I Think One Of The Most Important Things You Learn About Making Connections With Others Is That A Significant

i like to pretend i already died and asked god to send me back to earth so i can swim in lakes again and see mountains and get my heart broken and love my friends and cry so hard in the bathroom and go grocery shopping 1,000 more times. and that i promised i would never forget the miracle of being here

you're either in existence or existn't

"I am destroying myself so other people can't," she said, "and it's the worst kind of control but it's the only form I know."

— (via sofijasofia)

i don’t struggle with derealization. i like to think i’m pretty good at it :w

Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

person a: when i love someone, i gaslight them

person b: you don’t gaslight me

person a: of course i do

person b: no, i don’t think you do

person a: yeah, i do, i gaslight you all the time, darling. how could you forget?

again and again and again and again

{Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction page 24/ Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966/ Alice Hoffman, The Red Garden/ Anaïs Nin, from The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 5: 1947-1955/ Haruki Murakami: Norwegian Wood, page 276/ Michael Ondaatje/ Catherynne M. Valente, The Orphan's Tales: In the Night Garden/ D.H. Lawrence, from The Complete Works; The Plumbed Serpent/ Jean-Paul Sartre, from No Exit/ Alice Notley, from In The Pines: Poems; "In The Pines,"}