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PAUL LAHOTE  | Forbidden Imprint PT2.

‘’ On another love, another love, all my tears have been used up.  ‘’

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Paul was visibly frustrated with everyone. He spent more time as a wolf than a human for the past week, and avoided direct conversation with anyone if he could, and of course that was easy, especially with a lot of people fearing to get on his bad side and to set him off, more so in a situation like this, where Paul seemingly no longer cared whom he went against. Your perspective like such was proven by when Paul faced off with Jared, who insisted that Paul should be happy about finding his imprint, no matter the inconvenience of the time it had come.

Of course, he was shortly provoked by Paul mockingly suggesting he’d exchange the appearance of his imprint, with the disappearance of Kim, Jared’s imprint. Jared, taking this as a direct threat, had nearly lunged at the eager Paul had it not been for Sam’s alpha commands that kept them at bay. 

You no longer felt in control of the situation; Paul ignored your previous attempts of convincing him to leave you blatantly, he only talked to you if he had to, and seeing as you were no longer in a relationship, you felt relieved.

You loved him more than anything, but you had to release him off the leash you held onto him, he wasn’t yours anymore; his imprintee was here. Even so, you couldn’t look at Paul anymore without feeling a thickness in your throat, and a throbbing in your heart that you knew earned for him. You hated how this all happened.

No matter how many times you whispered to yourself that it was okay, that you shouldn’t be feeling these feelings of jealousy and envy, there was a thought in the back of your mind that wished that the new girl, Paul’s soulmate, had not moved to Forks, that she wouldn’t have destroyed the bliss you felt here. But, you couldn’t let such negative thoughts overwhelm you, as long as you could be nearby Paul to some extent, you would be fine.

You drove up to the pack house slowly, parking your car on the pavement as you stepped out, noting that Laura’s car was already there. Of course. She must be worried about Paul, after all, she understands she’s his imprintee. You thought. Sam must have explained everything to her, and the situation you were all in. In the end, the pack went along doing what they usually did. 

The weather was growing increasingly colder and worse, ice surfacing the pavement roads and solid surfaces, freezing the vibrant green grass into coloured, unmoved ice. As a human, you felt the bitter cold bite at your naked skin and cause shivers to run down your back, your warm breath only a puff of mist in the low temperature.

‘’ Y/N, i’m here! ‘’ You heard Laura yell out to you, as you saw her standing by the large house, waving her hand to more visibly attract your attention. She had said she wanted to talk to you, to resolve the clear tension between the two of you. Despite this conversation being inevitable, you hoped you could have prolonged it further, because you didn’t feel ready to hear whatever she had to say. ‘’ Sorry for taking so long, the road was too icy to drive on quickly and i forgot to change my tires this morning. ‘’ You apologised quickly, wrapping your coat only tighter around yourself as you gazed at the quiet female.

It was true, she was pretty, with flowing brown hair that cascaded over her shoulders in waves, and shimmering emerald hued eyes, she was compatible to stand against Paul as someone worthy of him, a soulmate. You weren’t. 

‘’ It’s fine, don’t worry, i was with the pack and Paul for most of the day anyway. He refuses to talk to me, but i managed to get a few words out of him today. What i wanted to talk to you about - i’m sorry, really, for this and that i know that you already understand what you have to do but, ‘’ Laura breathed in momentarily, as if preparing for what she was going to say. ‘’ You don’t have to worry about him anymore. ‘’

Your heart dropped in the slightest, like a crack unveiled and shattered a part of you. You expected this, these words, you knew you were going to hear them; you had to get a hold of yourself and realise your place in this.

‘’ In a few weeks, we’ll be talking normally, i’m sure. I’ll do my best to treat him as well as you have, i won’t hurt him or take advantage of the fact that he’ll only ever love me. ‘’ They stung. More than anything she said, or anyone else had, the sentence was like a slap in the face. She’s right. You told yourself assuringly, dismissing the mass in your throat as an effect from the freezing cold that engulfed your body further than it ever had before.

‘’ I just want to make sure me and you don’t have any harsh feelings towards each other, i’m so sorry for the heartbreak you’ve been caused, but we both want him to be happy, and he won’t be if he’s not with me. It’s a small town, this is, please stay a close friend. ‘’ She smiled warmly as she spoke to you in a light-hearted manner. You only nodded, your throat felt far too dry to mutter a single word, let alone an audible and distinguishable response. 

