actor!sicheng x actress!reader (+18 mdni)
summary: acting alongside your rival was supposed to be just another one of the competitions you play out in your mind, but after a brief heated moment between the two of you, you began to question your true feelings toward him.
a/n: @winwintea..... i'm finally here, pookie.... im like, so so so so so sorry it took sooooo long for me to finally finish this. but i put a lot of love care blood sweat and tears on it, i hope you like it, if you dont, then ill disappear from earth and no one will ever see me again đ«
cw: smut, fluff, more of one-sided rivals to situationship, alcohol mention and consumption, fingering, edging, unprotected sex.
with a frustrated huff, you sank into the chair, allowing the makeup artist to work their magic. the studio was filled with an almost tangible tension, as everyone seemed to expect a blow-out fight between you and sicheng at any moment.
itâs been a constant issue since the start of filming this drama. working on the same project as your long-time rival sicheng has made every day stressful, the constant tension and friction have made filming the drama a more difficult and uncomfortable experience for everyone involved.
the undeniable chemistry between you and sicheng on camera despite the constant tension backstage has led to the difficulty of finding another pair to match your on-screen chemistry. as the main characters of the drama, the romantic aspect of the show requires a certain level of connection and synchronization that only you two seem to possess, as ironic as it may sound.
but today, the prolonged shoot further strained everyone on the set, not only due to the physical exhaustion, but also the weight of the tense atmosphere that loomed over everyone. the frustration and fatigue were palpable, and the constant back and forth between you and sicheng only added to the mounting pressure.
the problem was the dreaded kissing scene. despite everyoneâs expectations, you and sicheng canât do it â and unfortunately, youâre the only one to blame. every time the distance between your faces closes, you instinctively pull away, much to everyoneâs frustration.
âum, excuse me,â the staff member poked her head into the dressing room and announced, "the director said it's getting late, and it would be best to continue tomorrow, so⊠everyone is dismissed for today,â she gave a small, apologetic smile before closing the door gently.
"of course this would happen," you mutter under your breath, trying to contain your frustration. you dismiss the makeup artist with a polite nod, then tilt your head back in irritation as you let out a heavy sigh.
âcan you please calm down a little, boss?â your assistant, haneul, places a cup of hot chocolate in front of you and steps into your view, her voice gentle as she pleads with you.
you glare at her and snap, "don't ask me to calm down when iâm perfectly calm, haneul,â grabbing the drink, you take a big sip before continuing. "dong sicheng is such an idiot.â
haneul lets out a deep sigh, rolling her eyes at your response. "he might be an idiot, but you're not much better when you act like this all the time," she says, crossing her arms. "just suck it up, get the scene done, and then you can go back to hating each other."
her firm words cause you to flinch, and you allow your shoulders to drop, acknowledging her point. you're aware that you've been more irritating than usual lately, and her straightforward approach hits home.
you sigh, slumping into the chair and admit, "i know, i know. i'm sorry. i'm just in a really bad mood today. everything is going wrong, and sicheng... i just want to punch that annoying face of his so bad.â
haneul couldn't help but chuckle, her eyes crinkling in amusement as they watched you scrunch your face like you had just tasted something sour.
"you two should get a room," her tone was playful, yet there was an underlying suggestion in her voice that betrayed her mischievous thoughts.
"what?!" you exclaimed, your voice tinged with disbelief and shock, you were offended even. the mere thought of having something like that with sicheng gave you the creeps.
haneul continued with a sly smile on her face, her tone now tinged with a hint of amusement, "iâm just saying," she began, "that we can all see the tension between you two. it's like you're just waiting for the moment to pounce on each other."
"is that your way of asking to be fired, huh?" your eyebrows raising slightly out of disbelief. "cut the nonsense â where the hell did you even get that idea?" you shook your head, dismissing the absurd thought, clearly annoyed by your friend's outlandish assumption.
haneul just laughed even more, enjoying the reaction from you. she had always assumed that deep down, you were only pretending to hate sicheng, because she could sense that there was secretly something more than just dislike. the imaginary game you played in your mind, of trying to outshine each other, was something she thought had made the actual attraction to him more intense.
"yeah, you can keep telling yourself that, boss," she placed her hands on your shoulders, giving them a slight squeeze. "but your bad mood would improve a lot if you just let him hit it.â
haneul was caught off guard as you suddenly grabbed the pillow from your lap, not having enough time to react. she grunted as the pillow hit her face with a soft thud. she stumbled back, rubbing her face where the pillow made contact, failing to hide her giggle and act offended.
she was about to continue with her tease when the sound of the door opening interrupted her, as if a greater force was saving her from provoking your wrath even further.
"sorry to interrupt," sicheng's deep voice reached your ears, his gaze fixing on you with a small raise of his eyebrows. he was the last person you wanted to see. "are you free right now?"
âfor you?â
âmhm.â
âthen no.â
sicheng let out a deep sigh in response, already expecting this reply from you. your name came out of his lips with a different, pleading tone compared to the annoyed one he had used for you all day.
"iâm serious," he said, his voice tinged with a hint of sincerity. "we need to talk, please?"
you were usually a stubborn person, but perhaps today you were simply too drained and the memory of haneul's words from before suddenly echoed in your mind, reminding you that maybe making things difficult wasn't always the right way to go, you knew you had already caused enough trouble.
so with a reluctant sigh, you relented, âfine,â your tone slightly annoyed. âwhat is it?â you gestured for haneul to give you some space alone with him and she immediately made her way to the door, despite her curiosity about what you would talk.
sicheng moved closer, taking a seat in front of you. you expected him to bring up the topic of the messed-up records and give you his usual sweet and annoying words of reassurance, mentally prepared to roll your eyes and respond with snark.
"i've noticed how stressful it was for you today," he started, his tone sympathetic. "and since this is your first romantic role, i've been thinking about what i could do to make this process easier for you. then, i realized the solution was right in front of us.â
you raised an eyebrow skeptically, not liking where this was going.
âwe just need to practice,â he smiled.
"you're saying we should practice... kissing?"
âexactly!â
âabsolutely not.â
his smile faded away instantly.
he let out a slight whine, trying to persuade you to comply. "oh, come on," he pleaded, "don't be like that now.â
âi said no. this is so stupid, sicheng,â you crossed your arms, looking away from him.
âwhy are you making such a big deal out of this?" even though he already knew that acting like this was part of your nature, he still asked.
you felt overwhelmed at the thought of having to kiss him on set even more, let alone practicing it multiple times. it was already a challenge for you, and you were unsure if you could handle it.
you responded with a nonchalant shrug, trying to downplay it. "iâm not making a big deal out of it," you said dismissively. "i just think this idea is stupid. thatâs all."
"have you thought about something better then?" he asked, his tone tinged with a slight annoyance. âthere's no way we can keep going with the show if you don't overcome this problem." his eyebrows furrowed as he continued, "you know we'll have to perform even more 'spicy' scenes in the future, right?â
ugh... of course you know. you were already starting to regret your stupid decision to accept a show for a mature audience just to compete with sicheng.
