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continuation of prev. unstable icons!

part 2 >:]

Haven't actually finished the game. But i love it soo much!!! I made fanart for it!

i referenced the cover image thing btw.

Scientist Garroth @aphmau i believe in a mcd garroth rather than mystreet

ShadowKnight!Laurance: YOULL REGRET THE DAY YOU MET US!!

JuryOfNine!Garroth: PREPARE FOR BATTLE!

Aaron: heh, Id like to see you two try

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Ya know whats better than jealous lovestruck guards? CORRUPTED jealous lovestruck guards. @aphmau_ ’s latest Minecraft Diaries: Side Stories episode was such a hilarious episode xD and I decided to draw my favorite scene because why not? My two corrupted babies

#digitalart #aphmau #minecraftdiaries #minecraftdiariesfanart #garroth #laurence #shadowknight #juryofnine

The Shadow knight and One of the Jury of Nine

I love how this came out. Oh and about Laurence making that face I thought it fit . * shrugs* Anyway I hope you all like it :3 @aphmau

((I got bored, so I thought why not make some icon thingies of Garroth, Laurance, and Dante from @aphmau’s Minecraft Diaries? If you wanna use them, please credit me))

I FINISHED OMG I ACTUALLY FINISHED! HERE YA GO @savimcool now if you don’t mind me I’ll be in school screaming my head off QUQ)

how long has it been- 5 years? possibly

So what you're telling me is you may or may not write MCD and MyStreet character smutfics in your free time. AHHHHHHHHH YESSSSSS. ANYWAY I HAVE A QUESTION. Do you have any ships you don't ship but like to see art of irregardless, and have you seen any fanart that made you unhappy or uncomfortable?

Ahaha! I’ll be honest, I have written smut of MCD. I may have already said this somewhere here on Tumblr. but a lot of MCD episodes originally had smut written into them, however it was taken out for obvious reasons. My channel isn’t an appropriate place to post that stuff at all. 

However there is a different version of MCD that has completely different character relationships due to that stuff. Maybe I’ll post those stories 5 years from now or something… maybe sooner if I get comfortable enough here. 

Honestly there isn’t a ship I don’t ship, I’m def a multi-shipper. However anything with Chad always makes my eye twitch at first, but I end up coming to love it, haha! I haven’t seen fan art that’s ever bothered me. I think the only kind of fan art that would would be something made to show pure hate.  So far there has been nothing that has bothered me or made me feel uncomfortable. It would take a lot for that to happen. 

Ok, if you can't share the smutfics, can you at least tell us who they were about? *evil smile* I just really want to know

Oh…. uh….ermmmm, uhhhhh…… 

Heh…. well….

…… (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)⁄

….uh…. fine. I can at least reveal some of this. I’ve been a tease lately with this subject.

Yeah. Well… they follow the story-line of MCD. I mean, there are times you can tell something could have happened between characters given the context of their situation. I don’t share my smut-fics with anyone so I’m the only one who knows where these scenes are located in story.

They’re all NOT just with Aphmau either (god that would be weird and highly coincided).

It all really started around Dante’s introduction arc in S1 where the group went to Malachi’s Castle. I’ll let your imagination go from there.

The following is a list of characters who have smuts written about them but does NOT reflect their relationships in MCD (basically these are the only ones I feel comfortable revealing at the moment without spoiling anything).

Aphmau and Dante (S1)

Garroth and Laurance

Katelyn and Jeffory

Katelyn and Lilian

Zenix and Vylad

THERE ARE MORE HERE. But I’m only comfortable revealing these.

And that’s all I’m sayin’. Now I’m going to hide in a closet and cry because I feel weird postin’ about this. LOL. 

Now I'm interested, what do the last names of the characters mean?

I just spent a while writing this and I just realized this is kind of sad. So heads up on sentimental stuffs.

Thelast names of the characters have a lot of meaning to me.

