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I may be just a little too obsessed with this moron….

I stare at my one note page for my mha fic longingly, I turn to the gods of hyperfixation and plead and pray for aid in finishing this one chapter. It has been sitting in this page, 80% finished, only the ending to go for over a year now. It has been edited and rewritten to perfection, but the ending fizzles out and dies before I can write it.

“Just do it,” I tell myself, “just sit yourself down and write something, anything, it can’t hurt.”

So I do, for several days, often for hours at a time, skipping meals and procrastinating going to the bathroom until my bowels are fit to burst, getting lost in my fixation to write and finish what I started. There are people who have been waiting patiently, people an update might mean the world to who are counting on me.

After a few months of this, scattered across what few days I could spare I sit back and take in what I’ve done.

“You did it,” my beta reader says, joy picking up an edge in their voice, “you finally did it,”

“Yes,” I say, “I have planned out 3 seperate au’s for 2 different horror podcasts I listen to, made a playlist for one of them, and written 1,000 words each on two seperate voltron whump fics!”

There’s a moment I take in what I say…

Then my forehead meets the table Infront of my laptop, and I curse out the gods that be.

I hope none of you disappear in the coming days. Seriously don't do anything that can't be undone.

So this is going to sound Crazy, but part of why i've been so inactive lately has been because I was lucky enough to have been selected alongside 6 of my friends in Animation to get shipped out to Winton, Australia to spend a 2 weeks making an animated short for their Vision Splendid film festival.

Together, we got to work with locals, film students, Student composers, festival hosts and first nations elders to create a collection of Animated Haikus celebrating this wonderful town, but get to know ourselves and this country in a way we never even would have considered before.

And as if that wasn't enough to make us jump up and down, flapping out hands in joy... guys... We won the Kolperi Award! A first for animation in the entire 11 year history of the festival!

So thank you thank you thank you for everyone who made it possible for me and my friends to experience Winton. It's something i'll be treasuring for the rest of my days.

Voiced by my friend Kiwi and Music by my friends in the Conservatorium (Love, Lisa and Georgia)

Will you continue the Blood Born fic? (Sorry to write this here, but I don't know if you read the comment on AO3)

No no! I don’t mind! Probably good to give an update anyway

Blood Born is in this really annoying place for me at the moment where I’m way too excited about writing it, but keep running into the same wall. That plus the joys of entering adulthood and starting uni have made it difficult to find the time to sit down and adequately write for a few years now, but god I haven’t stopped trying to write it. It’s one of those ideas I’m still really excited about, especially since I put so much work into planning it, so to answer your question I 100% plan to continue the story… it just might be a bit before I finally manage to slay the monster that is writing block.

For now I’ve been oscillating between trying to make this next chapter work (Dw it’s a long one) and trying to beat this thing by confronting some of the stuff I find harder to write or feel like I could have done better in Blood Born through one shots and my personal whump challenge, because sometimes the only thing that helps is to try something different until you feel better about stepping back in to the fray. It’s getting there, slower than I’d like, but progress is progress no matter how small.

But for the time being please just know I am sorry you’ve all had to wait this long already, thank you so much for your patience <3

This is a happy birthday present for my friend, as sort of a thank you for getting me and our other friends into D&D. We've all been wanting to play for way too long, but it's thanks to them that we were finally able to play together and just have fun experiencing it for ourselves.

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Felt sad so I decided to cheer myself up by redrawing some post it note fanart for Isonian’s fic ‘Keiko’ on ao3

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Hi yeah sorry professor but for the foreseeable future I will be fucked up and will not be able to hand in the next few assignments. Uh huh. Uh huh. Yes because of a children’s show. Yeah. Uh-huh. Ok great thanks for ur understanding byeeeee