fabian falling for the kind, tall mazey — who tells him she plays the drums when they first meet, whose interest in dance was borne from a love of music and instruments. who has a mellow and softhearted personality that helps ground him, is understanding and supportive even when he doesn’t make the best choices. who cares about who he is as a person - maximum legend or not.
gorgug having a thing for mary ann — who hits him hard the first time they meet, who goes around school nonchalant and self-assured. who frustrates gorgug because she reacts heedless of others, even her party members, and makes her own unaccountable decisions. who, right after gorgug concedes a bit of civility to her, promptly moves onto negging him — which gorgug is secretly down bad for. and that’s… not dissimilar to repeatedly allowing oneself to be chased in a locker room getting swatted with a towel.
metaphorically speaking.
It isn't easy for me either.
process:
cottoncandy chucklefuck would do numbers on the complicated women’s podcast
id in alt text !!
The Dead Man’s Fallacy: Riz Gukgak
was thinking about the dreaming tree in trb that shows you your worst nightmares and. ronan doesn’t go in—later revealed that this is because he not only knows what it does but also what he’ll see—but his worst nightmare is bringing back wasps. killing gansey. blue sees herself dangerously close to kissing gansey, fulfilling her curse, also killing gansey. richard “he imagined [finding glendower] might feel a lot like dying” gansey sees himself finding glendower. but adam. we’re never expressly told what he sees, only that gansey’s dead and it’s his fault and ronan hates him for it and he hates himself for it too. the difference is subtle but important. the others see the action. adam sees the end result. the others are afraid of killing gansey. adam is too, but that’s not his worst fear. adam’s worst fear is becoming like his father
iris by the goo goo dolls // the raven cycle by maggie stiefvater
thanks to @adanseydivorce for the shot of the trb quote ! <3
crows <3
preparing to make the show my whole personality again
i cannot emphasise enough how much you need to create something. anything. it doesn't matter if you suck. you don't need to monetise it, or make it your career. you can restart an old hobby; you can start from scratch. it doesn't matter. you just need to hold something and be able to say "i did that". baking, drawing, painting, writing, coding, crafts, whatever. make something ! you cannot have all your hobbies be a form of consumption. it's fun, it's great in its own right. but the single best action to make yourself feel better, to calm your mind, to gain self esteem, is to Create
I like them a normal amount.
on getting better
?// ?// call your mom, noah kahan// letters to friends, family and editors, franz kafka// call your mom, noah kahan// september affirmation (Don’t Be Afraid), Keaton St. James (@boykeats) // @smuktvejr // ?// ?// 'east boston, 1996; night walk' in god's silence, franz wright// ending, jonny bolduc// listen, tara bray// the haunting of hill house, shirley jackson// little red cap, carol ann duffy// @daisies-on-a-cup// evermore, taylor swift// @angelwarm// long story short, taylor swift
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