Sometimes I Get Stressed Out That I'm Not Careful Enough On The Internet

I feel the need to mention that I learned what knotting was at the age of like 5... Now you may ask "how the fuck could you learn what it was before you even knew how to read?"

Well...

I have loved dogs from a very young age, and so has my mom. So when I grew up we had this gorgeous and HUGE book of a bunch of dog breeds. I loved looking at the pictures. In this book there was also a section about how wolves turned into dogs, how they are related to foxes, and about anatomy. So, on one of these pages, there was a picture of two dogs stuck together, so obviously I asked my mom what that was all about. And my mom, always willing to answer my questions, explained how dogs mate, how the male swells and how its so that no other dog can come and try to mate with the female immediately after

I literally have NO idea. Have I tasted cilantro? Yes, and I did think it tasted absolutely awful. But I dont think I'd say it tasted like soap. There is a possibility that I do not have the gene, but simply don't like cilantro.

On a different note, I do know I have the gene that makes grapefruit very bitter (tested it in school, and have eaten grapefruit) but I have eaten that shit with a load of sugar since I was like 4 years old and I absolutely love it

i need to know

The seasonal depression is hitting "I need to jump into a lake" levels, might go try ice bathing for the first time since I was a kid

If a good nights sleep is the human equivalent of turning a pc off and on, ducking your head under icy cold water is the equivalent of a factory reset

(Haven't been ice bathing since I was a kid, but I usually go for a swim in one of the lakes around my parents' house the first proper warm day of late spring (like 15°C) so the water IS cold as fuck)

Was really nervous about doing badly at my heart thingy today, so when the nurse placed all the electrodes and hooked me up to the machine I pulled out every trick my 6(?) Years of synchronized swimming taught me of controlling my heart rate and made it as low as I could

I am thankfully not very skilled at this so hopefully it didn't mess up my results

I was also completely topless in front of a stranger so my heartrate was likely a lil bit elevated from that

The queer youth today are being FED

I have a younger sister who recently came out as a lesbian (to nobody's surprise) and even though the world is still sorely lacking of lesbian content, queer content has gotten a massive boost these past 5 years.

When I was young and looking for queer rep I'd find it in the weirdest places. We obviously have fandoms, and fanfic and queerbaiting, but also the amount of movies I watched just for a single queer scene? I remember watching an adam sandler film about him having a billion kids solely because one of those kinds was matthew daddario playing a queer guy. Also watching teenwolf for the one very stereotypical gay side character. There were several others aswell, but I can't remember them at the moment

I remember the feeling of reading percy jackson and finding out Nico was gay, of reading the mortal instruments and finding out Alec was gay, I was so starved for any sort of representation that I held on to my small crumbs for dear life.

(Shoutout to the 100 for being one of very few, if any, tv shows with very natural queer rep and not a single hint of homophobia in show.)

My sister now has heartstopper, young royals, warrior nun, good omens, interview with the vampire (tho she's still a bit young for that one) and she has video game characters!!! She has ellie and dina, she has pretty much everyone in the life is strange games, and she even has aloy. I remember playing life is strange with my ex (the main game) and even though it has very queer undertones etc, it isn't very explicita, tbf it's a while since I played it so I might be wrong about that

My point is, we still have a very long way to go when it comes to queer rep in media, but goddamn it IS getting better.

Sometimes adulthood is having to call your doctors office asking for a renewal on a five+ year old prescription for allergy meds, cause the pollen allergy you thought you'd outgrown suddenly decided to make a comeback

Throwback to the 8th grade when I suddenly got blind spots in my vision, and the entire left side of my body got all tingly and fell asleep. I told my teacher and his response was deadass "okay, if it's still going on at the end of class (an hour away) you can call your mom" (my school was really strict abt phones inside the school building, so I couldn't just text her either)

My mom picked me up and we went straight to the doctor so I could get checked out. Thank GOD it was just a migraine attack, but what the fuck was that teacher on

He probs got it done in a random basement by some fucker with an amazon tattoo gun. How did he find this person? Uh idk, stumbled into them at a bar or some shit I guess

thinking about kevin's tattoo artist. how much money did kevin have to pay them to tattoo his FACE while DRUNK. were they an exy fan. did they spend the entire prep/stencil/tat time outwardly exuding professionalism while internally screaming. did they offer him aftercare instructions while knowing that motherfucker was going to be on the court tomorrow, sweating a fuckton over that open wound against his own brother. did they immediately text their friends after kevin left, you are literally never going to guess what i just fucking did

Just some cute destiel celebrating new year’s!!

I'm so curious as to when my mom figured out I was queer, cause I'm fairly certain she knew before I did. Let me elaborate

I never directly came out to my parents. I simply told my mom who I had a crush on when I was about 13. I'd realised I was gay a bit before getting the crush, but it was quite close in time. However, like a year before I came out (did not even know I was gay at the time) my mom made a comment about how she had a pretty good gaydar when it came to queer women, because she used to play soccer as a kid, and most of the players on that team, were lesbians. I also feel like there have been a lot of hints to her having a hunch throughout my childhood.

The most obvious moment was once when I was like, 11 maybe? and my family and I were having dinner. And my mom said something along the lines of "when you all grow up and get husbands" paused, looked directly at me, and said "or a wives" It is possible that I'm remembering this moment incorrectly, but holy shit, if it actually happened the way I remember? that shit's just crazy.

Me finding out I was a lesbian was also a bit of an ah-ha moment for me. Cause I went 1st through 7th grade just thinking "I don't have any crushes on any of the boys because all the boys at my school are morons." Then I changed schools, and met a whole bunch of new boys, but I still didn't have any sort of romantic interest in them, so then the natural conclusion was "oooh, maybe I'M the problem, not the boys." Which turned out to be 100% correct.

So I'm thinking it is possible my mom, being an adult and everything, picked up on this way before I realized myself.