~(ovo)~ First Thing Drawn On A New Tablet My Person Got For Me For X-mas ;v;  I Think This Is Considered

I NEED help(commissions) so, so badly, please scroll to the bottom for the gist of things if you don't wanna hear a slight back story of why I need help. I am terrible at networking, severely afraid of people, I break down at everything and can't work any sort of job. My dad is a horribly evil person, he breaks agreements and tries to misinterpretes everything to everyone. My husband and I are struggling so badly. We have so much debt and bills.(yay for in the past, family/roomates who steal info and ruin financial accounts) I cant work, I cant get on SSI, others think im lazy because of it, literally all I can do is create art. He is a literal dictator with how he is, he tricked us into giving him more money then we should for things, we called him out on the lies from proof, but again others agreed with him because he knows how to paint everyone else as the "bad guy". Now he told our landlord he isn't gonna pay the originally agreed upon rent, we had a solid agreement of my husband paying half for me and him and half the rent to my dad, instead he is now claiming he is paying my portion, which we even confronted before moving in and it was all okay (wish people would agree to write contracts) My dad is on a fixed income, SSI, my husband works as much as he can as it is, we can barely afford food or anything as it is, we cant get foodstamps or medicaid because he makes too much and even when we almost were able to it would require me looking for a job which i cannot do at all, i can hardly leave my home. We pay bills every week, we are trying to reduce debt so we can find a place to live on our own, every other place we cant move because our credit scores are so bad (mine is literally 9999, due to never working and gaining bills from others using my name and info for accounts while a kid/teen) I also have celiac disease and cant eat most food there is, especially cheaply without making me feel nauseous, i literally starve myself like it is normal, eating a few spoonfuls of peanut butter a day, or water...(healthy food and food emulating "normal" food is very pricy, example: a loaf of bread is nine dollars.) Maybe a meal when I cook for dinner once in awhile. My dad also cheated us on utilities, and out of 200 I'm supposed to get every month as a home health care person for him, he told the landlord we aren't splitting rent anymore and my husband has to pay double for me I guess. We have nowhere to go, nothing we can do. We stand up to him, we get this happening to us. We are strapped more than it is. ----- I desperately, DESPERATELY, need to start taking commissions, I am so scared, I haven't in so long, my skills are a lot better than they were when I used to, but the art world sees art prices differently now of days, as well as I have many styles and qualities to choose from. What I used to price my art when I was younger, people would tell me I underprice myself, now of days I fear i'd be overpricing from others opinions on the matter, and that is with my current works. I want to post examples but it will just be random stuff I have on my phone. I am unsure of pricing, scared to do so but need to so badly, my life is a constant, living, hell..that gets worse and worse constantly...as in police threats for crying or standing up for myself, eyes spat in, chairs thrown at, etc.

You know...I'm trying my best to make money, I just don't find weeks working on something (every second compressed would mean days of work, at least 40 hours straight.) Is really worth only getting 20$...heck even 50$ isn't worth it. The only real "worth" is possible "publicity" I have no other way ME myself can make money...and I am almost positive no one would want to pay what I would find fare for my time taken, my skills, etc.

Submission 2 (I really, really hope these post, I have been trying for a few hours with no luck, unless Tumblr just shows errors when it sends? If so I’m really sorry for the submission spam. )

Last minute for all of these posting wise.

An transparent angry Minx, not much else to say about it, maybe took 5ish hours, I didnt really keep track.

I am highly interested in the paid position, am 24, US.

I haven’t done this in a few years but I finally have a sort of price list together, I’m just doing bust-shots for now, but If you are looking for anything else, please ask, I don’t mind discussing it. c:

(this is just where you get the digital files, no physical copy.)

I will draw: people, armor, robo/mechs, anthro, creatures. Payment required before I start, through paypal, (I send invoice first) any questions, just ask.

I won’t draw: ask for now.

I desperately need money, I can’t afford food (I have celiac disease), barely bills and rent as well as financial abuse from our roommate(my dad), I cannot work, I also cannot get ssi and such so stuck in an awkward place. My husband and I are forced to move in a month and a half but have no money saved and am going to lose most of my things and my cats, my husband is so stressed because of my dad and my lack of work that he is threatening to break the lease because we have no food or money for food, he doesn’t get paid until next thursday, I am unable to leave the house by myself without having severe breakdowns and he always gets off too late to do anything else himself. (I am literally stuck in this situation with no other options I’M capable of doing. But I have always planned on selling my art, I just need to do what I can right now) I’ll make a better price list eventually that is more than jist bustshots, I just want to be able to do as much as I can in a timely matter for both sides while testing the waters after all these years If that makes sense.

Thank you so much if you read this.

(Posting so much later then intended)

The figure I’m making now is about 10 inches tall, I feel like I’m wasting so much clay ;-; but I’m already so far, I’m so tempted to just rip it apart and make tinier things before I cook it.

Help your invisible artists!

Liking and Rebloging stuff helps tons, but how can you do that if you aren’t seeing it in your searches? I don’t think a lot of people do this, so I thought I’d spread it around a little. Please signal boost! A lot of artists need your help to be seen, especially on the huge community of tumblr.

I probably won't be uploading many drawings at all, or any in general (unless it's from a Sketchbook and/or has to do with sculpture concepts.) I'm not satisfied with my art, not with my speed mainly, or with how I go about things. I'm just going to be doing sculpts and stuff for awhile as it has been the past few months c: I won't lie, I feel highly discouraged when it comes to drawing, for many reasons. Oh, also my computer isn't doing so well (it's internal fan doesn't work as well as our USB fans died so I can't be on the computer longer than five minutes without heating up badly and freezing badly.)

Still making opal, just lack a drive due to personal reasons... But once I am able to I want to make other stuff, more detailed I guess, like practice with bodies I guess, it might help me with my drawings and what not, it just seems I can pump out sculptures more than I can drawings, so it’s kinda discouraging when I draw something for a long time I don’t get as much satisfaction as seeing something sitting in front of me. I love drawing, it just feels kinda pointless even though I think I finally found “my style” after all these years, it’s funny though, ever since I was kid I’ve always been involved/interested in the same things, drawing, minerals, outerspace and sculpting, I would rarely hang out with others. I’d always just draw and dig outside looking for pretty stones and stuff, a teacher handed me clay with a sculpting book on how to make beads and tiny food when I was in 5th grade, I enjoyed building things out of wood in middle school and then ceramics in HS, it’s funny in HS it got to the point pretty much any teacher would let me sculpt and draw in class, I miss school, I miss being able to feel “important” or like I meant something, that I had people to talk to about whatever, being able to actually step outside without having a panic attack (heck a bear running in front of me at 5am on my way to school didn’t even freak me out as bad as just speaking to someone now. I’ve regressed so badly, I want to be how I used to be, I want to be able just to walk to a park and sit outside, I want to try my hand at an anime con again and maybe even trying to get a table in AA, but....I don’t know what’s happened to me, all these hopes and dreams I’ve had are all just....so hard to comprehend anymore. 

Just got new tablet...no inspiration or motivation to draw...haha

Sleeep

I hate when I'm so tired but can't sleep, holding something (phone idk) and I have no grip, things fall out of hands and I start getting.drunk vision. Sadly these are the only times I can potentially get a few hours of sleep. So goodmorning, it is almost seven am where I'm at, gonna be up on prob. Anywhere to 2-4 hours.