‘’ Tonight, Sam invited me to go along with Paul and everyone else to the beach. I suggested you come, but Sam said it’d be better for you not to be there. I want to tell you beforehand so nothing troublesome comes out of it.’’ She finished with a light, comforting smile. 

‘’ I understand. I hope everything goes well. I just want him to be happy. ‘’ You replied softly, giving in, finally, to her words. ‘’ I’ll be leaving now, and taking one of Jacob’s motorcycles. He told me he’d change the tire’s on my car to ones that can deal with the ice, so i can use the motorcycle for the while. I’ll be back later. ‘’ You dismissed yourself fairly quickly, waving your hand briefly with a brief smile, earning an ‘’ okay ‘’ from Laura, who seemed to smile as you turned around, and walk back into the house. 

You felt frustrated for the the variety of different feelings that grasped at you, attempting to organise your frantic thoughts as you brought the motorcycle out of the garage. A part of you wanted to fight for Paul, to tell her matter of factly you loved him more than anything, and that Paul was still picking you over her, so why force him into something he hadn’t entirely accepted? And yet, another part of you constantly reminded you that what he felt now probably wouldn’t be what he felt later, once his emotions calmed down and he sorted his priorities out, he’d accept his soul mate rightfully as he should have already. It was the adrenaline rush, the rush of feelings that kept him attached to you.

If Sam, the alpha of the pack, couldn’t restrain himself from his soul mate over Leah, whom he still felt feelings for even now, how could Paul?

You arrived home quickly, eager to step into the warmth of the house instead of remaining in the blistering cold, that made your cheeks flush with scarlet and your fingers go numb with lack of sensation. 

‘’ Is everything alright, honey? ‘’ Your mother questioned from the living room, her voice loud and worried, to which you replied as you stepped upstairs towards your bedroom. ‘’ Everything is fine. ‘’ You reassured her with a pleasantly fake tone, a wave of relief washing over you at the fact that your voice hadn’t cracked and revealed any bit of distress. You didn’t need to get your mother involved in this, in fact, all you wanted now was to finish off whatever homework you had to complete, and simply go to sleep for a few hours; that felt like the most distracting activity of all. 

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After several hours of doing nothing even relatively interesting besides reading, finishing off homework and getting in touch with your friends, with intentions of plan making to distract yourself from the emotions that ate away at you, you imagined everyone would be home by now after the beach. After all, it was growing rather dark now, with a few, faint stars littering the darkening blue sky and even a thin layer of snow coating the swaying trees and grey roofs of houses. Your mother was asleep, you could tell by the silence coming from the house, and the lack of lights or electricity used at all.

Slipping your coat on, you left the house silently and drove to the pack house on Jacob’s motorcycle, aiming to get your car before tomorrow, seeing as you did have school then and knew the ice in the morning would only be worse than it was now. However, as you hopped off of the motorcycle, you noticed your tires were still the same as they were the last time you had been here.

Frowning slightly in confusion, you approached the pack house swiftly and knocked on the door. Maybe they had forgotten, or possibly weren’t even home yet, as you knew Jacob had went along with the pack to the beach. ‘’ Come in. ‘’ A deep, familiar voice spoke out, and you immediately knew who it was as you stepped inside.

‘’ Do you know where Jacob is? ‘’ You asked naturally, remaining composed, unreadable as you gazed down at Paul, whom was sitting at the table, his steel, cold eyes not once leaving yours the moment they settled on you. 

‘’ In the garage, preparing to change your tires. ‘’ The male replied in a monotone tone. Maybe this was progress, maybe he understood that there was no longer anything remotely romantic between the two of you. Quickly nodding, you turned around and stepped forward to unlock the door to leave, but the word’s that left Paul’s lips had frozen you.

‘’ Did this make you feel better? Has it done anything to prove to you how i feel? ‘’ His words weren’t warm, or affectionate, instead they were frustrated and accusing, impatient almost, as if the anger that tugged at him wanted out. Swivelling around, you stared at him, bewildered. 

‘’ Make me feel better? What, the fact that you refuse to even look at me, or maybe that you’re making this so much harder for everyone else when you’re denying your feelings? You know what’s going to happen, i’m so sick and tired of having to repeat myself with this, Paul. This annoyance with me, this rush of emotions and denial is what is keeping you from accepting who your soul mate truly is, you’ll be over me the moment you get back with me. ‘’ You stated, growing more distressed and irritated. He knew how you felt, how much this pained you, and yet he still pulled on the same heartstrings of yours. You thought that you could do this, you could go through this, but how could you when all he did was act persistent?

