Watching Season 15 Is A Different Kind Of Pain. In A Typical Season When A Major Character Died You Had

If deans so straight why does he always look at cas like that. Why does he lick his lips after looking cas up and down. Why does he stop hooking up with people after he met cas. Why does he always smile and relax when they hug. Why does he picture his happy ending with him. Why does he fall apart every time cas is injured/missing/dead. Why did he pray to him every night in purgatory. Why cradle cas’ face in his hands when he died. Why was he so distraught seeing endverse cas. Why grab cas’ sleeve when he thought cas was going to kill him. Why did the confession of his best friends love make tears well up in his eyes and render him speechless on the floor???

Anyways it’s probably nothing

[Dean being kidnapped by a demon]

Sam *kicks the door*: Where's my brother?!

Demon: Which one?

Sam: Oh don't play dumb I only have one brother.

[Meanwhile in the cage]

Adam: Uno,I won.

Lucifer and Michael: Damnit!

There is something about Misha Collins (playing Castiel and Jimmy Novak) in early seasons

Like

Look at this man and tell me it’s legal

To look this pretty

If someone (he) looked at me like THIS

I would be on my knees in instant (to pray obviously)

Who give you the right???

I’m genuinely curious

Dean: So, what’s Castiel's type?

Sam: Green eyes, kind, oblivious, good sense of humor, pie lover.

Dean: Sounds kind of like me. Too bad we’re just friends.

Sam: Did I mention oblivious?

Dean: Yeah, why?

Sam: Okay, just making sure.

why does the world expect me to care about anything that’s not cas related

Good Omens season 2 fucked me up so bad I started watching Supernatural

Dean Winchester & hug dynamic analysis

I was thinking about how whenever Dean hugs someone he's almost always the one hugging the other and how this links to his psychological trauma of always being the caretaker of people, making himself bigger to protect them.

Because that's how Dean sees himself, as a shield for others, and then I thought about how Cas actually is the shield, and he's HIS SHIELD, specifically, the only one who's really there to protect HIM, which is why it hits so much when we see this:

The way Cas wraps his arms around him, trying to protect him with his whole body--that he'd use as a shield and give up in a second if he could spare him from any pain and save him.

(for context: Dean was about to go use the soul bomb on Amara there, it was a suicide mission)

Bobby is another one that hits, he hugs him as the big hugger because he's his father, he loves him and he's actually here to protect him (and Dean LETS him -barely, but he lets him *and Cas* - in a way that he doesn't let Sam)

I watched a compilation of Sam & Dean hugs to check if i was right about it, but it's almost always Dean the big hugger with Sam, except when he's about to die or Sam sees him alive again after losing him.

Even then, Dean mostly tries to hug Sam as the big hugger anyway, with at least one arm, like a way to comfort him, making him feel protected, like his body language is saying "I'm here, I'm okay, I'm still strong, i can still protect you" (because their real father failed and Dean thinks it's his job).

He rarely lets himself be the little one hugged with Sam, unless he's barely conscious. Which is why it kills me so much more now that in this moment (s14, when Dean was going to lock himself in the Ma'lak box cause he was possessed by Michael) and Sam has a desperate breakdown and punches him (to stop him) he forcefully hugs him as the little hugger, the way Dean always kept him, like a way of saying "I still need you to protect me, please don't do this to yourself".

In the scene below he gives Sam his blessing to do a dangerous (possibly suicidal) mission, and one of his arms is down, but the other one tries to stay up--he's forcing himself to do it and he struggles because he still wants to protect him, but (as the seasons progress) he slowly becomes more prone to let go.

So in this view the hug dynamic becomes an indicator of how Dean sees Sam (and himself) and his protector role, how adult and self sufficient he considers Sam, and how much he lets people around him take care of him, lowering his walls and letting himself be hugged.

This is also why i think hugs from characters like Garth or Charlie are so special, because they're just like us: they see Dean and they just know that he needs to be hugged a lot, and that he's not used to it, so they just go for it-- and it's so normal and kind and spontaneous that Dean's just not used to it-- he doesn't know how to respond (especially with Garth, at the beginning, but as the seasons progress, he learns to, and he even initiates the hug eventually).

I love the hugs where they're 50/50 (one arm up, one arm down both), feels like they're equals, both taking care of each other. I feel like with Sam and Dean, this indicates a healthier dynamic, because Dean lets go a little of the role that was imposed to him and manages to see Sam as the strong individual that he is. But the same applies to 50/50 hugs with other characters, like with Cas, where I feel like it testifies how equals they feel in terms of being fighters, there's a show of respect of each other's strength that transpires by the gesture (which is even more astounding considering that Cas is literally a powerful angel).

And just to end on a destiel note, I'd like to note the possessiveness and protectiveness of Dean (rightfully so) whenever he finds Cas after he thought he had lost him, and how that translates into his body/hug language:

#SPNWEEK | Fav' Gag Reel moment | Filming episode 11.04 Baby

I actually need someone who can make edits to edit destiel to ‘till forever falls apart’, specifically the second verse please and thank you 🫡

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