I Feel So Weird Cause I Have No Clue What To Draw. What I Was Working On Looks Like A Pile Of Poo, So

Sorry for all the text filled bad stuff lately, this is just another one of those.

So, I have a huge phobia of being around males in general. (past traumatic events, etc.) My husband has a thing for mocking me continuously in the future with past things I said to him in a serious manner...(like him saying “she was asking for it” when he was trying to do something bad to a friend of mine without either of our permission vocally, and while we were both drunk, no matter how much we’d try to argue his logic, he sticks to what he thinks...this is a different matter so it isn’t important in the context of what I am posting about, but it’s just to give where he was coming at from this.) I tell him that I don’t want people just walking into my private space without MY permission, that he should go out if someone wants him. He tells me I’m being rude and should stop being so...(well I forgot what he actually said but around the same lines of when he calls me mean, evil, etc.) I say “I don’t like being around guys..” husband says “that’s sexist” in a very condescending tone. I vocalize to him SO MUCH that I get a panic attack when there are other guys around, the more...the more panicky, or also depending on the personality could escalate it, sadly this person is a roommate who I though we would be gone from since we are out of a home but nope...but this guy is just like the person who helped put this fear upon me... So I don’t get why he says this when I tell him constantly whenever he would have friends around too that I can’t go in there, I can’t even say “hey i need you for a minute” or anything, that’s how bad it is, but nope....he just tells me to get over it or it’s irrational, etc. it’s worse that this guy talks badly about me (though husband denies it even though I know some of the acronyms the guys used in front of me and heard some of the things passing by his room) he keeps my husband from me, enables his drinking and everything, this guy buys tall cans of beer everyday (like 10 or so of them a day) I preferred our last roomate, he couldn’t pay for a second month but at least I knew the person decently and even if I was still uncomfortable when alone with the guy(like husband at work, so if he had to ask me for something I’d freak out knowing I’d have to communicate by myself) I could still talk and feel okay with their presence. just all this...just is too much.

Haven't posted in awhile so....here are some old works in progress(old as in the pictures are pretty old..) I found myself to love Sans haha.(every character I should say) The drawings will be painted over, or idk I might try my hand at them digitally since I finally have a computer -just no net or good wifi- I'll sculpt Peridot eventually, I just wanna make Yellow Pearl first...but all that has to wait til all my current projects are done. 83 (almost the same poses pfft, didn't notice til side by side)

I haven't updated about this picture in quite a long time, it is nearly finished, I just have stopped working on it for the moment. Horrible photo, but I can't really do transferring right now and stuff, it took away most of the detail but, eh. Thinking of adding more wildlife or not as well.

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I hate when I'm so tired but can't sleep, holding something (phone idk) and I have no grip, things fall out of hands and I start getting.drunk vision. Sadly these are the only times I can potentially get a few hours of sleep. So goodmorning, it is almost seven am where I'm at, gonna be up on prob. Anywhere to 2-4 hours.

Can anyone give me ideas of types of stuff to sculpt?

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Lol! I have no idea to reply either, so please teach me!!! and yeah I noticed I’m taking longer these days too just cause I’m back to work, but means I can only fit in 1-2 hours. But each time I come back I find something wrong

You have to download that thing called xkit on google chrome, it auto installs to Tumblr and then gives you a menu for what features you want on here and it just changes the layout to having these features (choose what you want) so very easy and awesome ;v; I don't work, I just draw all day or take care of my baby niece. Yeah, I could never work on that little time D: it takes me weeks just to finish something as it is. Well, I think in a way that's a good thing because since you have more time to not stare at what you're working on, you can actually see your mistakes and fix them, rather than working on it constantly without realizing some mistakes~

Wip of Lapis Lazuli I was doing on the side of the Xenoblade pic. I love her, she is the closest character I can relate to. (would add better description but the device I am on has to go to who it belongs to now.)

The figure I’m making now is about 10 inches tall, I feel like I’m wasting so much clay ;-; but I’m already so far, I’m so tempted to just rip it apart and make tinier things before I cook it.

"Why do you take away everything that makes me smile?" "I don't mean to, I do it for your own good."

I kinda also want to sculpt some characters from Undertale, the characters are so adorable and unique ;v;