âand i fear they might replace you for this scene," he continued, his tone serious. "not that it's a problem per se, but i know you don't like stunts.â
his words made you flinch a little. itâs not that you dislike stunts themselves, you actually think they are pretty cool and that their work is impressive. you just don't like the idea of not seeming capable of doing your own work, and feeling inadequate when you know you're so skilled in it. it leaves you feeling disconcerting.
overwhelmed? unsure if you could handle it? regretting your role choice? replaced by a stunt double? bullshit! you were a top-notch actress, and a simple kiss wouldn't change that. you had the skills and confidence to tackle any role thrown your way.
sicheng knew he had struck a chord as he observed your expression. he knew well that bringing out your competitive side would effectively motivate you. the slight frown that appeared on your face, coupled with the defeated sigh and the rolled eyes, only confirmed his assumption that he had achieved his goal.
âokay, let's do that.â
hah.
he got you.
haneul couldn't resist making suggestive remarks toward you upon hearing that she could leave first because you had things to do with sicheng. it wasn't until you played the "threaten-her-paycheck" card that she finally decided it was time to head home.
now it was just you and sicheng in the studio. as you stood leaning against the table set for the scene, your eyes briefly skimmed over the script once more. you knew that it wasn't to ensure you did it right, but rather to prolong the inevitable moment of kissing him.
âare you done?â sicheng's voice cut through your thoughts, prompting you to lift your head and meet his gaze. he stood a short distance away, his arms crossed in a manner that signaled his patient but slightly impatient attitude.
as you cleared your throat, a subtle attempt to buy a little more time, you glanced back down at the script. "almost," you replied, keeping your gaze fixed on the paper. "i just need to read through it one more time."
but contrary to what you insisted on saying, sicheng wasnât an idiot.
a flicker of surprise crossed your face as sicheng abruptly grabbed the papers from your hands and tossed them aside. the unexpected move caught you off guard, and before you could react, he had placed his hands on either side of the table, effectively cornering you.
âwhat are you doing?â your frown deepened as he leaned closer, his body nearly touching yours. the proximity making it difficult to ignore the rapid thuds of your heart and keep your feigned annoyance.
âyou needed time," he said, "and i think i've given you enough."
"don't be an idiot," you scoffed. âwe need to reââ
âwe're not here to rehearse the lines," he interrupted you quickly. "we both know you can recite this backward by now."
you couldn't argue with sicheng's words, he was right; there wasn't a need to play the entire scene when you could easily jump straight to the main part.
you had been attempting to buy time, and sicheng had allowed you some grace in doing so. but he had finally reached a point where enough was enough. there was no escape now.
"alright," you responded with a confident gaze, your expression indicating a readiness to proceed. sicheng's brow twitched slightly at your response, a subtle sign that he was either surprised or intrigued by your sudden change.
his agreement followed swiftly:
"great."
âgreat.â
with those simple lines, the stage was set.
you were in the correct position, just as the script dictated. in this moment, the male lead had devised a plan to kiss the girl, saying that her wishes would only come true if she kissed him, and he had locked her in the exact position where sicheng was holding you now.
all it needed was the pivotal moment â the kiss.
sicheng's hand cupped your face once more, replicating the same intimate gesture as before. the familiar sensation of his thumb on your cheek triggered the erratic beating of your heart.
you reassured yourself, attributing the sudden rush to the invested nature of your role. easy now, easy, you thought, repeating the mantra in your mind. it was only natural for your heart to race in this moment due to the intimacy required by the character you were portraying â thatâs all.
as he leaned even closer, your instinct to push him away resurfaced once more. yet, you resisted the urge, your hands tightly grasping the edge of the table instead.
sicheng's eyes roamed over your lips, and you caught yourself replicating the action unknowingly. those plump lips of his were undeniably inviting, and it was challenging to deny the magnetic attraction you felt.
his lips caressed yours gently and softly, their subtle touch sending a shiver down your spine. the script called for a quick, chaste kiss, and that's precisely what you received as his lips pressed against yours. it was a brief moment, but it was enough to make your legs tremble in response.
ok, first part done. now comes the rest.
with a swift, fluid motion, sicheng leaned in for a second kiss, his hands cupping your face as his thumb subtly guided your chin downwards. you felt your lips part instinctively, granting him access to explore the depths of your mouth with his warm, skilled tongue.
you know, there's no such thing as a "technical kiss" in acting.
you either kiss, or you kiss.
it has to be real.
that's why you were so reluctant before because, right now, only god knows how much you are enjoying this. and no matter how much you triy to deny it, the way your tongue move against his is proof enough.
you found your hands reaching out to grasp his shirt, pulling him closer as you responded to the kiss with a new sense of eagerness.
sicheng was surprised. this wasn't in the script at all. now it seemed like you were just... making out.
not that he's complaining. he likes it.
he very, very much likes it.
as if they had a life of their own, his hands found the hem of your shirt, playing with the cloth for a few moments before sliding them under your clothes. his fingers came into contact with your skin, caressing it gently and making you shiver slightly.
and then, walking a little further, his hand trailed down to the waistband of your pants, sneaking into your panties. the gasp that escaped your lips served as a jolt to your consciousness. quickly, you broke the kiss and grasped his wrist, preventing any further advancements from him.
you locked eyes with sicheng, both of you panting. his hooded eyes, slightly flushed face, and his swollen, reddened lips were a sight to behold.
sicheng's voice, soft and low, echoed softly, asking, "what?" just as he leaned in for another kiss. you almost, almost gave in, your lips yearning to meet his, but you fought the urge, tilting your head back to avoid it.
you pushed him away quickly, fixing your slightly disheveled clothing while attempting to regain composure. your voice trembled a little as you speak.
"i think we did pretty good already. it's getting late too." you hastily handed him the studio keys before adding, "um, thank you for the practice. you can close up. see you tomorrow!" with those words, you hurriedly made your way towards the exit.
things happened so fast that sicheng barely seemed to process what was going on.
"hold on, wait!" his voice rushed after you, trying to catch up. "calm down," he called out, his words coming out quickly. "you didn't come by car today, did you? let me drive you home, i just need toââ
"no! it's fine,â you shook your head adamantly, cutting him off. "i can catch a taxi. thanks anyway.â
and just like that, you left, running away like a cat while closing the door in sicheng's face. the man let his shoulders fall and sighed loudly as he looked at the closed door in front of him, a small smile appearing on his face.
âcuteâ.
you haven't slept a wink all night.
the scene from the previous night replaying in your mind along with haenul's damned words like a broken record.
no. you do not want to fuck dong sicheng.
this is what you've been repeating in your mind since the moment you got up from your bed until the entire drive to the studio.
he's a bad kisser.
he's terrible.
that was the worst kiss you've ever had.
learning how to kiss with an orange would be better than this.
that's what you repeated in your mind as he kissed you again, but this time in front of the cameras. and you still had to tell yourself that it was your character who was enjoying it, not you. you definitely don't want to take him to a secluded place and make out until your mouth are sore. no.
"and... cut!" the director's voice rang out, followed by a chorus of applause. everyone on set was thrilled with how effortlessly the scene had come together, a stark contrast to the tension-filled atmosphere that had enveloped it lately. the air was charged with positivity, making it clear that this was the best mood the set had experienced since the project's inception.
despite the apparent positive change in the atmosphere, it was clear that there was something... different going on, for lack of a better word, between you and sicheng.
suddenly, you weren't bickering anymore and were even being uncharacteristically polite, thanking and apologizing for the smallest minor matters, which wasn't like your usual self at all.
everyone noticed this, but decided to just accept it as a positive development in the co-workers' feelings between you. at least, it was better than all that tension from before.
as haenul handed you a bottle of water, her words echoed with admiration. "wow," she exclaimed, "that was like, the best kiss scene iâve ever seen in my entire life.â
âoh, really?â you laughed a little awkwardly, your eyes briefly darted towards sicheng, who stood on the opposite side of the room. as your gaze met his, you hastily averted your eyes, taking a sip of water.