Infact a LOT of the characters I’ve created have some memories of some realperson or something attached to them. They all share traits, past experiences,and sometimes personalities of real people/events.

Iwrite what I imagine as well as things based off of real experiences, people, andemotions. 

Thatbeing said, the video game Final Fantasy XI had a HUGE impact on my life. Heck,the name “Aphmau” comes from that game. Iplayed FFXI for 10 years and it’s… really hard to describe. It was amazing andlife changing.

Ihad a lot of online friends in FFXI. Sadly,I’ve lost contact with almost all of them – we used to talk for days and had alot of adventures in the game together. From enjoying the game for what it wasto talking about real life things that were going on, those peeps were close tome… and I find myself missing them often.

 Eventuallywe all grew apart.Eitherreal life or something else took us out of it and I lost contact with everyone. Mostof us never got connected outside of the game either – so I have no idea wherethe majority of them are these days.

 Thestory of that game… the people I met… the experiences I had on that game weretoo real to even describe. It was when MMO’s were first on the rise so youcouldn’t go to a website have all the answers given to you, you had to workwith others in game to learn. (Not saying that you can’t these days but How-Toguides that go up almost instantly pretty much suck the fun out of figuringthings out.)

Thelast names of the characters are from area’s in FFXI.

Thoselast names have some ties to people and/or events in the game.

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Valkrum Dunes

This is the only one I can get into character personality at the moment without getting spoiler-y. Valkrum Dunes was a place where noobs would first go to level up – it’s where you’d learn how to be your class in the game with other people in a party. Since people were noobs and wanted that sweet “I got me an online girlfrand!” status, there were a lot of new players who would flirt – you were bound to find someone with a Travis-like personality there eventually. I had this white mage friend who I compare Travis to sometimes. He was a white haired elf and he would only power-level pretty ladies – a real ass gem. I got to know him past that and he was a real cool guy. He just like the idea of flirting and stuff, but never really did that with me after we became friends. I have no idea where he is these days.There were events here I can’t get into for spoiler reasons.There is also a real person some of Travis’s personality stems from as well.

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Ro’meave

This place I really can’t get into the backstory of without getting spoiler-y. So I’m just going to show a picture of it.

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CastleZvahl Baileys

Thisplace also has spoiler-y things involved in it. Onething I can reveal though that in the main plot of FFXI had the charactersinvolved in this place experience a lot of strife.

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Eachhas a “easter egg” story behind them and while I can’t get into them at themoment, maybe someday I can reveal that stuff.  

Heck,there have been times where I’ve thought about doing a FFXI-based RP aboutonline friendships/relationships/adventures in an MMORPG and putting thoseactual stories into there.

Again,that game was something I cannot describe, nor have I ever managed to find anotherMMO that replicates those experiences/relationships.

Rightnow the people, fans, and artists who I have found through my YouTube channelare the next chapter in online relationships in my life right now and I couldn’tbe happier to know them. (laaaaaameeeee LOL! …but really. Thank you for beingwith me.)

“My boys <3″ Ahhhh~, their back! :’D

 (Characters of @aphmau)

Coming into a fandom late

me: humanity is awful i can’t believe this there is no goodness or love

me: life is ok actually and i have a reason to live

accurate

I love how the Pokemon Go teams went from

To this

Guyde x Nate Cause why the Frick not!

hot

Gay boys from Aphmau

I think my theme for this month is just gonna be dancing gays

EVERYONE PLEASE LISTEN. DO NOT IGNORE THIS.

Article 13 is going into it’s final stages of voting. 

If this gets through, it will allow many, many companies to abuse and misuse this article to take down as many memes, fan works, and even other independent creators on sites like YouTube, Facebook, and other websites INCLUDING Tumblr. 

THE FAIR USE LAW AND SAFEHARBOR LAW WILL NO LONGER APPLY IN THE U.S OR IN OTHER COUNTRIES. 

