Kaysas04 - Sheeki

unfortunately i'm back at uni

I genuinely was dreading this since the day I landed back home. I am still considering dropping out, taking a semester or year off, and just returning home. Worse case, I'll transfer to a uni back home and have no friends, but at least I'll be home with my family, and somewhere that's familiar, and I know by heart. Another part of me wants to stay and battle it out (also, I'm afraid of what others will think of me if I drop out/take a break). I went through so much my first year, and I'm afraid of going through them again. Depression sucks! Anyways, classes start in a few days, and I'm so stressed about it. I made a deal with myself to last the first month and then decide if I wanted to go back home. Hopefully I'm better mentally by then so I can stay here without being worried that I would be a danger to myself, If I am then I'm going back home to get proper help and to be with family.

I desperately miss my cats.

i fucking hate this trend (it is the most understood i’ve ever felt)

𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑑𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑜𝑤𝑛𝑒𝑟

"doing better" but one minor inconvenience and i turn into

the feminine urge to want a boyfriend really bad but being afraid to kiss and show affection

i love when my mind convinces me that everyone hates me and everything bad that has ever happened is my fault🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶💕💕💕💕