Jennaaayyyyy - A Piece Of My Mind, For You To Read. (:

jacksontran:

I can’t picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep, or telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I said hi to them, or even just smiled at them. I can’t picture someone smiling at the computer screen or their cell phones when we’re talking.

I mean like…Why would they even do that? I’m just me. Nothing extraordinary, or special. 

Yet ironically, it’s the same thing that causes it.

I really can't picture anyone having a crush on me.

Secrets untold

Now spread wide, with a little hold.

In those eyes I see the fear of others,

Trying to smile with a cover.

Worrying, not knowing what to do

Let me handle this, or I’ll tell you.

Words that no one has ever heard

by all the tears draining out my heart,

this may tear you apart.

Try to be strong as what I’m doing,

because maybe soon I’ll be losing.

Losing this fight,

and maybe you’ll be the one I hold on tight.

<3

Call me a nerd but,

I freak the hell out when I see my grades dropping in any of my classes. Like ugh!! It makes me feel so disappointed in myself. Like I would go back and fix the work that I need to fix and hoping I would’ve spent more time studying my material. I hate when my grades drop from an A to a B, even if it’s a B+. I freaking hate seeing B’s. Stupid piece of shizz. I needa start paying attention more in my classes and get it together til this semester ends. I’m so jealous of those people who don’t even need to study and they ace like almost every test! WTH?! Why can't i be like that?!