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Lazystars mentioned?

Once again the one truth of bsd,

No one is ever really dead except oda

BSD psych ward AU.....

Okay so I was thinking abt this one of the times I was in the hospital this past year, and when I got home I started writing my ideas down.

Atsushi centric, most likely. I wanna focus on his PTSD/C-PTSD more, as someone who has C-PTSD. I'm also sort of projecting my own experiences from the first time I was in the hospital onto his first (and hopefully only!) time. Here's what I have so far for the characters I want involved as patients:

Atsushi (he/they 15): Admitted for suicide attempt. First time there. Never been treated for any mental health issue. Gets diagnosed PTSD, MDD, GAD. Put on medication.

Dazai (he/him 16): That one kid that's there like once a month. Another suicide attempt. All the nurses and staff know him. He has WAY too many diagnosis at 16 to be ethical or accurate (BPD, ASPD, Bipolar 2, MDD, DpDr, C-PTSD, who knows what else)

Kenji (he/him 14): There for aggression, but super sweet. Diagnosed ED but the hospital doesn't specialize in it so they don't really care. He always asks the staff if they can go outside.

Akutagawa (he/they 15): Been there before, but not nearly as many times as Dazai. Suicide attempt. Still has his chronic illness in this AU.

Chuuya (he/him 16): There for aggression. Gets blackouts. Diagnosed IED and Bipolar 1.

Ranpo (he/him 17): Idek why he's there tbh. When asked he avoids the question or makes some joke. Sneaks extra snacks and juice from the caf in his pockets. Diagnosed ASD and ADHD. Maybe bulimia? i'm unsure.....

Kyoka (she/they 13): There for suicide and self harm. She's really quiet and is usually coloring or sleeping. Says as little as possible to her doctor and therapist. Waiting on her stuffed rabbit to be approved.

Q (they/them 11): That one kid that everyone agrees is too young to be there. There for self harm, suicidal ideation, and homicidal ideation. Seems sweet but also very unstable. Isn't allowed to have a roommate. On a Q10 (has to have a staff member with them at ALL times. In the shower, bathroom, etc. due to self harm in the hospital). They call some staff their "hospital mom". Diagnosed schizoaffective, ADHD, and ASD. One doctor has suggested a BPD diagnosis but they're WAY too young for that to be accurate. They've been a couple of times.

Ivan (he/him 16): There for a manic episode with psychosis. On way too many meds to be ethical. Most staff ignore him at this point. Can't have a roommate.

Sigma (they/she 16): There for depression, frequent panic attacks, and suicidal ideation. Very normal home life actually. One of the few people who doesn't argue with their family or cry on the phone. Diagnosed MDD, GAD, panic disorder, perhaps OCD?

Nikolai (any/all 17): There on a temporary detention order for tresspassing. Clearly unstable. Maybe even manic tbh no one knows what's going on with them. Good at talking to people. Gets bored so he's always trying to make some drama. Idk what his diagnosis are. Maybe BPD, bipolar, something idk

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He grabs his clothes when he's nervous/scared I'm gonna sob

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day 16

bsd bar au, ima just post all the ones i've done already Background info for Akutagawa:

Ugh this gothic bitch-

- I am NOT letting him get close to any acholic drink, mf can't handle that or would just spit in the drink like the little dipshit he is so that's why he's going to be a waiter! (I'm not letting him be a security guard bc just look at him.) But like he won't deliver the food/drink, someone else would, he's just taking the orders.

- he most definitely has some sort of long coat with him no matter what

- I used some of the beta design look (like the earrings and mole) but I am NOT drawing him with a better hairstyle or eyebrows BUT I gave him lower lashes and black eyeshadow.