IT HAS ALREADY PASSED IN SEVERAL OTHER COUNTRIES. 

WE CANNOT ALLOW THEM TO TAKE AWAY WHAT WE BUILT FOR THE INTERNET SO FAR. 

So here is what you need to do to drag this article down. 

1. Spread the word 

I can’t stress this enough. The more attention this gets the more people we can get to take this down. 

2. Make your own content 

Make your own content on the matter and make sure it is clear to others that Article 13 is bad for every internet user involved. 

3. If you live anywhere in Europe, contact your MEPs 

Ask them if they approve of the article and why. If they do approve of it, try to convince them in a clear, reasonable, and most sensible way possible that this law is BAD. 

The article itself is way to vague about what it’s conveying to its people. 

Saying that as long as the use of said internet memes or content is good as long as it’s in “good faith.” 

We cannot let some shoddy government tell us what we can and cannot post. 

FREE SPEECH IS A HUMAN RIGHT. NOT A PRIVILEGE. 

Here’s a video on Article 13 that Film Theory made on the matter. It will explain things better than I can. 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GbXHrj8k7dg

Edit: I’ve noticed that some people are having trouble with getting the video to work. So here is the new link

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbXHrj8k7dg&app=desktop

Plus thanks to user @rwby- 13 for giving me a link to this Change.org petition!

https://www.change.org/p/european-parliament-stop-the-censorship-machinery-save-the-internet

The Full Collection of Pride Pun t-shirt designs to date

outfit idea

This

over this

so that “i have no tits” can be read through the hole

GHB/Mituna

nsfw past the readmore!!!

Keep reading

•shouldn’t you be with her• Garrance

“Laur,” He rasped out.

“Garroth,” The other replied.

They stood there, unmoving. The breeze passed and the leaves fell around them. The silence was suffocating, unnerving, but they didn’t know what to say to each other.

“How is everyone?” Laurance took a step back. “How are.. you?”

“I’m fine, if you haven’t noticed,” Garroth growled, not meaning of the agresiveness in his voice.

Laurance flinched at his tone, his nose scrunching up and brows furrowed together. He took another step back, but gripped his right arm. Another breeze passed and Laurance’s shoulders shook in response.

“Uh, shouldn’t you.. Shouldn’t you be with her?” Laurance mumbled.

“What?” Garroth stepped closer to him.

“Shouldn’t you be with Aphmau right now!” Laurance raised his voice, taking another step back.

“What does Aph have anything to do with this, Laurance?” Garroth replied.

Laurance flinched again. Garroth hadn’t called him by his first name in a long time. Laurance narrowed his eyes, avoiding Garroth’s stare.

“You.. You’re right, Lord Aphmau has nothing to do with this,” Laurance turned around. “Bye, Garroth.”

Garroth watched as Laurance’s turned his back. He noticed the slight tremble in his voice, the shaking in his shoulders, and his grip on his arm. Laurance gripped his arm when he was scared.

But, he never followed.

No wait

Laurence: I got the Gucci Store!

Garroth: That doesn't say gucci, dumbass

-Laurence walks away, depressed-

Garroth: No wait! Laur, Im sorryyyy

The Audience of My Channel

Okay, holy hell….

I wrote a freggin’ long history and now that I’m lookin’ through it… it’s a mess.

I’m going to TL;DR this who want the point but if you’re seriously concerned about this and want to understand the history then I recommend reading but understand this post is a mess of explanation but it’s worth the read IMO if you are interested in this history of my MC content and who it’s intended for.

