Two Separate Times 😭

THEM

did i mention that this is finnick and annie's song yet? because this is finnick and annie's song. <3

song: "slut!" by taylor swift

"Colin had no trauma related to love and self worth like Anthony. Anthony watched his father die, watched his mum turn into a ghost of a person, and didn't want that for his wife"

Bestie. . .they have. . .the same dad???? They have the same mum???? Literally all of the Bridgerton children except Hyacinth watched Edmund die? They all experienced Violet's immense sorrow? He and Violet obviously have a very close connection and so of course he saw her wilting (plant pun, if you were wondering) or at least knew about it and has responded with being particularly gentle with her?

Trauma shaped all the Bridgertons. Colin was a young boy when his dad passed and everyone in the family experienced an immense grief and, unlike his brothers, Colin was twelve, he wasn't the heir, he wasn't the spare, and had no responsibility but to go to school (sent off elsewhere after his dad passed away, thus disconnected from his circle of support and family) and figure out how to be a man from strangers and rakes. Literally no one had space for his grief and sensitivity? He even cries alone in his bedroom in Season 1 and stops talking about his travels after he gets made fun of in Season 2 and claims that hardly anyone replied to his letters in Season 3 like what do you mean he has no trauma related to love?

Colin was right there on the steps watching his father cradled in his mother's arms as she wept over his sudden passing. Of course he has trauma related to love? Colin's entire arc was about how he only felt he could be cared about if he was pleasing the people around him or being useful in some way and putting on a mask and a persona so he wouldn't be hurt by how much no one else wanted the real, messy, authentic him around? His mum and dad lived a love story and Colin watched it fall to pieces just as all the Bridgertons did, he just internalized it differently. His entire family was grieving so he decided to be useful by offering levity where he could, especially as the brother raised predominately with his sisters, Eloise and Daphne.

And yet despite the fact that this was such a huge tragedy of his childhood, Colin still is incredibly emotionally available and as soon as he realized what he felt for Penelope was romantic, he takes initiative and he cuts into her dance with Debling and he chases after her carriage so he can confess that he can't stop thinking about her and he's not at all angry at her, she doesn't vex him, it isn't frustration at her- it's torture because he is so damn besotted with her that he dreams of her and the kiss they shared haunts him but it's torture he embraces because he's a romantic soul who is incredibly emotionally brave and he cares about Penelope more than he cares about his ego or image or past hurts.

Give my man his flowers.

nie powinnam czytać tego zaraz przed egzaminem z matmy but here we are

Wpis do pamiętnika Basi Sapińskiej datowany na 17 grudnia 1943, osiem miesięcy po odejściu Alka:

“Malutki! Popatrz jaka jestem dorosła, chodzę na medycynę. A jednak tak bym chciała być znów twoją małą dziewczynką. Kochany, marzę o tym, żebym mogła usiąść koło Ciebie, oprzeć się o Twoje ramię, zamknąć oczy i wziąć Cię za rękę. Ostatni raz trzymałam Cię za rękę w szpitalu… Kochany, nigdy ci nie mówiłam o swojej miłości, może dlatego, że Ty też nic o tym nie mówiłeś. Byłeś zaabsorbowany swoją pracą i nie miałeś czasu o tym myśleć… A może mnie nie kochałeś?

Dopiero teraz zdaję sobie sprawę z mego uczucia. Ale wiesz co, nawet i dawniej przyszłość przy Tobie wydawała mi się tak piękną bajką, że nie śmiałam o tym myśleć.Ty byłeś w każdej mojej myśli, byłeś słońcem moim, moją radością i wszystkim co najpromienniejsze i najlepsze. Teraz, kochany, poznaję przez Ciebie to, co najcięższe, tęsknotę, rozpacz, beznadziejność i gorycz takich koszmarnych, ciemnych dni.

Żyłam od zobaczenia Ciebie do zobaczenia. Dałeś mi siebie, swoje przeżycia, swoje troski i radości. To jest tak strasznie dużo, że sobie nie możesz wyobrazić. Dałeś mi miłość do Ciebie i całą tą ogromną gamę uczuć, jakie tylko człowiek kochający może przeżyć. Tak Ciebie pełno dookoła, wszędzie. Widzę Cię. Słyszę twoje kroki. Kocham Cię, Kocham Cię… ”

And then he started thinking about her and boom, another drawing but 10x more detailed (cause he has photographic memory)... And then it became a whole sketchbook

Miles has definitely drawn Gwen by mistake. Like, he was just following a normal reference or something, mindlessly doodling and then boom, Gwen

if villan why SO COMFORTING TO LUCY GRAY (minus that one scene-)

BROOBRORBORBORBROOO

Look I know snow is a bad person, I know

But consider this

He's hot, thank you.

"enemies to lovers this" "friends to lovers that" "slowburn that"

YOU KNOW WHAT I NEED?? more fanfictions with the "POV Outsider" tag, thank you.

yes

YOU 🫵 THATS WHAT HAPPENED YOU 🫵

I love you people going into "useless" fields I love you classics majors I love you cultural studies majors I love you comparative literature majors I love you film studies majors I love you near eastern religions majors I love you Greek, Latin, and Hebrew majors I love you ethnic studies I love you people going into any and all small field that isn't considered lucrative in our rotting capitalist society please never stop keeping the sacred flame of knowledge for the sake of knowledge and understanding humanity and not merely for the sake of money alive

I was watching 10 things I hate about you and like mid way through I started writing randomly

and boom a year later I have 5 journals filled

“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you