"of course! this episode will be an absolute banger; everyone has been waiting for this!" she nodded fiercely and continued. "i've been checking the social media, and..." her words were met with your inattentiveness, as if your mind was preoccupied elsewhere. "and you're not listening to me!" she furrowed.
"oh, sorry about that," you shook your head, snapping back to attention. "i got distracted for a moment. you were sayingâŠ?â
haenul's eyes narrowed as she scrutinized you momentarily, following your gaze to where sicheng stood on the other side of the room.
"did you and sicheng finally hook up last night?"
you nearly choked on your water, coughing as you fumbled with the bottle in your hand. your assistant quickly patted your back, trying to help you recover.
once you were fine again, you glanced around nervously to check if anyone had overheard, then turned back to haenul with a sharp glare.
âcan you stop blurting stuff like that?!â you hissed at her.
haenul gasped dramatically. âoh my god! you totally did it!â
âi did not!â you snapped, lightly smacking her arm.
âbut something happened between you two!â she insisted, her voice dropping to a whisper, just loud enough for you to hear after the scolding. âyouâre acting all weird around him. if it wasnât sex, then what was it?â
âis that seriously the only reason you can think of?â you replied, your tone edged with disbelief. âwhen did you turn into such a pervert?â
âi mean, you were obviously kissing for real earlier, and now weâre finishing the day without your usual sulking. after spending the night alone with him, what else am i supposed to think?â
you frowned at her explanation. âwell, maybe that weâve become, i donât know⊠friends?â haneul looked at you as if youâd just told her the funniest joke sheâd ever heard. âpff. yeah, right. friends. sure,â she said, shaking her head.
before you could even attempt to explain that she was partially wrong, everyoneâs attention shifted to the director as she clapped her hands to speak.
âsince weâve successfully wrapped up the first part of our series â thanks to everyone here in the studio who made it happen, especially our two stars,â she gestured toward you and sicheng, âdoesnât this call for a celebration? drinks on me for everyone!â
her words were met with cheers from the crew, and even you felt a sense of relief. a good dose of alcohol might help clear your mind, especially since you knew sicheng wasnât exactly a fan of these kinds of social gatherings.
âweâre going, right, boss?â haneul asked, clasping her hands together in mock prayer. âplease, please, itâs the weekend!â
âyes, haneul, we are,â you said, rolling your eyes with a chuckle. âbut donât overdo it, okay? iâm not in the mood to hear you sobbing your heart out while singing sad songs on karaoke again.â
âyes, boss! Iâll treat it like a work meeting,â she replied with a playful salute. âiâll grab your things so we can head out!â she added enthusiastically before dashing out of sight.
you took a deep breath, relishing the brief moment of solitude. sometimes, it felt hard to breathe with haneulâs constant energy. she could be... intense. but the peace didnât last long.
âi didnât know you drink,â sichengâs voice came from behind, making you turn to face him. âyou used to hate the taste of alcohol.â
honestly, you were tired of seeing his face and hearing his voice more than usual. you didnât like the way it made you feel, not after what happened. it was as if you were suddenly too aware of the strange, tangled emotions brewing inside you.
âwell, a lot has changed since our younger days,â you shrugged, your voice casual. you didnât feel like diving into it any further. ânow, if youâll excuse me, itâs time to socialize,â you said, turning on your heels, eager to escape the uncomfortable moment.
âi agree. letâs not keep them waiting,â he replied, his footsteps closing in behind you. you froze in your tracks, his sudden presence unsettling.
âyouâre coming too?â you asked, confused.
âof course,â he said with a soft chuckle. âyou heard the director, can't have the stars missing out."
âbut⊠you donât like social events,â you said, your tone almost questioning, as if you were trying to figure him out.
âwell,â he said with a small smile, âa lot has changed since our younger days.â
it was awful.
you had been hoping for some space from sicheng, but it seemed like life had other plans. you tried to find a seat as far away from him as possible, but he followed, completely at ease, as if he had no intention of leaving your side. and of course, the table quickly filled up, leaving you both sitting side by side, while you anxiously awaited the drinks.
the mood at the table was light, everyone chatting away. haneul took a seat on the other side, eager to be closer to the staff she was interested in, which meant you wouldnât be on her radar for a while.
you turned your attention to sicheng as he exchanged a few words with the director, and suddenly, it hit you: why were you freaking out about him? it was just a kiss. a brief, heated moment between two adults that didnât mean a thing. there was no reason for you to keep acting so weird about it all day. after all, he was still sicheng, your rival. you just happened to kiss him.
sure, a few other things almost happened, too, but... it didnât mean anything. you were just practicing, after all. yeah. you werenât affected by it. not even a little. mhm.
you couldnât help but smile to yourself as you made these sharp observations, feeling a bit more at ease.
âwhy are you looking at me like that?â sicheng raised an eyebrow, noticing the way you were smiling at him, as if you were staring at someone whoâd just failed a basic math test.
ânothing, itâs just too much for your mind to handle,â you waved your hand dismissively, taking a sip of your drink that had just arrived. your words, along with the casual shrug, made him smile and shake his head.
âoh, iâm actually curious about something,â one of the co-actors began, snapping his fingers at you and the man beside you. âdo you two really know each other from high school?"
sichengâs face lit up at the question, clearly happy. then he looked at you, who wasnât exactly sharing his enthusiasm, and his smile grew even wider. âyes! yes, we do. we were inseparable back then.â
you furrowed your brows at his words. âyou mean you followed me around.â
âisnât that basically the same thing?â
âitâs not."
âanyways,â he shrugged, âit was because of her that I started to get into theater.â
âand iâve been regretting that ever since,â you added with a smirk.
a few giggles spread through the table at your playful banter, the lighthearted atmosphere catching everyone off guard. it was clear they were starting to see you both in a new light.
âso, all this time you were actually friends? and here we thought you didnât get along when itâs just your way of showing friendship,â one colleague commented, raising a curious eyebrow.
âno, thatâs notââ
âright? that explains why they have such great chemistry!â another colleague cut you off. âi mean, the kiss scene? that mustâve been awkward with a friend, but it probably makes it easier too, doesnât it?â
âoh, itâs not that,â sicheng began. âitâs because last night weââ
a loud thud echoed as sichengâs knee slammed into the table, his words cut off mid-sentence. he turned to you, confused, after you had stomped on his foot under the table.
âoops, how clumsy of me,â you said with a saccharine smile, your voice light but your eyes burning into his. âsorry about that.â
he blinked, clearly perplexed, but nodded slowly and turned back to the group. âanyway, as i was saying, we had aââ
this time, you pressed your heel down on his foot with deliberate force. he hissed in pain, snapping his head back toward you. but you didnât even flinch, your gaze fixed ahead as if you were entirely innocent.
he narrowed his eyes slightly, then leaned closer, sliding a hand onto your thigh. His grip was firm, not enough to hurt, but enough to stop you from trying anything else. the sudden contact made you tense, and your head snapped toward him, your wide, confused eyes locking with his.
