ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🐛

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🐣

Breakfast~ 3 coffee + chicken and veggies + 1 omelette + fruit platter + 3 little cakes + 3 little tempeh mendoan and 2 croquettes Snack~ nuts mix + 1 ice Americano + 1 coffee Dinner~ 1 nasi goreng

Total:~ 1900-2000

First day of my period and a 5h hike, yeah better not r3str!ct today If I count everything my body burned at least 800 more than usual which means more than 1/3 of my maintenance + I really don’t care as long as it can prevent me from getting sick lmao I feel really weak right now

Little thing that can help (eventually?) First of all this is a daily reminder that one day that you consider bad will not mess everything up, don’t give up just for one day IT’S OKAY 💚💚

Tonight I indulged myself to have a snack, 3/4 of an apple and 15 vegetables crackers with a little bit of chickpeas left from my dinner.. right after I started to freak out, saying to myself that it was way too much and that I ruined everything I was genuinely scared and felling like a 🐖 I tried to take a step back after some time and decided to see how my bødy would react to this (NOT AT ALL) b!nge I just had. Like wtf girl 300 is not that bad when you only had no more and probably less than 1300 during the day CALM THE FCK DOWN And you know what? Turns out my bødy was just hungry haha :) I feel good, satisfied and not bloated at all So to anyone out there that is starting to feel really bad because you choose to 3@t something more than what you planned for the day it’s gonna be okay <33 + if you’re like me you probably over counting/estmating anyway haha It’s okay to have a little snack once in a while even if you already had a m3t@bday, maybe you were just hungry and this snack won’t make you bloated

except if you stressed it out to much or you let yourself have an B episode because of it… it will only make things worse

Hope it reassured the people who needed to hear it 🧚🐞

It’s easier to hide it when you do weightlifting lmao People will just assume that you got l3@ner by working out to see your muscles and it’s more conventionally acceptable than having an 3d.. I got the perfect excuse now hehe

Especially if they give you the nonchalant treatment

Like you thought I would chase after you?? B!tc# I don’t have enough time for that lmao I have to be sk!n! Before summer wtf

Forget men I literally just want to look good in clothes

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌺

Total of the day :~ 1000

As always don’t count like I do lmao, I made a huge meal full of protein because I was lacking of it

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎒

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with cucumber, granola/chickpeas, rare tempeh and Greek yogurt Snack~ 1 chicken sausage + 15 vegetables crackers Lunch~ scrambled eggs on toast with melon and salad + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ egg protein bowl + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1600 (max)

I walked out of this day controlling my guilt over the 15 crackers and the beginning of a potential binge so I feel proud of myself

I didn’t wanted to jinx it if I talked about it buuuut

24H F@ST DONE HAHA

I’m ⭐️ving right now so I’m gonna go eat something hehe I’m proud, I resisted to the school trip temptation :))

Lmao i just thought about summer, I’m working in a restaurant next to the beach during this time and the good point is that I’m gonna move every day like crazy and dancing/partying every night but the bad side of it is that I will only survive on pizza and alcohol hahahaaaaa

I’m mean it’s the vibe and I shouldn’t be scared because, even with my poor summer d!3t, I always somehow loose w3!ght during this period. If it worked before why would it be different this time? But I’m still afraid.. I’m starting in 1 month and a half

I’m thinking one pizza a day + couples of drinks (and probably some extra snacks added) should be my maintenance actually 😭 I won’t have the time to count my daily intake anyway

Idk if I’ll be able to journal during this time because it gets really busy during the season so if I disappear, it’s probably because I’m doing fine, just busy. Also I won’t be able to w3!ght myself during this time but I will try to continue m3@sur!ng myself to track my progress or maintenance (and reassuring myself too let’s be honest here lmao)

Bonus points: my boss shows 3d patterns but don’t really link them to it. She always making small remarks and constantly comparing herself to me so I don’t know how I’ll be able to handle it this year.. I mean the cheque is good soooo yeah MONEY HAHAHA

DAY 29

AHAHAHAH no

But I do a skin care everyday so it make me feel like I am