‘’ This rush of emotions, that you say keeps me from accepting my mate, is love. If you just fucking understood that, if you stopped trying to force someone onto me, if you just, for one damn second, listened to what i was saying - maybe you’d realise that these weeks, you’re the only one i want. But me accepting her will make you happy, right? Me leaving you to finally accept Laura, to finally give in to your wish, will make you feel better?’’ Paul questioned harshly, narrowing his eyes in a scolding manner and the familiar, animalistic snarl pulling agains this lips as he spoke more forcefully.

‘’ Yes. ‘’

You could tell from the briefly taken back expression on his face that he wasn’t expected what you just said. But, just as quickly, his cruel grimace returned. ‘’ Fine, then. Tomorrow, i’ll accept her, i’ll make her mine.’’ His words were quick and ruthless, and every little letter, every vowel and concept behind those words only stabbed you in the back. Your heart felt heavy, like it would fall and shatter like an untouched glass, released from the grip Paul held around it for all this time. All this time you loved him. ‘’ It physically hurts to stay away from her, that’s how much power an imprint has on you, but what surprised me for a bit was how much it hurt or me to stay away from you; you left me, Y/N, after all these months. I wanted you, i wanted you so bad and you pushed me away because you thought she was good enough. Now you can have what you want, you can leave and become happy with another human. Did you ever really hold feelings for me, Y/N? Or was it a trick, was i just a fucking puppet to be played with, and you were waiting for the right person to throw me away to? ‘’ His words spilled out powerfully, seeping into your mind bit by bit, every word was like a ton of bricks created to hurt you, to provoke you, to show you just how much you had hurt him. At your lack of response, Paul snarled, the finishing straw that would have drawn the line.

‘’ I hope you disappear. ‘’

That was all it took. All it took for you to release a sob, to finally realise you had tears streaming down your face, and to run out of the house not a second later. You hadn’t seen the instant flash of regret spread all over Paul’s face at the realisation what he had just said, because he meant none of it, and yet, caught up in the misery, in the untameable desire he held so horribly for you, his sorrowful words spilled out uncontrollably. This wasn’t what he wanted, no, he wanted to tell you how much he adored you, how he had plans to move away with you to prove that you meant more than anyone, and that he was ready to talk this out civilly as long as it made you happy.

Yet, with the pain in his eyes and the aching in his heart, Paul wanted nothing else than to express his anger, somewhere, anywhere. but certainly not on you.

The next few moments seemed to happen in a misty haze, uncaught by anyone. Running out of the house, with Paul closely on your heels, Jacob had just left the garage with most of the pack at the noise, but it was too late. 

Paul wasn’t quick enough, he wasn’t quick enough to reach out and grab you as you ran out from under his grasp, to the unprepared, untouched car. No one expected what had happened that night, especially Paul.

No one expected to hear the screeches of an unruly, frenzied unfamiliar car, with a driver whom could not control it upon the icy road just as much as you, smash straight into your car right as you drove into the road without warning; your vision blinded by tears. Screams, pleads and yells all mixed into chaos from everyone who ran to the two totalled cars. Only yours lay upside down, with a driver who wasn’t breathing.

Maybe Paul was right. Maybe you should disappear.

Funny, it was, how he was the first to say that and yet he was now the first one with tears in his eyes and effort like no other to get to you.

[ Should i make a part three? ]

Hi there, I’m always open to putting out a few requests and saw you wanted some more lighthearted requests 🙂🫶🏻 I was wondering if I could get either a bakugou or shinso writing where the reader has a “daydreaming quirk” (anything she “dreams” can be created into reality for certain periods of time) but the more she uses her quirk, the more tired she gets and the longer she has to sleep afterwards. Maybe in this the reader has been doing a lot of quirk strengthening training with her dad (aizawa) and comes back to the dorms one day exhausted. When the reader is sleeping in the common room cuddled up to bakugou or shinso they get a little protective when everyone comes in too loud. The class has never seen bakugou so soft for someone before or shinso so protective of someone before and aizawa sees that when he comes to check on her which warms his heart as well. Sorry if it’s a bit confusing of a request

A/N: I thought this was a really cute idea, I just hope I did it justice. Sorry this took so long, I didn’t really have the motivation for writing much. I didn’t do Bakugou even though I planned to initially, since I didn’t feel like it, but the Shinsou one ended up okay I guess

You had been training so much in the last couple of days and you were exhausted. Between school, homework and the additional training you had been doing with your dad, you hadn’t really had the time for the extra rest you needed. Your tolerance had gone up during your time at UA, so you didn’t need as much rest anymore after using your quirk as before. However, because you had basically been doing school work and training nonstop for the last couple of days, you were feeling really tired.

