In the Darkness
A Drabble set in the Monsters in the Dark universe.
—fluff, fear of abandonment and attachments, kissing, fem!reader—
@idaofinfinity @e-dubbc11 @rosaleenablack
You were pressed against Billy on his bed, giggling. “I think all nursery rhymes have the same tune.” You said, humming to yourself as if to test your own theory out.
It was out of the blue, but Billy thought it was cute.
His lips twitched, “Yeah?” He asked, playing with your hair.
“I used to drive my mom crazy singing Little Bunny Foo Foo growing up.” Your fingers were drawn to his hip where his scar was. Always drawn there.
Your thumb rubbed back and forth, liking the feeling of the scar tissue. You haphazardly scooted down, pressing your lips to the scar, tongue tracing it.
Billy’s fingers tightened in your hair, pulling you up, and pressed his mouth firmly to yours.
You made him want you.
x
Sometimes Billy wondered why he must be attached. It only led to heartache, to pain, to eventual abandonment.
He wondered why he couldn't cut you out. But you’d been so hated by your father, Billy couldn’t hurt you like that again.
Besides, you had nowhere to go.
At least, that’s what he told himself.
But as you laid there chattering sweetly about this and that, he knew he was fighting a losing battle.
He had already lost.
He was hopelessly attached to you.
He was yours and there was nothing he could do about it.
x
It was around two in the morning when you finally fell asleep, fingers still touching his scar, as though that grounded you.
You’d both obviously had difficult childhoods. You’d had a father who had never wanted you, and made sure you knew it every day, so you’d turned inward; discovering books and reading quietly for hours.
A father that hated you so much, he’d tried to kill you.
There was something to be said about having been hated by a parent, verses being abandoned by one like Billy.
He pressed his lips to yours.
It was in the darkness of his room that he allowed himself to love you for the first time.
Committing myself to post more vtm art I've made after some Minimal bullying (but not really)
her name is Yuejian ‘Yue’ Li. she is a Brujah from Washington, DC. and was embraced during the early 2010’s.
shes Too anxious for the dots of Strength she has on her sheet lmaoo. but that probably makes sense, since she has the "Ingénue" merit.
Hozier writing Francesca: what if every horrible thing you've ever been through has led you, or will yet lead you, to someone you love so much you'd do it all again. What if the suffering is all worth it, not from a religious standpoint but because of someone you love. What if that's all there is - heaven and hell couldn't care less about us, but we care for one another. We endure the unspeakable for one another. What if heaven won't let us in but we wander together through the darkness for eternity knowing we acted in love and having no regrets. What if heaven can't contain people of complexity and passion like ours. What if we were offered the opportunity and we said we'd do it all again.
blue moon.
( inspired by this YouTube video )
( a Monsters in the Dark Drabble. )
( @idaofinfinity @e-dubbc11 @rosaleenablack )
x
It was raining, and an oldies station he knew you loved was playing as you laid curled in his bed, warm and sleepy while he smoked. His scent of vanilla and clean linen surrounded you.
His fingers touched your head sitting on the side of the bed, “Billy,” you mumbled, eyes fluttering as you reached for him with your eyes closed, wanting more of his touch.
He chuckled, knuckles brushing your cheek. “Sleepy, baby?” He hummed, taking a drag off his cigarette, and admiring how pretty you look wrapped in his sheets. Soft and warm, and inviting.
It made him fucking ache. You were his, not in a way of possession like had thought, but more in the way of you were his to care for, to protect, to love. Things he never thought possible of himself.
He always thought he was just some asshole who thought he could have the good things in life. Things he didn’t think he deserved.
But you always saw the good in Billy, even when he couldn’t see it himself. Your idealism often clashed with his cynicism. But he wouldn’t trade you for the world. His fingers stroked your face, and you yawned.
“Mhm,” you mumbled, pulling on him, your eyes half lidded. “Come to bed, Billy.” You said, sweetly. You tilted your head, pulling on him again. “Can’t sleep without you against my back.” You said, yawning again.
He stood up, kissing your forehead, before putting out his cigarette, and turning the music off, before he began to undress. It was the last thing you were aware of, besides his body pressing against your back, making you sigh.
You felt warm and safe in his embrace, and you clung to the feeling of happiness, a feeling so foreign to you.
But maybe it didn’t have to be.
“When the band went to London, Nicks scoured the flea markets in Chelsea and on Portobello Road for Victorian lace — “the real deal,” she says. At five foot one, Nicks likes anything with volume that gives her more stage presence, like the endless shawls and scarves she spreads wide into wings. (Among the boxes packed for her spring tour, there’s a giant bin marked Stevie’s saris.) And, along with the platforms, that iconic top hat added height. “I found a top hat at a thrift store in Buffalo, New York, on our first tour, and I loved it,” she says. “Now I have several. It really became part of my look.”
Harpers Bazaar, 2011
—and it’s my whole heart, weighed and measured inside,
And it’s an old scar, trying to bleach it out,
And it’s my whole heart,
Deemed and delivered a crime—
36. | because we are living in a material world, and I am a material kitty. | my cat, probably. Masterlist I
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