TL;DR: My heavy story content isn’t aimed at kids/younger audience, if that was not evident from S4 alone then there is plenty of evidence from BEFORE and during Diaries days to support this. The heavy MCD implications also show I’m writing for that older audience who grew up with me. I’ve retained a lot of my audience from those days and know that young adults watch my stuff (hence a small reason for my lack of growth due to not conforming to kids content, you’ll see other MC YTers who convert to Roblox taking off in comparison) Some of my content can be found on the YT kids app and if you are a parent/guardian concerned about the heavy material I recommend using the YT kids app as it censors those seasons/episodes. It’s not 100% perfect but the kids who do watch me only know me for the content listed on the YT kids app. Most parents who let their kids have free roam of base YT are already aware of the lack of censorship from all sorts of YTers and have expressed they are aware of the material in my content and allow their kids to watch under their supervision and guidance. Who/What people watch on YT is up to them to decide. I rate my vids in the self rate system to be aimed at the demographic I’m writing for. 

OKAY THAT’S NOT TL;DR, BUT CLOSE ENOUGH. The rest goes into detail and is what I originally wrote if you want to understand my prospective. AGAIN IT’S EVERYWHERE.

Alright so I’m in the addressing mood, but let’s start this train with one thing at a time. Today I want to clear up a misconception that a lot of people tend to have about my channel. 

“Aphmau has a kid audience.”

To some extent, this IS true.  These days people naturally associate “Minecraft” with kid friendly content. Especially with YouTubes crack down on what is advertised to kids via search. (Which as a parent: thank you YouTube.)

To another extent, this IS false.

In the early pioneer days of MC a whole ton of adults were playing the game which promoted the popularity of it. These were also the days YouTube didn’t have heavy censorship so everything was free game. There were adults cursing and talking about sex during gameplay, having tiddies in the thumbnail, to adults playing MC drunk. Again totally the early days of both YT and MC. 

During this time a lot of the MC audience was mixed, both young and older. (I was in the older crowd; was watching Shadow of Israphel by the Yogscast at the time before my channel started) Eventually time passed and it was obvious that the game by itself appealed more to the younger demographic and it kept that audience. [I’ll get back to this point later].

Around the time I entered the MC scene it was the untamed wild west. Hell, I remember doing a Cops and Robbers video with Adam about being high the whole time. Around that time I was writing Diaries which had a lot of adult themes, war, topics, violence, death, [babe house, tho that’s not bad], sexual implications, blood, etc. etc. I also had side series going on that were more light hearted [Pixelmon, Mod Mod World, etc.] I also played games such as Saints Row, Hunie Pop, Dead Space, etc.

Again all this was in the untamed wild west of the internet. 

Fast forward to today, all of those youngins who consumed that content have now grown up. They are either finishing up High School or already in College or they have always been adults and are just older (and by that I mean they’re even more cooler now) Surprisingly a LOT of them have been with me from that long ago… and holy crap you guys… thank you for being with me for that long <3

Fast forward to today again, you’ll see MC and YT have been censored heavily.

If you want to be a successful MC YouTuber these days - You gotta make content aimed at kids to get on that YT kids app - and just let me say there’s nothing wrong with that at all! I’m all for peeps makin’ their content the way they want to for the audience they want to consume it. (always disliked when creators would belittle others for the kind of content they make)

Let me say this: Diaries and MyStreet [plus a few other series] have always had heavy adult themes in them. I have been watching my audience grow from the start and know who I am writing for since a lot of peeps who are watching the more intense series have aged with me. 

“But you have kids who consume your content!”

Yes, there are children who consume my content because it is on the Minecraft platform. You will also notice the most vocal peeps in the YT comment section/twitter/insta/etc. tend to be youngin’s who will shame you for liking a certain ship, hate you for your opinions, etc. [they are NOT ALL like that] Understand that these peeps (while I love and appreciate their support, wish they read my PSA’s and were a bit more understanding sometimes) are often in the minority of those who consume the more intense storylines/game play. Of course there are exceptions. Creators after YEARS of experience, data, and analytics will know who watches what content based on statistics and feedback. Some of our decisions are based on the analytics we receive and what people show they want in content by watching it.