âwe just had a little talk and came to an agreement,â he said smoothly, his voice calm and convincing.
âoh, that makes sense,â one of your colleagues hummed, nodding as if it all clicked. âthatâs why everything worked out so well in the end. you should have done it since the beginning tho!â
sichengâs words were deliberate, as if heâd sensed your discomfort from the start and had chosen his lie to protect the fragile truth you wanted to hide. but you couldnât even focus on what he was saying anymore.
your mind was too preoccupied with his hand placement. his thumb was now tracing slow, deliberate circles on your thigh, hidden under the table. your stomach tightened at the warmth spreading through you, that annoying, fluttery feeling you wished you could suppress.
without a word, you picked up your drink and took a long, steady sip, as if the alcohol could somehow cool the heat in your chest.
god, this was going to be a long night.
oh, you were right.
after managing to wrangle sicheng into the passenger seat of your car, you slammed the door shut and made your way to the driverâs side.
sliding into your seat, you shot him an annoyed look, letting out a long, exasperated sigh.
driving a drunk sicheng home was definitely not part of your plans for the night. but somehow, the crew had unanimously decided to throw him at you because, apparently, the two of you were now best friends. all because you shared some ancient history, and probably because heâd grown unusually clingy after a few too many drinks.
you tried to refuse, insisted that you didnât want to be responsible for him, but theyâd waved you off with the ultimate argument: you were the only one who knew his address.
fantastic.
âyou stupid idiot,â you hissed, leaning over to fasten his seatbelt. âif you canât handle alcohol, why did you even come?â
his eyes, half-closed and heavy with sleep, fluttered open as he turned his head toward you. âbecause you were coming too,â he slurred, his voice barely above a whisper. âi wanted to be with you.â
you froze, his words catching you completely off guard. your surprised gaze met his drunken one, and you hated how fast your heart was racing. this was absurd.
a small, lazy smile tugged at his lips as he murmured your name, so soft it almost sounded tender.
âyouâre so pretty,â he mumbled, his head lolling slightly as he leaned closer. âi want to kiss you.â
to say you were malfunctioning from all this sudden talk was an understatement. the way he said it â soft, unguarded â made it far too tempting to close the small gap between you. for a split second, you almost gave in again. almost.
but with a sharp shake of your head, you snapped yourself out of it. instead of letting your lips meet his, you shoved your hand against his mouth and pushed him back firmly.
âas if iâd do something like that,â you scoffed, leaning back into your seat and starting the car.
from the corner of your eye, you caught the way he pouted, looking like a sulky child.
âyouâre always so mean to me,â he mumbled, his voice muffled but unmistakably petulant.
âitâs your fault for being like that,â you shot back, your eyes fixed firmly on the road ahead. ânow shut up. i canât focus on driving with your annoying voice in my head.â
âyes, maâam,â he murmured softly, his tone almost obedient. he didnât even try to argue, instead leaning back against the seat and drifting off to sleep. the car fell into silence, broken only by the steady rhythm of his breathing and the erratic pounding of your heart.
âgod, i must be crazy,â you muttered under your breath, gripping the steering wheel tighter as if it could steady your own thoughts.
the peaceful silence during the drive to his house was doing wonders to calm your racing thoughts and your heart. you kept repeating to yourself that he was just drunk, that his words didnât mean anything. even you, who hadnât had much to drink, were clearly feeling the effects of the alcohol.
that was the only explanation you could cling to, the only thing that brought you any comfort in the moment.
a relieved sigh escaped your lips as you parked in front of his apartment. the street was quiet, the dim glow of the streetlights casting soft shadows over the building. turning to him, you called out in a firm, loud voice.
âweâre here. wake up.â
no reaction. not even a flinch.
âsicheng,â you tried again, leaning over to tap his shoulder. still nothing.
âcome on,â you grumbled, grabbing his shoulder and giving him a light shake. âwake up!â
absolutely no response.
with a growing sense of irritation, you grabbed both of his shoulders and shook him with all the frustration of someone at the end of their rope. âWAKE UP!â
but it was pointless. he remained blissfully asleep, the alcohol rendering him completely oblivious. you let out a defeated sigh, releasing him as he slumped back into his seat, and pinched the bridge of your nose.
this night just kept getting better.
you couldnât just leave him passed out on the street â though you seriously considered the idea for a good few seconds. but, in the end, you had no choice but to do something you absolutely didnât want to do.
âdong sicheng, you better be ready for your death sentence tomorrow,â you muttered through gritted teeth, adjusting his limp body onto your back. he was surprisingly heavy, and you were giving it everything you had to carry him while he, of course, enjoyed the sleep of his life, his soft breaths tickling the back of your neck.
staggering inside the building as quickly as you could, you headed straight for the elevator. you only knew exactly where he lived because, back when you were hunting for a new apartment, youâd toured this building. of course, youâd had the misfortune of running into him that day. sicheng had happily joined your tour, turning it into his personal showcase of his apartment. at least it made it easy to cross this building off your list.
reaching the elevator, you pressed the button, only to stop cold when you noticed the maintenance notice taped to the door.
âyouâve got to be kidding me,â you groaned, staring at the sign like it might change its mind.
sicheng lived on the 11th floor.
this was going to be a nightmare.
to sum up the nigh, believe it or not, you actually climbed the stairs to the 11th floor with sicheng slumped over your back. every step felt like a herculean effort, but you kept telling yourself this was the fastest way to be rid of him.
when you finally reached his door, breathless and drenched in sweat, life decided to have one last laugh at your expense. a keypad lock blinked back at you mockingly.
you stared at it, utterly defeated.
after a moment of recovery, you tried every password you could think of: his birthday, his acting debut date, his momâs birthday, even your birthday. nothing worked. each failed attempt pushed you closer to a breakdown.
which is how you ended up here: sicheng sprawled out comfortably on your bed, snoring softly, while you stood there, glaring at him with the fury of someone who had well and truly hit their limit.
getting mad wouldnât do you any good right now. it wasnât like you could argue with someone who was completely knocked out. all you could do was accept the situation and leave it for the morning, when heâd hopefully be conscious enough to face the consequences.
taking a deep, calming breath, you laid down beside him. there was no way you were sleeping on the couch. too uncomfortable. and besides, the only reason he was in your bed to begin with was because the living room felt like it was miles away, and you absolutely refused to carry him any farther than you already had.
so here you were, stuck sharing a bed with dong sicheng.
âunbelievable,â you muttered, turning your back to him as if that would help you ignore the fact that he was there at all.
but it didn't take long for you to turn to look him, letting your eyes linger on his sleeping face. his chest rose and fell in a steady rhythm, and his hair fell messily across his forehead, brushing against his soft features. you had to admit, he was ridiculously handsome. there was a princely air about him, something in the elegance of his delicate features that always seemed to catch your attention no matter how hard you tried to look away.
your gaze wandered, tracing the curve of his nose, the sharp line of his jaw, the faint lashes resting against his cheek. and then your eyes stopped on his lips, plump, rosy, and slightly parted.
you swallowed hard.
okay. maybe you wanted to kiss him again.
and maybe, just maybe, you could finally admit that the kiss had affected you far more than youâd been willing to let yourself believe.
your gaze drifted lower, trailing down the curve of his neck. the first few buttons of his crisp white shirt were undone, teasing you with a glimpse of his collarbone and the faint rise and fall of his chest. your eyes wandered further, catching on his hands, broad and elegant, resting lazily by his side.
your brows furrowed slightly as your mind betrayed you, flashing back to the feeling of those hands on your skin.
okay. maybe you wanted to fuck him too.
you quickly looked away, dragging a hand over your face before resting your arm across your eyes, as if that would block out the whirlwind of thoughts spiraling in your mind.
