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‘how do i interact with you’

write me a starter. send me an ask. punch me in the fucking face i don’t care just write with me

@grimesucker​ sent:  ❛ Everyone has secrets and if you keep asking, you’ll see how far I’m willing to go to keep mine. ❜

across the universe   ☆☆   accepting.

  brought to an abrupt halt by the words, or perhaps more by the severe tone in which they’re spoken, shiro falls still and simply blinks at dox, eyes wide. while he’s NO STRANGER to dox’s more harsh tones of voice, it’s not often that they’re directed at HIM. typically, dox is talking to some other slumrat in this manner, whether they’re deserving of it or not, so whenever it does come ‘round to focus on him... shiro is startled every time.

it isn’t as though he’d been egging the man on or anything, either. yes, he may have been asking questions, but they had been INNOCENT  ---  mere efforts to understand dox better  ---  and not remotely forceful. ironically, these are usually the things that have made the mender snap at him in the past, too, although there have been times where the boy had been more insistent.

     “ i’m not trying to... ”  trailing off, shiro blinks again, hesitates, then lowers his gaze. he GETS that everyone has secrets. he GETS that people in the undercity have more than people on med-lev. he GETS that they’re willing to go farther to protect them. what he DOESN’T GET is why, even when they’ve practically become family, dox is so ABSOLUTELY ADAMANT to not share so many things with him.

for a moment, shiro remains as he is, but soon exhales a low breath. a step is taken back to signify him backing down from the confrontation  ( one that he didn’t want started in the first place )  and, turning away, he shakes his head.

     “ sorry. i wasn’t trying to upset you. ”

          BOOK STARTERS VOL.12     ACROSS THE UNIVERSE     BETH REVIS

❛ I never thought about how important the sky was until I didn’t have one. ❜

❛ Dreams are like that: they go in and out of memories and scenes, but they’re never real. They’re never real, and I hate them because they aren’t. ❜

❛ Power isn’t control at all — power is strength, and giving that strength to others. ❜

❛ A leader isn’t someone who forces others to make him stronger. ❜

❛ A leader is someone willing to give his strength to others that they may have the strength to stand on their own. ❜

❛ In the end, we are alone. ❜

❛ It is like a piece of my soul is lost, empty. ❜

❛ If my life on Earth must end, let it end with a promise. Let it end with hope. ❜

❛ Sorry? Sorry isn’t enough. ❜

❛ Every single thing I ever loved is beyond my reach now. Everything I ever wanted. Everything I ever was. ❜

❛ Will you stay with me? ❜

❛ A leader doesn’t make pawns - he makes people. ❜

❛ Do you hear that? The pulse of life from your heart, the slow in-and-out from your lungs? Even when you are silent, even when you block out all noise, your body is still a cacophony of life. Mine is not. ❜

❛ It is the silence that drives me mad. The silence that drives the nightmares to me. ❜

❛ There is nothing between us but rain. There is nothing between us at all. ❜

❛ I like a little chaos. ❜

❛ I will never, never be the same. ❜

❛ I quit thinking. ❜

❛ You must dedicate your whole life to this. ❜

❛ You can never show weakness in front of them: you are their strength. ❜

❛ You can never let them see you in despair: you are their hope. ❜

❛ What if I am dead? How can someone without a beating heart, without breathing lungs live like I do? I must be dead. ❜

❛ I want to scream. I want to throw open my eyes wake up and not be alone with myself anymore, but I can’t. I can’t. ❜

❛ I will spend all of eternity trapped in my dead body. I will be locked within myself forever. ❜

❛ Should we wait? ❜

❛ Just give me a chance! ❜

❛ It’s bad, being frozen, but it’s better than waking up alone. ❜

❛ Everyone has secrets and if you keep asking, you’ll see how far I’m willing to go to keep mine. ❜