Shinsou was sitting on the common room couch and you just decided to go sit with him for a moment, before heading up to your room to sleep.

“Hi Toshi” you greeted him as you sat down next to him.

“Hey, were you training with your dad again?” he asked.

“Yep, I don’t think he’s ever heard of the term “take it easy”” you sighed, leaning your head against Shinsou’s shoulder.

“Don’t I know it” Shinsou said, rubbing the back of his neck, thinking about how many times he’s gotten his ass handed to him by your father.

“I know he just wants the best for me, but he could chill a bit sometimes. It won’t kill me to miss one day of training” you yawned.

“You know how he is, ever since the war against AfO, he doesn’t want us to be unprepared in case something like that happens again”

“Yeah I know, but I do still need my beauty sleep” you joked tiredly.

Shinsou could see you were exhausted. He knew that no matter what you said, you didn’t want to let down your dad, so you probably wouldn’t skip training, no matter how tired you got. It wasn’t exactly good for you, especially since your quirk required you to rest a lot too.

“I-” Shinsou started, but as he turned to look at you, he noticed you were already asleep against his shoulder.

He just smiled and decided to let you sleep for a while. There wasn’t really any reason to wake you. No one else was in the common area for the time being, so it was quiet. Of course the second he thought of that, the front door to the dorms basically slammed open, and people came in.

“Kaminari” Shinsou hissed at the blond, who was being the loudest of the group.

“What?” Kaminari asked, which made him fall under the affect of Shinsou’s quirk, and shut him up immediately.

“Shut up, (Name) is sleeping” Shinsou whispered, before releasing his quirk.

“Sorry” Kaminari whispered back, the rest of the group also apologizing for their loudness, before slipping into the kitchen area.

Shinsou just sighed. Fortunately, you were still asleep, and it didn’t seem like Kaminari’s loudness had disturbed you at all.

“That probably wasn’t the most productive use of your quirk” Aizawa said as he too entered the dorm building and walked up to Shinsou.

“Sorry sensei” Shinsou apologized quietly. “But (Name) is asleep. I think they’re pretty exhausted by the constant training and trying to stay on top of their school work too”

“I noticed that as well. You can tell them they have the weekend off of training. You kids can go to a movie or whatever it is you do when you have free time” Aizawa said with a small smile, before ruffling your hair and leaving the common room.

Shinsou could see Kaminari and Ashido grinning as they watched the situation from the kitchen.

“Shut up” Shinsou rolled his eyes at the two friends.

“We didn’t even say anything” Kaminari smirked, feigning innocence.

“Your expressions are loud enough” Shinsou sighed.

Shinsou could feel you moving next to him and when he looked at you, you were already awake.

“Sorry for waking you up” Shinsou apologized.

“It’s fine, I should go to my own room to sleep anyway” you yawned and stretched your arms.

“I’ll walk with you” Shinsou said.

You just nodded and grabbed your bag, as the two of you started walking towards your dorm room. You held Shinsou’s hand as you basically let him pull you along. When you got to your door, you turned to Shinsou and kissed him on the cheek.

“Thanks for keeping me company Toshi” you smiled tiredly.

“Any time” he smiled back, before placing a kiss on your forehead. “Oh and your dad said you could have the weekend off from training”

“Mhhm, I’m gonna sleep the whole day tomorrow” you muttered, and gave him one more tired smile before retreating into your room. The school week was over, and you would finally be able to get some rest.

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"Like"

adore, appreciate, care, cherish, commend, devoted, embrace, esteem, exalt, fancy, fond, glorify, honor, idolize, love, prize, respect, revere, treasure, value, worship

"Little"

bitsy, dainty, delicate, diminutive, infant, microscopic, mini, minor, minute, modest, petite, puny, short, slight, slim, slender, small, teensy, teeny, tiny, undersized

"Look"

behold, bore, eye, fix, flash, focus, gander, gawk, gaze, glance, glare, inspect, later, notice, observe, peel, regard, squint, stare, survey, view

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That’s the problem when it comes to loving someone, you’d let them stab you if that’s what the wanted. The worst part is, you would be the one to hand them the knife.

How to get away with murder: fall in love (via written-scars)

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