Now, where are these “children who are watching my content” consuming it from? The YouTube Kids App. (GOD THIS ISN’T A PLUG BUT IT’S GONNA SOUND LIKE ONE BECAUSE I GET INTO PARENT THINGS, ALSO THIS IS RELEVANT TO WHO CONSUMES MY CONTENT SO IF YOU CARE ABOUT THIS TOPIC PLEASE BEAR WITH ME) 

As a parent, I use the YouTube kids app. The YouTube kids app has a LOT of options to make sure kids under the age of 13 are consuming the content their parents want them to watch. (But the age you can set goes all the way to like 20+ for some reason) There are two options: 

1.) [Younger] More restricted, meant for preschool kids and elementary school kids.

2.) [Older] For parents who think their kids are old enough to be less restricted and it even warns parents that there may be suggestive content, violence, etc. In this option.

There are a lot of kids consuming the more tamed versions of my content which they know me for. There are some children I meet at fan meets that don’t even know that certain episodes of Diaries or MS Season 4, 5, or 6 exist or that I even do RP’s. (They seem to like my content for Snipper Clips, Love Balls, MyCraft, etc.) I’m perfectly fine with the app gating off my mature content, rightfully so since it’s not meant for that demographic. With a lot of that being said I cannot control what is and is not seen on that app, but know that a lot of my mature content is off of it.

That being said, my writing is aimed at teens, young adults, and adults. 

The problem is people see MC as being “ONLY FOR KIDS! THIS IS A KIDS SHOW IF IT’S IN MINECRAFT!” which to me… as someone who has been using the platform since the Wild West days… to pretty much tell similar and just as harsh stories since then… is pretty much the equivalent of saying: “IF IT’S A DRAWN LIKE A CARTOON IT MUST BE FOR KIDS!” Or “VIDEO GAMES ARE MEANT FOR KIDS” (which are very ignorant statements because cartoons and games can be for adults)

Again the problem lies in the fact that I’m still using MC as a platform to tell stories. And really, that’s not a problem since I know where my content is being consumed, I know who consumes it, and I know who I am writing for. 

The kids app exists for parents who are active in their child’s lives and make sure my content is what their kids want to consume and I use that as a barrier to entry for younger kids who don’t get the themes in my mature content. 

The people who have grown up with me and know the adult themes in my story often times don’t want to admit to their friends that they watch Minecraft because of the stigma that comes with that statement and often times won’t participate in the community. Btw, side note: For those that are vocal I sincerely appreciate you who have been around forever and help grow the community.

[ADDITIONAL UNIMPORTANT NOTE: We actually did a test run to see if our audience was younger than we thought. I tried doing a ROBLOX RP to see if maybe our demographic was there instead of MC. (…Also I wanted to make something for our kids to watch.) It turned out the feedback from the audience was so overwhelmingly negative on it because peeps didn’t want to see the channel turn into a “kids channel” with kid directed content]

But again… the problem is the stigma that comes with using MC as a storytelling device. A lot of YTers bowed out of MC because they felt they no longer had the creative freedom they once had before censorship happened. Which if I had been completely kid friendly from the beginning I could see where the problem is, however this is not the case and adult themes (be they subtle or not) have always been there.

My content is for those who want to consume it on the main YT site/app. Anyone under the age of 13 SHOULD be using the YT kids app, but that is in their parents hands to decide what is appropriate for their kids. I advise fellow parents when they ask me in person to make sure my content is for their kid(s) and to have open discussions about the topics at hand if they decide to allow their kids to consume my content. I understand parents cannot be there 24/7 but they should not entrust media to be the core source of conversation for a mind that’s still growing and needs a parent/guardians guidance.