❛ Memories always kill nightmares. ❜

❛ I’m going to find a way to fix you. ❜

❛ I am not broken. ❜

❛ People are supposed to be like that: obedient, calm, working together. It’s us who can’t obey, can’t focus, who can’t work together, —  we’re the ones who aren’t normal. ❜

❛ What were you running from? ❜

❛ It’s not like I’ve done anything wrong! ❜

❛ I can get closer. ❜

❛ Like walking through water. Like drowning. ❜

❛ This journey… it’s long. ❜

❛ Why run? Run where? What’s the point? ❜

❛ People will survive anything for their children. ❜

❛ Does it matter if it’s a lie if it keeps us alive? ❜

❛ Old people die. It’s what they do. ❜

❛ This is… mating, it’s not love. ❜

❛ The first cause of discord is difference. ❜

❛ I’m not going to be the one to let her drown. ❜

❛ This is good. I want darkness. ❜

❛ Well, that did the trick. ❜

❛ I can’t do this. I can’t. It’s too much. ❜

❛ Everything is wrong here. Shattered. Broken. ❜

❛ I am surrounded by walls. I just replace one box for another. ❜

❛ What we imagine is often worse than the truth. ❜

❛ Oh, don’t worry, we’re all mad here. ❜

❛ I know I look different. But I’m just a person, like you. ❜

❛ I definitely think I’ve fallen into the rabbit hole. ❜

❛ I don’t like dreams. Sleep is too much like dying. ❜

❛ They are dreams, but I’m too out of control, I lose myself in them, and I’ve already lost too much to let them take over. ❜

me:  i should make use of all this muse i have for so many blogs & actually write today before it all disappears on me

also me:  new smite god released today and i’m in love with her so maybe i should just bury myself in video games for the rest of my life

bc i’m weak for these things. snagged the link from @vagasbonds​, make ur own here.

shieldedchild​.

@kienokoru​

“Hey, Shiro? Have you ever considered, Idunno.. accessorizing your arm? Maybe try some pastels instead of emo-gray?”

     “ ...i’ve never really thought about it. the idea is kind of... ”  frowning as he contemplates, his gaze drops to the prosthetic.  “ ...a brighter colour would only draw more attention to it. ”

@grimesucker​ sent:  it's a MESS of a cake , too many layers that now threaten to TOPPLE---it's PRETTY otherwise aside from unsteady foundation , all fluffy cream & fresh fruits ; atop sit candles, a HAZARD in how they're alight, but dox doesn't seem CONCERNED about it---"c'mon, make a wish n' blow it out!" // think sleeping beauty cake..... shaman verse ??????

  belated birthday wishes

     “ oh my god. ”

  shiro LAUGHS at the sight of the cake, unable to help himself. it looks like it’s barely staying balanced and it might light the whole cottage  ( which is ALL WOOD, by the way )  on fire if they aren’t careful. he suspects there’s some magic at work to prevent this, but still.

     “ this is the most RIDICULOUS cake i’ve ever seen. and also the most amazing. ”

laughter still marks his voice, but now it’s more bewilderment than amusement. no one’s ever made him ANYTHING like this for his birthday; how long did dox spend baking this and topping it? clearly so much work has been put into it and, for some reason, it’s all been done for HIM. it’s... maybe it’s silly, but it makes emotions of all sorts pile into his chest.

watching the flickering lights of the candles atop the CAKE MOUNTAIN, he takes a moment to think. make a wish? there’s nothing he needs to wish for, everything is already good  ---  he’s HAPPY, even if there are still some struggles he’s working though, and he wouldn’t change a thing about his life the way it is now.

i want things to stay like this, he thinks to himself, stepping up to the cake. breath drawn, the candles are all blown out in one go and shiro still has a BROAD smile on his face as he leans back, gaze turning to dox.

     “ you really didn’t have to go to this much trouble. ...but since you did, i think we should have a couple of big slices RIGHT NOW. ”

❛ I mostly post pictures of my dog, he’s more interesting than I am. ❜