âgod,â you muttered under your breath, âi must really be losing it.â
the shrill sound of your phone alarm jolted you awake, your face twisting in irritation as you blindly slapped around the bed. after a few failed attempts, your hand finally found the device buried under your pillow, and you silenced it with a hiss.
groaning, you kept your eyes shut and your head buried in the mattress, hoping to reclaim the comfort of sleep, but it was useless. letting out a defeated sigh, you blinked your eyes open and... froze.
the bed was empty.
you shot upright, the sudden absence snapping you fully awake. your eyes darted around the room, searching for any sign of life. nothing. quickly, you got up and began pacing through your house.
sicheng was gone.
âyou stupid bastard,â you hissed, gritting your teeth as a wave of disbelief hit you. âi even carried his dead weight all night for him to leave without so much as a thank you?!â your fists clenched as you let out an incredulous scoff. âdong sicheng, you are so damned.â
a small, frustrated scream left your lips as you stomped toward the bathroom. a nice, scalding shower, it was the only thing that could save both your sanity and sicheng's life at this point.
but, contrary to what you imagined, the bath only cleared your mind enough to make you even more irritated with the situation. it was an affront, an insult! you were going to make sicheng pay for this humiliation! a great outrage! you could already see your hands wrapped around his neck andâ
a knock on the door cut through your murderous thoughts. taking a deep breath, you walked over to open it, only for your eyes to widen at the sight of the man youâd been cursing standing there with that infuriating smile.
freshly dressed and looking nothing like the disaster heâd been before, sicheng radiated ease. but you couldnât care less about his annoyingly perfect face right now.
âiâm gonna kill you with my own two hands, so get ready,â you growled, stalking closer with your fingers curled as if ready to strangle him.
âhey, hey, calm down,â he said, laughing softly as he caught your wrists in his hands, his touch warm and steady. his smile grew wider, completely unfazed by your murderous intent.
"are you seriously asking me to calm down?" you snapped, attempting to push forward again, but he held your wrists tighter, his grip firm yet gentle.
"i know you're mad," he said softly, leaning down to press a kiss to your wrist. the warmth of his lips brushing your skin sent a jolt through you, your resolve faltering. disoriented, you found yourself staring at him, momentarily forgetting why you were even angry. "and i'm here to apologize, of course," he added, his tone dripping with sincerity, though that playful glint in his eyes made you suspicious.
"i climbed up and down eleven floors with you on my back," you managed to say, your voice carrying a hint of annoyance despite your disoriented state. his surprised expression told you everything: he didnât remember half of what happened last night. "an 'i'm sorry' isn't enough to save your ass."
"i know," he nodded, resisting the urge to ask for a full recap. "which is why i already reserved a table for us at your favorite restaurant."
"what?" you blinked, confused. "how do you even know what my favorite restaurant is?"
"because iâm interested in you," he said, as if it were the most natural thing in the world. "any other reason would just be an excuse, donât you think?"
your jaw nearly dropped. this was exactly what you liked and hated about him: he was always unapologetically sincere.
you stood there, at a loss for words, unsure of how to respond. but he, of course, didn't miss a beat and took your silence as an answer.
âthen itâs settled!â he said with that all-too-confident smile. âletâs go.â
and once again, your silly heart betrayed you, too caught up in the moment to resist.
the place was near your house. it wasnât anything extravagant, but it had its own charm. cozy, inviting, warm, it felt almost like a safe haven for you. a perfect find for your new place, tucked away from prying eyes.
âand thatâs everything you put me through,â you finished recounting the events of last night to him, carefully omitting a few details, like the part where he said he wanted to kiss you or when you accidentally knocked his head on the door frame while trying to get him into your bedroom.
sichengâs face turned a deep shade of red as he fanned himself with one hand, the other clutching his glass of water. he avoided your gaze for a moment, clearly embarrassed, before stealing a quick sip.
he only remembered bits and pieces of last night, but from what you described, it was worse than he had imagined. guilt settled heavily on his shoulders as he listened.
âiâm really so sorry,â he said, his voice soft and genuine, his wide, puppy-like eyes locking onto yours. âiâm not usually like this. i overdid it yesterday, and i caused you so much trouble. iâm sorry.â
you finished your meal, casually listening to his concerned words. honestly, seeing that guilty, almost childlike expression on his face was oddly satisfying. if you were being fair, dealing with him drunk wasnât that bad, he was mostly well-behaved. but it was part of your nature to make a big deal out of things, especially when it came to him. besides, a free lunch at your favorite spot had done wonders to smooth over your irritation.
âyouâre lucky iâm a very nice person,â you said, shrugging with a mock air of superiority. âiâll accept all that and forgive you⊠this time.â
his shoulders relaxed, the tension visibly draining from his body. since the moment he woke up and found you sleeping soundly against his chest, he knew he had messed up. the guilt had weighed heavily on him, and heâd spent the entire morning running through a million different ways to make it up to you. seeing you willing to forgive him so easily was a relief he hadnât expected.
âthank you,â he said softly, his gaze warm and sincere. âi promise iâll be more careful next time.â
you raised an eyebrow, your tone teasing. ânext time? you think thereâs gonna be a next time?â
he laughed nervously, scratching the back of his neck. âokay, bad choice of words.â
you chuckled at his words, resting your chin on your palm as you leaned closer, a curious glint in your eyes.
âby the way,â you began casually, âyou said a couple of funny things last night too.â
âhmm, really?â he raised his brows slightly, feigning ignorance while signaling the waiter for a dessert. âlike what?â
âlike going to the meeting just because i was going,â you replied, narrowing your eyes slightly, testing if his drunk words held any truth.
âoh, yeah,â he nodded nonchalantly, turning his attention back to you. âi heard you mention it, so i thought itâd be fun to tag along.â
âsaying you're interested in me all of a sudden, still following me around like a lost puppyâŠâ you trailed off, lips curling into a faint smirk. âdo you have a crush on me or something?â
âwhat do you think?â he shot back, mimicking your posture as he leaned in, resting his chin on his palm, a teasing smile playing on his lips.
âyou know itâs stupid to answer a question with another question, right?â you gave him a bored look, but your tone was far from serious. âbut if you do like me, i can only assume youâre a masochist.â
his laughter bubbled up before he could stop it, bright and genuine âwhat? iâm not a masochist! where is that coming from?â
âwell, Iâm not exactly nice to you,â you shrugged, feigning indifference. âlike, I kinda hate you, in case you havenât noticed.â
âyou do not hate me.â
âyes, i do?â
âno, you donât.â
âyes, i do.â
âdo you kiss everyone you hate?â
your smugness evaporated in an instant, replaced by embarrassment. âshut up,â you muttered, leaning back in your chair, refusing to meet his eyes as he grinned victoriously.
ânow that this came up,â he tilted his head, studying you intently, âwe never really talked about that, did we? youâve been avoiding it all day, then i had that little⊠drunken incident, and we just never addressed it.â
âwell, thatâs because thereâs nothing to talk about,â you shrugged, doing your best to sound casual and unaffected, even as your grip tightened slightly on your glass.