I will continue to use MC as a platform and the YT self rating system to make sure my content gets pushed to the right outlets, I cannot monitor who sees my content. Eventually I’d like to move to another story telling platform OR modify MC so it doesn’t look like MC anymore but rather something that looks similar to the unity engine. (We tried this with Ultra Nova but didn’t have people who cared about the project enough to help with it. Jason ended up doing the modeling and it didn’t come out like we had hoped) Jason and I would love to get into animation (2D/3D), but that is not possible at the moment, however we are working on that and maybe later FAR down the line you’ll see that! (you can see with S6 we’re getting a feel for it! Animation ain’t just there for show it’s for prepping for the future)

I will do my best to open up more about my creative choices. 

I understand some peeps are upset about the Ein/Aphmau thing and I plan on addressing that (maybe in another blog post later this week but it might just say what I’m about to say). Peeps tend to get riled up as soon as something negative happens and are on “attack mode” which leads to provocation and just a whole mess of emotions coming from both sides. But since I’m trying to be more open right now I’ll give it my best shot to address it later. For now to give a brief summary: not all stories/characters are 100% planned. My writing for stories years ago was not written knowing exactly where the characters would be year(s) later. Again a topic to get into depth for another time. I know there are peeps out there who won’t listen and will probably see everything I say as an excuse. But hey, I’m gonna open up and if they want to believe me or not is up to them. I understand why they’re upset and I value and respect their opinions, but implying someone’s absolute moral beliefs on a taboo subject through a fictional story is just odd. I think my girl Michaela best sums that up in this post. 

My responsibility as a creator is to create. I do take responsibility in who sees my content through the systems that are set in place for that. But there is also a responsibility in the viewer to know the type of content they’re consuming. In the future maybe I’ll add in self ratings since that isn’t completely and transparently done through YT. 

Whew, I hope that sums things up or at least gives an answer to a few things.

Sorry for being all over the place with that post, let me know if you want me to convey anything in better detail for this topic. I’ll address other topics mentioned in here when I have a moment, thanks again for your time! <3 (appreciate if you took the time to make it this far!)

Hey. So.

Apparently, creators are not allowed to write about taboo topics anymore without “promoting” them. You can only write things you believe in!

Seriously! It’s such a new trend now to shame writers, artists, and anyone creative for it being CREATIVE in a fictional work! You’re not allowed to write about ANYTHING that may be “problematic” or “disgusting” unless you yourself get off on it!

You write about incest? You MUST ADVOCATE FOR INCEST!

You wanna write about rape? YOU MUST BE A RAPIST!

You wanna write about torture? YOU’RE A SICK SADIST!

Yup! THAT’S WHAT THE WORLD HAS COME TO NOW! NO MORE CREATIVE THOUGHT! NO MORE PLAYING IN THE FICTIONAL REALM! EVERYTHING MUST BE FULL OF RAINBOWS AND HAPPINESS OR ELSE YOU’RE A SCUMBAG!

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To ANYONE who thinks this: Get over yourself.

Seriously. I’m pointing at some fandoms right now with my words, but if this applies to you, then you are being pointed at too.

Just because we creators create something with taboo topics in it doesn’t fucking mean we advocate for it. If YOU have a problem with it, then don’t watch/read/look at it.

I’m 100% done with people being so close-minded about creative works and the freedoms it has. It’s FICTION. It’s NOT REAL.

If you cannot separate fiction from reality, then stay away from fiction and I mean this both lovingly for your mental health and aggressively to protect creative works from bullshit censorship.

We use taboos to make unique/interesting stories. You may not like it, but we’re the ones making the story. Not you. We are weaving and carving our FICTIONAL worlds however we want so we can tell our stories in the ways we want to.

Don’t like it? MAKE SOMETHING YOURSELF. The world needs more creatives and if you wanna tell a story then tell it however YOU want to tell it.

But FUCK YOU if you ever think a creator advocates for taboo subjects just because they put it in their works.

Signed, a creator who has written about child/sex trafficking, rape, kidnapping, torture porn, murder, the dark web, Christian mythos, hard drugs, and alcohol abuse.

Her

This is Laurmau and you're watching Disney Channel

@aphmau

"Everybody in the world knows I'm a little twisted"

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