thinking about atsushi’s hallucinations as things he has to overcome- with the headmaster, he obviously has to accept his trauma instead of hiding from it, which is symbolized in the last scene of ch 122 when atsushi lets the headmaster help him open the door..
the dazai hallucination tho- yes it was the headmaster hiding between a person atsushi trusts but i don’t think that’s all it is-
atsushi has to overcome his idealization of dazai, of his all-knowing-ness to trust himself more, and that happens by him seeing how pm dazai treated akutagawa. i’m not saying atsushi is naive, he knew that dazai has a dark past but seeing it with his own eyes is different, which is why then the headmaster hallucination came back bc he and the trauma attached to it are his next obstacles.
and he gets past them.
atsushi character development for the win.
(i hope this made sense)
i cant let them go yet apparently
the walk home
His heart is my sword
having long distance friends is so fucked. do you wanna come over to my house and play (it will cost us 1 william dollars)
Something I find really beautiful about this chapter is Atsushi subconsciously finding his tendency to rely on his emotions as a strength — he had no logical conclusion as to why the ADA members were alive, but instinctively, in his heart, he knew.
The same for Akutagawa — he knew that Akutagawa would remember, in his heart, with the doubt of his mind. I believe it was a quote Atsushi had said earlier, but I believe it's the core of his character — "The head may err, but never the blood".
The heart is a mysterious thing, because it makes sense without any logical basis. The heart is a trust, a senseless trust with a sense of clarity. Dazai in Atsushi's subconscious saying, "Feel strongly. That's what you do when you want to experience the past", brings me to believe that Atsushi has become better at living. Atsushi, by only living in the present, has become the only person fit to defy the space, because the present in the agreement of the past and future.
In other words, I believe Atsushi is the heart.
Ok so you know about the common Chuuya interpretation of his choker being "a collar" and representing his loyalty to the Port Mafia? Well,
ADA!skk
I think a certain someone should be petty and bitter about Chuuya refusing to be his dog, and then going on to wear a "collar" for the organization instead.
Meanwhile, Chuuya is literally just minding his business and enjoying his new hot fashion statement.
teasing hinata is a team sport too 😜
all credits to the artist @skyellux on ig & tumblr
soulmates 🗣️ (sketch under the cut
fuck beast i wanna know about the au where chuuya leaves the port mafia with dazai
RE-BLOG THIS IF YOU ARE ASEXUAL AND PROUD ♠️💜
22. hufflepuff. virgo. mostly brainrotting about bungo stray dogs and crying about doomed yaoi.
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