âhmm, is that so?â he clicked his tongue, a mischievous glint in his eyes as his tone turned teasing. âgoing through all that trouble to get me home safe, kissing me, sleeping all cuddled up on me⊠you know, iâm starting to think youâre the one who likes me.â
your head snapped toward him, eyes wide. âexcuse me?â
âoh, donât look so shocked,â he chuckled, leaning forward slightly, resting his chin on his hand again. âi mean, actions speak louder than words, donât they? and your actionsâŠâ he trailed off, letting the implication hang in the air as his grin widened.
âfirst of all, and most importantly, i did not sleep cuddling you,â you said, your tone sharp as if heâd just told you the worst joke of the century.
âoh? but you did,â he replied smoothly, nodding with absolute confidence. âwhen i woke up, you were hugging me like i was your favorite teddy bear or something.â
âi would neverââ
âoh, our dessert, finally!â he interrupted, his face lighting up as the waiter placed the sweet tart on the table. âit looks delicious,â he added, completely shifting gears, as if your denial wasnât the least bit convincing.
âare you seriously gonna end things like that?â you asked, disbelief heavy in your voice.
âhere, say âaah,ââ he said, raising a spoonful of pie toward your mouth like it was the most natural thing in the world.
âi'm not doing it.â
âsay aah.â
âi said i'm not.â
he didnât budge, just kept looking at you with that infuriatingly cute and bright smile that you couldnât seem to resist. with an exasperated sigh, you crossed your arms and rolled your eyes, turning your head away. but, of course, you leaned in slightly, opening your mouth just enough for him to slide the spoon past your lips.
your frown quickly softened into an expression of pure delight as the flavors burst on your tongue. the bittersweet tang of the strawberry, the velvety richness of the custard, and the flaky crust of the tart all mingled perfectly. you couldnât help but sigh and hum in satisfaction. it was that good.
ânow thatâs a great reaction,â sicheng said, amusement dancing in his voice.
you raised a brow at him, narrowing your eyes slightly.
âbesides the faces you make when youâre acting, this has to be one of the most charming expressions iâve ever seen you make. and those little sounds youâre making? delightful,â he added with a teasing grin.
you nearly choked. âwhat is wrong with you?â
âiâm just being honest,â he chuckled, clearly enjoying your reaction. âi want to see it again,â he said, holding out the spoon toward you. âopen your mouth for me.â
ââŠno.â
âoh, really?â he raised an eyebrow, his grin widening. âdo you really not want to?â
you couldnât help but think that maybe you were the one with something wrong, because before you even realized it, you silently opened your mouth again, earning a satisfied smirk from him.
âhmm, so greedy.â
âby the way,â you glanced at him, who was walking beside you as you both made your way to your place. âwhy did you go home so early?â
âwhy? were you upset that my face wasnât the first thing you saw in the morning?â
âforget i ever asked anything and just die for all i care.â
sicheng laughed at your annoyed expression. âitâs nothing much,â he shrugged. âi just couldnât take you on a date smelling like alcohol, right? i wanted to apologize in nice clothes, at least.â
âthis was not a date,â you said quickly, hoping to shut him down.
âyes, it was.â
âdonât even start,â you lifted a hand to stop him from going any further, making him laugh once again.
âhere we are, safe and sound,â he said as you both stopped in front of your door.
you cursed yourself when you suddenly felt a pang of disappointment at the thought of the moment with him coming to an end. you wouldnât mind spending a little more time with him, to be honestâŠ
âfinally, this infernal time beside you is over,â your words were at odds with your feelings as you looked at him.
âwhatever you say, sweetie,â he responded with a fond smile.
it should be illegal for someone to look at you like that, your chest tightening at the soft, affectionate smile he gave you. you hated it. hated how his gaze made everything inside you stir, how it made your heart skip a beat against your will. you wanted to be angry, to push him away, but all you could do was stand there, feeling something you didnât want to feel.
âyouâll burn a hole into me if you keep staring like that,â he teased, tilting his chin slightly as if silently telling you to come inside, and only then would he head home.
you couldnât quite understand what had gotten into you when you cupped his face and pulled him in for a kiss. you just wanted to feel his lips again, even if just for a moment, just one more time, that would be enough.
sicheng was caught off guard, but didnât pull away, letting you lead. you froze, eyes wide, your gaze meeting his.
âi-iâm sorry,â you muttered, suddenly feeling foolish. why had you kissed him just like that?
as you tried to step back, his hands locked around you, holding you steady. he gripped your waist, his eyes burning with desire.
âif you cling to me like this, all i can do is kiss you,â his voice was low, soft. âand thatâs fine⊠if all you want is kisses,â he gave you a meaningful look.
if only kisses were enough to throw your mind and body into disarray⊠maybe you were greedy, as heâd said, but you werenât satisfied.
âi want moreâŠâ you whispered, barely audible.
that was all he needed to hear before pulling you into another kiss, his tongue urgently invading your mouth as you responded with equal intensity.
you fumbled with the door handle, trying to opem it, while sicheng pushed you inside, never breaking the kiss. he closed the door behind you, his hands guiding you toward your room without hesitation, already knowing the way.
you both nearly stumbled as you hurriedly kicked off your shoes, chuckling against each other's lips. With a quick movement, sicheng laid you down on your bed, his lips trailing kisses from your jaw down to your collarbone. his hands slipped under your shirt, gently caressing your skin.
"i can't believe we're doing this," you murmured, a soft whimper escaping you.
âi told you," he mumbled back, his lips sucking lightly on your skin, peppering the area with soft kisses to soothe you. âyou like me.â
well, it's not like you're in any position to argue right now.
he wasted no time in pulling your shirt over your head, exposing your bare torso. âfuck, you're so hot,â he hissed, sucking on his bottom lip as he couldn't help but admire the sight of your hardened nipples, feeling his cock twitch inside his pants.
âstop staring and do something,â your needy voice snapped him out of his thoughts and he was quick to obey your words.
sicheng leaned down to wrap his lips around your breast, his warm, wet tongue swirling around your nipples and sucking hard. your toes curled at the sensation and you moaned softly as you closed your eyes, your fingers tangling in his hair.
as he continued his ministrations on your breasts, his hands found the waistband of your pants. you lifted your hips a little to help him pull them down along your lacy panties, kicking them to somewhere else.
you opened your eyes to look at him, feeling even wetter as you watched him sucking on your tits like he was having a feast. you held his face and made him release your breast, a soft 'pop' sound was heard as he pulled away, looking at you with half lidded eyes.
you shiver slightly as you feel the cool breeze hit your wet breasts, already missing the feeling of his warm tongue on you, but you really wanted to kiss him even more and that's exactly what you did as you pulled him up to attack his lips.
âyou taste so good,â he groaned into your mouth, his hand caressing your inner thigh and squeezing it lightly to emphasize his words. his fingers moved up to find yoyr dripping pussy, sliding along your slit and coating his fingers with your juices. âso wet already, you were really waiting for this, huh?â he buried his face in your neck, smoothing your skin with kisses.
it was too embarrassing to admit it and it wasn't like you needed to since your body had been betraying you enough for quite some time now, so all you could do was move your hips down, trying to get his fingers inside you.
âoh, eager, arenât we?â he teased, lifting his head to meet your gaze, his smirk growing as he noticed the way you bit your lip, your brows furrowed, and your breath coming in short, uneven gasps.
