This Was Suggested Months Ago, I’m Sorry It Took Me So Long. It Was Extremely Painful To Draw. This

October 21. An attempt at drawing a spider.

Today I both worked a lot, and procrastinated somewhat. So I decided to draw something that seemed simple, but more complex then just a tree branch or a leaf. So I tried to draw a spider. And I did it in a hurry. And now that I looked, I am not happy with the coloration I gave it. Well, here is to tomorrow.

what a miserable day.

reminding myself the world is not fundamentally changed. we have elected our own downfall, but there are birds outside, and my little niece is learning to walk, and I need to go grocery shopping.

(people had fulfilling lives during the fall of the roman empire. I'm reading books from the 1930's, the last time fascism almost consumed us. I am reminding myself of the people of the world right now living under unjust regimes. I am looking to minorities in america, past and present, for tips on thriving with a boot on your neck. I am reaching out to the half of the country who is mourning with me today, reminding myself there is good, there are helpers, we are still here.)

in the future there will be protests, bad news, fights (jesus christ, thanksgiving is still ahead). for now I am just trying to remember how to live. in 2016 I completely shut down and retreated from everyone. I allowed myself to be tricked into thinking I was alone. I don't want to do that again. (I don't want to do any of this again.)

this is how you live through tragedies - any way you can.

October 24. A simple, and not that good tree drawing.

Today, I worked a lot, and procrastinated a little. I wanted to draw a raven, but I felt devoid of any passion to do so today. And so I just drew this kind of bad tree in a hurry.

Heard about the georgia protests and how the cops were using rubber bullets, water cannons and tear gas and more

Then a dude (who I call Firework Man) pulled up with a firework minigun and it brought to mind some metal gear music

“I can’t be vegan, I love cheese”

Dairy industry is as evil as meat. No less harm for animals. Does it look natural that calf can’t drink milk so you can taste your piece of cheese? 

GO VEGAN. 

October 9. My attempt at drawing a cat.

So. Today I drew a cat. Not as proud of it as the wolf I drew yesterday. Honestly, the main problem with what I drew was at the very beginning, having redrawn the first steps several times, and getting angry. With the marks of this remaining.

While at the middle stages I was better, by the end I entered in a hurry.

Also, today I procrastinated again. Maybe I will draw another cat tomorrow. Or maybe something different.

Science: "hey if we don't do something about climate change there's a POSSIBILITY of increasingly catastrophic weather phenomena within our lifetimes, as you know a projected worst case scenario we could mitigate, not saying it's happening on any particular schedule but the trends are alarming! Let's try and reduce those odds!" Media: "hear that??? All the scientists literally said global warming will obliterate swathes of civilization in like 10 years. New York City will be underwater just like in these dramatized movies about it" Conservatives: "ummm it's not happening exactly that way so obviously scientists were WRONG about what we falsely think they were saying and therefore climate change is not really anyone's fault and can't be averted and won't hurt us so let's do more fracking" Climate: *goes ahead and does that shit anyway but somehow that debate continues exactly fucking the same and probably will for the rest of our shittier and shittier lives*

October 15. The only full drawing I made today.

Today I drew...a lot. Well, drew a lot if you mean making incomplete sketches. From my poor attempt at drawing an owl perched on a human arm, to several attempts at drawing a spider, they all failed, because I was constantly getting angry at the proportions being wrong. So anyway, here is a scythe. Not the most impressive stuff, but I at least made something. Even if I am not the proudest. Tomorrow, I should really attempt to draw something more complex.

October 2. My attempt at drawing a wolf.

So. Today I procrastinated just a little bit. Even if I also had some work do.

So anyway, here is my attempt at drawing a wolf. It is...not the best. I did redraw it several times, as can be seen, and by the end I entered a hurry, to get it today. I am not that happy now. The more I look, the worse the position and the shape looks for a wolf. On the other hand, the coloration does not look as bad as it looked to me at the beginning. But I at least did something today.

October 8. One of my last wolf drawings this month

So. I drew another wolf this day. I did one thing differently through. I tried to draw it at a large size.

Overall, I think it is a significant improvement. But even so, it still has some issues with the paws.