTED, saying (okay, in a cut line, but it was in the promo!) "Part of me always believed you'd come back."

in season 8, when Cas is being controlled by the angels and Naomi creates a simulation where he's forced to kill thousands and thousands of Deans, but he still can't kill the real one

lol Dean really made Cas a mixtape of his favorite Led Zeppelin songs

THIS. WHAT THE HECK IS THIS:

the fanfic gap of 9x06

when Amara is taking Casifer and Dean says, so worried, "Cas?" in the most awful voice possible

"He manipulated him. He made him promises, said 'Paradise on Earth,' and Cas bought it. And you know what it got him? It got him dead! Now you may be able to forget about that, BUT I CAN'T!" Ahhhh, the ANGER. THE GRIEF.

"I left, but you didn't stop me" + Dean praying, "I should've stopped you. You're my best friend, and I just let you go." THE GROWTHHHH.

"The one thing I want... it's something I know I can't have" / "You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know" / "You changed me, Dean" / "I love you." 😭😭

Was really nervous about doing badly at my heart thingy today, so when the nurse placed all the electrodes and hooked me up to the machine I pulled out every trick my 6(?) Years of synchronized swimming taught me of controlling my heart rate and made it as low as I could

I am thankfully not very skilled at this so hopefully it didn't mess up my results

I was also completely topless in front of a stranger so my heartrate was likely a lil bit elevated from that

Being an adult with adult money is so fuckkng hard.

Cause I do TECHNICALLY have enough money to get the 800$ tattoo I've been wanting for a year now.

But then I'd have to use like a 5th of my savings, and I live paycheck to paycheck, eith absolutely nothing leftover whatsoever, so I kinda really need my savings for stuff like glasses, clothes, vet bills etc.

But the money is RIGHT THERE

Timelapse on my ig (@lesbiansupernatural)

As a norwegian there are some english words that imo just dont match the vibe for what they are describing.

What do you mean a DECADE is only 10 years, and a century is 100?? I feel like if you're talking about something several decades ago that should be in dinosaur times

And dont get me started on left and right. The word Left is clearly this vibe:

(The logo for norways Right wing party, with the word HØYRE written bellow, aka the word for Right in norwegian)

YOU may let your cat allergy stop you from owning/petting a cat

I'm built different

everybody hold up i have something important to say

dean winchester is an allegory for the deconstruction of toxic masculinity

okay you may continue

I don't care how insanely huge my drawing canvas is, I WILL zoom in and do pixel art

Sometimes I wonder a lot about why the people who did my autism assesment scored me high enough to be just below the criteria for autism, cause I thought I nailed that silly test.

Then I remember that I described the feeling of happiness as cold water running down my spine, and maybe they weren't so wrong after all...

(I still stand by that description tho, not my fault they aren't able to see it that way)