âplease, donât start teasing now,â you murmured, your voice soft but edged with a hint of urgency. you held back from saying anything too daring, not wanting to give him more fuel to prolong his playful torment.
he only chuckled softly, pressing a warm kiss to your cheek before capturing your lips again. this time, he didnât hold back, finally giving you what you wanted.
a sharp intake of breath escaped your lips as he slid two fingers inside you, thrusting them steadily. he could feel your tight, warm heat clasping around his digits, letting him even more anxious to bury his cock deep inside you.
he began to rub soft circles on your clit with his thumb as he took your breast into his mouth again, the combined actions making you squirm beneath him and moan louder.
he curled and scissored his fingers inside you, soon feeling the way you clenched around them. "close already?" he asked as he raised his eyebrows, and your response was just a fierce nod followed by soft whimpers.
your confirmation made him withdraw his fingers and you whined almost in despair, feeling empty and unsatisfied as he wouldn't let you finish.
"calm down, princess," he lightly slapped your thigh. "i want you to cum on my cock, hm?" he kissed the tip of your nose as he finally got rid of his own clothes and quickly positioned himself between your legs. he collected some of your fluids to spread along his shaft, hard as a rock, twitching with need. "i'm gonna fill this pussy up so good,â he was as impatient as you, so he only teased your entrace with his tip and entered you slowly, grinding against your sensitive clit.
your hands gripped the sheets tightly as you felt him stretching you, filling up any remaining space in your pussy, while he groaned and closed his eyes, enjoying the way your pussy gripped him tightly as if it never wanted to let him go.
"god, you feel so good," he began to thrust his hips against your pelvis slowly, he could feel your tight heat enveloping him, pulling him deeper. one of his hands gripped your hip, holding you in place as he fucked you. "that's it, taking me so well," he encouraged, his pace slow and steady, letting you feel every inch of him.
heâs played with you a lot already, so it didnât take long for you to feel your climax building again, and he seemed to notice it as he picked up the pace, leaning down to bury his face in your neck.
âcum for me, baby,â he bites you gently and pull away from your neck to watch your face, using his fingers to pinch your clit and bring you to the edge. wrapping your legs around his waist, your breath hitched in your throat as you clenched around him, feeling the knot in your stomach unravel as you creamed his cock.
he wasnât that far behind you, the whole intense moment was enough to bring him to the edge too, he kept pounding into you and pulled out just in time to empty himself, covering your stomach with his release.
you looked so hot like that that he had to hold back the urge to bury himself inside you again immediately. he let a bit more of his weight press against you, his lips finding yours once more in a lingering kiss.
"okay," you murmured against his lips, slightly breathless, making him chuckle softly. "maybe I like you... just a little bit now."
"just a little?" he teased, nibbling your lower lip with a playful smirk. "didn't seem like 'just a little' to me."
you tilted your head, a mischievous glint in your eyes. "i think we need to try it all over again so i can decide for sure.â
Forelsket: (n.) the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love
Synopsis: After a falling out drives you and Albedo apart one year ago, you find yourself returning to Dragonspine, the same place that led to everything going downhill. But this time, youâre accompanying the traveller and his floating companion. Are some things best left buried beneath the snow or are there still secrets driving the two of you farther apart?
Total Word Count: ~52.1k
Status: Completed
Prologue
Act I: AbienceÂ
Act II: SerendipityÂ
Act III: MetanoiaÂ
Act IV: IneffableÂ
Act V: RedamancyÂ
EpilogueÂ
Bonus Scene: Albedoâs BirthdayÂ
Notes:
Itâs a slow burn! And while this is an Albedo x GN!Reader fic, Iâve put a lot of thought into the Readerâs relationships with other characters as well and who they are
My apologies if any of the characters are OOC, Iâve tried to capture their personalities as best I can
for some reason almost every haitanis entrance appearance are them literally doing nothing just vibing and being pretty? then leave??
when you have a 23 member group and only 1 minute to introduce them
synopsis. you were a college freshman who just moved into your dormitory. as it happens, you accidentally caught sight of your not-so-slick neighbor from the room across yours snuck in a cat. being the good person that you are, you didn't confront him nor did you snitch on him. well, that was until you got the chance to use that information against him. not so good anymore, are we?
pairing. kazuha x f!reader
genre. fluff. slight angst. college!smau.
status. in progress.
note. i've always wanted to make a genshin smau, but i just didn't have any inspiration (nor motivation) to do so. but as i lay on my bed trying to sleep, somehow, a light bulb pops above my head. i slept at 2 AM that night. so, if you guys enjoy this, hit that reblog button!
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STRAIGHT As â INAZUMAN + BEIDOU
01. TO BE DETERMINED...
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Some Ragnvindr Brothers doodles
fights with him. includes xiao, albedo, kazuha. gn!reader. modern au!. warnings: arguments, err mild angst?. wc: 1,927. semi proof-read.
xiao â [â§]
fights with xiao are uncommon, not rare. contrary to belief, xiao is not the vocal type about his feelings, whether it be of distaste or love.
fighting with xiao is like standing on a tight rope hundreds of meters from the ocean and waiting to fall into the bottomless pits of water just to drown. he is careful around you but you are careful around him.
xiao has never been communicative, choosing to stay silent and never being confrontational. one would say he avoids conflict, choosing to stay in the dark and letting the issue resolve itselfâafterwards, he would come out of his shell and act as if it never happened.
and you wonder, has xiao always been this way? or did you make him this way?
"what was that?" are the first words you say after he had pushed you away when he came home, telling you that he was tired and wanted to rest.
you would have let him, really, you knew how stress would wrap itself around xiao's neck. but he has been this way for a week and you're growing tired of trying to cheer him up.
"it's nothing, i'm sorry," he says, a tinge of annoyance evident in his voice as he stands before you. he feels apologetic when he sees the way hurt flashes in your eyesâknows that it will always be because of him and his actions.
"xiao, you've been avoiding me all week, what's wrong?" you question him, hands already reaching up to cup his cheeks. he deflects your actions, stepping backwards as he looks at you with a slight scowl.
"do you always have to be this way?" he snides, crossing his arms as he watches the way your brows knit in hurt, in confusion. "i've just been busy, i'm sorry if i forgot, happy?"
pursing your lips, the only thing you could do is to look directly into xiao. as you stand across from him, thinking if you should leave him be or stand your ground, you don't miss the way annoyance fuels in his eyes.
stand your ground and you wouldn't be able to sleep tonight. leave and you would do the same. fighting with xiao has always been painful because you never know what to do, never know if you should chase after him or continue to leave him alone.
"it was still a date, xiao!" you protest, taking a step forward to show that even in the most heated moments between you two, you still care. and you will always care.
"i know," he sighs, "i know and it's my fault, alright? i'm just busy with everything." and it was true, dozens of papers laid strewn on his study table, waiting to be finished; however, it was also true that he had forgotten.
"i can't turn back time, you know that," xiao seethes. he wonders what you want him to doâhe was supposed to make it up to you after a week, promising that he'd finish everything before you. "just let it go, please."
you wonder if you really did matter to him anymore. "fine, then let me go too," you're gathering the rest of your things on the counter, not daring to look back at whatever expression was on xiao's faceâbecause you knew, if you saw how nonchalant he looked, you'd be heartbroken all over.
and he's holding your wrist, tugging you towards him; you avoid his gaze, missing the way his eyes flicker from your face to the door. xiao wouldn't allow himself to let you walk out the door without his apology.
