Molly Des Jardin

the calendar was not kidding when it said september

behind the scenes of hirokazu kore-eda's monster (2023)

"It was a long time ago. It doesn't matter anymore, And yet I cannot let it go. I cannot let it ago."

— Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Ruth Tiffanny

under pressure

AFTERSUN 2022 dir. Charlotte Wells

if i wake up one day and i wasn't sick anymore i wouldn't know who i am

lowkey survived and better now

my girl ghosted me. hope i die

forget about touching grass, i need to touch THE SEA I NEED TO GO INTO THE WATER I NEED TO DIVE INTO THE SEA!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just want my mind to be quiet and my eyes to rest I feel like a foreign parasite in my own body and my stomach is suffocating from being smothered by guilt. i wish i could be normal, was i ever going to be normal? if everything was okay, if it didn't happen, could i have been someone who could feel normally, could love normally, and could leave normally? instead, i'm a small version of a human being that has worry etched onto her heart and tormented by endless stomachaches. i want to go home and be 14 again. i want to be with my entire family and feel like nothing will change and everything is insignificant. i want to go back to even if nothing was different because at least i didn't have to look back on years of abandoned self growth