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I’m seeing my doctor for an antidepressant tomorrow morning.

I’ve had depression since I was 10. Any period of time where I felt happy or safe was always temporary. With some therapy I made it past some of the hardest years of my life, and when I realized I was going to keep living, I decided I didn’t need treatment. I never asked for meds, and I didn’t look for therapy after I aged out of the program I was in.

I didn’t have friends or family that supported me, or even offered to talk. I understand now that none of them would have known what to say.

I wasn’t living. I thought that surviving was the point, and for a while it was. I survived some things that I don’t wish on anyone, but now I want to live.

I want to get up in the morning. I want to spend time going to coffee shops and farmers markets and travelling. I want to romanticize my life, not just drag myself through it.

I don’t know how tomorrow will go. I don’t know if I’ll have to try ten different meds before something works but I want to try.

I spent 30 years scraping by, hoping tomorrow comes and goes quickly.

I want to live again. 

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Separation, W. S. Merwin

a Tuesday flower 🌸

“Don’t ever think that everyone who leaves wants to.”

— Unknown

~you gave me peace~

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I will always choose to love you, even in the last moment of when you breathe your last breath.

I love your soul and I cherish it so much, that I would never betray the words we spoke to each other.

'Always and forever'

So, when the air leaves your lungs and your heart stops beating, I will choose to love you even in those long and painful moments of guiding you into the afterlife.

~ Isabelle Wolfe

🧸

Falling snow

friendship breakups are lowkey the worst thing ever cause what do you mean this person I used to share every single detail of my life with is just gone

Mt Yoshino, Japan

nah just cuddling ain't enough, I want to merge my soul with hers

Wong place. Wrong time. The right one.

– Rupi Kaur

"it didn't affect me" *writes poetry*

Emily Brontë, from "Wuthering Heights," originally published in 1847

It invades. With each slow breath I slip under. Into the deep silence of us. I fall through to the other side, where we still live. You are in every corner of my mind. I am who I am because of us.

Joy Sullivan, “If I Had a Hundred Lives to Live”, Instructions for Traveling West

I was in love with the thought that we were in love with each other

What might be good for your heart

Might not be good for my head

And what was there at the start

Might not be there in the end

Do you wanna hurt me?

Do you wanna hurt me?

'Cause nobody hurts me better

©-shelovesskiez

i hope you all get partners who want to understand every little detail about you and never get bored btw

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“Tomorrow will be better.” “But what if it’s not?” I asked. “Then you say it again tomorrow. Because it might be. You never know, right? At some point, tomorrow will be better.” ― Morgan Matson, Amy & Roger's Epic Detour

by Faraj Bou al-Isha

─ Hisham Siddiqi