"you can leave... if you want," he mutters, "i'm sorry. i know, i was in the wrong. i didn't mean for it to come out like that."
"do you even still care? about me? about us?" it's all you can ask, hoping that he says no. hoping that he says no so you can leave with no regrets because god if he says yes then you will leave with a heavy heart.
xiao tightens his grip on your wrist, nodding as fast as he can, swallowing the lump in his throat as he answers, "of course i do."
even when he says yes, you still tug your wrist from his grasp, gazing at him for a momentâand xiao swears his heart breaksâbefore you back away from him to leave.
albedo â[â§]
fights with him are rare. the percentage of an argument with him is around 4.5%, but still, a little number always has a chance. rare yet not impossible.
and should you ever fight with him, albedo is quiet and composed. the high and mighty albedo shows not a speck of emotion on his face as he works through his table, gathering whatever is left of the experiment he was working onâat least what he could save from it.
albedo has always been poised, he is self-assured and organised, never making a mistakeâsometimes he wonders if he was wrong about you. he is poised and you have always hated it about him.
the nonchalant look on his face makes your insides turmoil; will it always be like this? albedo rarely gets furious, instead understands the situation and tries to make do of what he can. at least what he does with his experiments.
âif youâre just going to stand there and do nothing, i suggest you take your leave,â albedo murmurs from his spot, fingers picking up pieces of glass, gingerly setting them on a tray.
coldâhis voice is cold. albedo does not spare you a glance at all, instead, he brushes over his table and inspects every inch as if it was hurt. were you not hurt as well? the redness on your fingers was evident, and tips were scratched from the failed experiment; however, past that, your chest tightens as you try to speak.
for once, you wonder, did it matter to him more that his experiment had failed? not that you had gotten hurt in the process of âhelpingâ him?
âand youâre just going to ignore me?â you jab at him. youâre trying to look through his words, the only sixteen words he had spoken after the failure of an experiment, trying to find a sign that he wants you to say. something, anything.
you donât find one hint at all, and you think twice if you should do as he says. fights with albedo are rare and you know it will pass just like each one hasâdid it all just pass? no, will he let this one pass
since you have done so many mistakes that he cannot overlook anymore, will this be the time he abandons you once and for all?Â
âi should have thought before i let you join me in any of my research,â albedo spits out. âhad i known you would have been nothing but a burden i wouldnât have let you join me with your idiocy.â
 and so, everything that you had built up between you two crashes. he didnât care like you thoughtânot when heâs staring at you like youâre the biggest irritant in the world that he has to face the moment he wakes up in the morning,
but it also sinks inside albedo that his words were uncalled for.
âsorry,â albedo repeats, again and again, his body already moving towards you and hands reaching out to touch you. like a broken record, each sorry is faster than the last; hoping that it would make the tears that wanted release to stay in your eyes.
because god, albedo hates it when you cry, hates it more when itâs because of him. instead, you push him away, looking at him with the most hurt of eyes that heâs ever seen in his life. albedo has chosen his stand and it will not change your decision.
âiâm sorry,â he whispers.
for once, albedo prays to the gods, watching as you leave him all alone in his studyâjust like he has always been. alone and in the dark all over again.
kazuha â [â§]
some would say fights with kazuha are impossible. he is polite and well-spoken, always knowing what words to say to comfort someone in need, and always a firm believer that conflict can be resolved with communication.
you, for one, believed otherwise. communication was not something you dealt with, in fact, you hated having to deal with confrontation more than anything. kazuha was the one who initiated peace at most times, sometimes you when you know you are in the wrong.
as someone who holds his relationships in very high regard, kazuha is gentle with you and his words whenever you argue. as someone he is fond of, kazuha holds you dear to his heart.
so imagine his surprise when you two get home from a small gathering, a frown on your face as you set down most of your things and tell him you don't like one of his friends.
"i don't like the way he talks to you," is what you tell him, and kazuha stares at you, pondering on what to say.
"i admit he's rather blunt," he discloses. never knowing your reasons was difficult and kazuha feels that he may have to pry it out of you.
"no, he's out of the line. i don't like him," you snap, "he was being pissy the whole nightâand don't you notice the way he talks to you?"
while kazuha holds you in high regard, he does the same with his friends. while he cannot understand where you are coming from, kazuha believes you may have seen his friend from a different perspective.
"he talks like that with everyone," he answers, this time with a tinge of annoyance. you've met that certain friend three times, and kazuha has known him for two years, it's impossible for you to see right through him immediately.
you turn to look up at him, glaring slightly, "kazuha, you know, sometimes you're being too nice that you can't even see that people are using you! i'm just telling you the truth about him!"
"and i told you he's not like you think he is!" he raises his voice slightly. he watches as you turn away from him, crossing your arms as you click your tongue in annoyance.
"god, kazuha, can't you see that some people are just not as nice as you?" you scoff, "i understand that you're-"
"you don't understand," he speaks up. "you never did and you still don't. they're my friends and you're telling me he speaks to me out of line? i would know, i'm his friend!"
"and i'm telling you that he was being a dick to you and you can't notice it!" you snap, tears springing to your eyes as you feel your chest tighten.
fighting with kazuha was always something you hated because for once, you don't know how to answer him. and as you stand before him, trying to make sense of what you felt, nothing right wants to come out.
"because you're being crazy about it!" kazuha retorts, crossing his arms before he lets out a sigh. "let's...let's talk it over, i don't want to argue with you over this."
as you hold back your tears, kazuha reaches out to wrap you in his arms, hand on the back of your head.
kazuha supposes that maybe this time, he should listen to you. he just hopes that you forgive himâbecause you're pushing him away in tears.
NOTES ok so i said i wanted more fluff on my blog buttttt yayy i didn't think this one was too angsty so :p this one was rotting in my drafts, i decided to post this just before i update tomorrow hehe
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redamancy [noun. the act of loving someone who loves you back; a love returned in full]
summary: a collection of (non-chronological) drabbles with all the little moments in your relationship with scaramouche.
pairing: scaramouche/reader
content/warnings: this is a modern au and as of the time of starting this and the already existing drabbles, scaramouche has not yet been released as a playable character. iâm going off by my own interpretation of his character and the lore crumbs that weâve given - trust me iâve read each and every single piece of lore there is about him - so it might not be what youâre looking for.
scaramouche, acnh millionaire, would give it all up for you - scaramouche would never share his turnip commission fees with anybody, let alone let anybody touch his island but for you he would make an exception. hell, if youâd only asked, he would give you the world and all the stars because he loved you so.
scaramouche was an asshole but he was your asshole - a spilled box full of polaroids, ticket snippets and notes made you reminisce about your relationship with scaramouche and how much you loved him - he was your asshole and it would always stay that way.
handsome but brash tutor boyfriend manages to stun you with a thoughtful gesture - initially, you were merely planning to tease scaramouche, loving how he looked when wearing glasses. and yet, in the end, he was the one that managed to render you speechless.
one day, scaramouche just decided that he was your boyfriend from that point on - an innocent inquiry into how scaramouche and you got together had you reminiscing over what exactly led to that point - it seemed unlikely at first but as time passed, you grew to realize that scaramouche cared for you in his own way.