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yesterday was the first moment i realized how fire i actually am niggas don’t deserve my excellence 🙅🏾‍♀️ 🧢 my beats are like superstar beats. playing my shit back on them speakers at the studio is a different feeling 🤞🏾

10.28.18

Last week of school. Im embarrassed of my own mistakes. i never want to hurt you or anyone ever. yet im still not perfect. a lot of ego been coming into play and i realize its one thing that separates me from all these other guys. i also peeped im just getting older. these niggas gotta grow up and get they shit together. but so do i. everyone just so selfish i know im not the problem anymore. but god puts us insinuations for a reason maybe we are all just lessons for each other.pieces of a man just came out shit straight fire. tired of people putting me in a box musically. i gotta try harder. im walking away from hip hop for a while one day. im tired of my music having one label on it. if i go somewhere else wit it then maybe ill get my respect. i cant wait to leave AZ. ive been craving an areo blizzard from DQ, i hope Alexus takes us soon. i love you Melissa. Why is bianca back? its weird how i always get what i pray for, never within my timing tho. God moves funny. But i love him he’s my life. All he’s been showing me is how much ive grown and i cant stop thinking about how intone i am with him. he shows me so much, im so grateful. i want my hair to grow. i hope i dont have cancer. i hope this last week of school is nice and pleasant. idk why people assume everything. its so tiring. im on twitter too much, i hate reading peoples opinions so often. but i feel like i need to be in tune with the world. today X motivated me again to make music outside of my “genre” that arms around you is crazy, he’s so diverse. his goal is slowly becoming the same as mine. its like he knew what i was after this whole time. spoke to my mom today and she’s content with not knowing her children she feels God will solve it all and she claims she doesn’t know if it’ll be in her lifetime that shit gets to know her children, why is she so ass backwards? its never to late. She’s just a quitter like everyone else. i cant teach them. they dont listen i just live and hope i can be a walking example one day. if only people could see whats inside my heart. still learning to work in environments that aren't fit for working in. I gave so much of myself this year.

1.2.19

It is a new year, im not really sure how im feeling cause im kind of drunk right now, but im just chilling, waiting, i feel this year is going tp be very special, this year isn’t even about me ive come to realize and accept that i have to do everything in my power to make sure that my guys make it. they are my mission i dont care exactly what happens to me but i just want my team, my guys to do everything they want, everything they dreamed of. i feel like ive been trusted and they put their future in my hands and ill do everything in my power to make sure they can do what they want, they are too talented too good, they honestly  are too good to have to settle for any of this shit, id hate myself if they didn’t achieve everything they dreamed of. i love them with all of my friends, they parents even trust and love me, at least to an extent so i have to make sure they win, i have too. thats my goal this year to make sure my team is winning and is content with their lives and what they want. i really loe them got damn theses niggas are talented like honestly. they gotta make it, even if its before i do. ill do whatever i can for these guys i just hope they trust me but ill prove myself i hope they see it. but anyways as for mw. this is the year i know it, i feel it, ive been waiting for this, nothing will come in between us or my mindset for this year, FGod has built me up and made me so strong, even mentally. i love these guys honestly. damn i cant stop thinking about them. i care for these dudes too much Jaylen you got this i believe in you the most out of everyone you know? you are the key to greatness. you will play a huge impact in all of our lives. remember when we were at theBig E and this random girl asked who you were? and she swore on everything you were famous? ill never forget that day bro, thats how i knew you were everything. you are me bro, just a mini version and i love you bro please never stop. we can do this together, separate, it doesn’t matter YOU can do it. YOU can really do it, youre mindset is beautiful you will be the greatest to ever do this shit no joke. Dayvi, i love you bro. you are the chosen one, Hod chose you bro, why you playing with your gifts? if i could just get you to take me serious bro, younger special why are you playing around with this music shit. i know you know how good you are soooo please bro just let me help you its all i care about. i want to protect you from all these distractions and fuck shit you got going on, but i cant. i know that. but im here for you through all this shit bro. just trust me please we can really do this shit, we just have to do it together. i need you on board you play such a huge part come on bro, help me out here. i love you tho. CURRENCY WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU BRO, WE NEED YOU TO BE GREAT THIS SHIT ISNT GOING TO HAPPEN WITHOUT YOU WE NEED YOUR IDEAS YOUR MIND YOUR GENIUS, COME BACK PLEASE. this is the year we follow God i need all of us to be on the same page. i want this year to be about us, we got this y’all just trust me. please. i cant beg enough. X i love you, youre on my mind everyday. i never met you, never knew you but its crazy how connected ive felt to you since you left us but i know you gave me your energy. i love you born love you, idk what you did to me or put in my spirit but i will carry on and live out your legacy. this year is our year i promise i know it. theres so much to reflect on and consider and think about. failure is not an option. what am i going to do if i cant everyone on the same page? this is our future, i see why God put me ahead shit is wild. but i accept this responsibility im not tripping about it anymore. i know a lot of lives are put into my hands but it depends on how i am personally. and im okay i swear i just need people to help keep me on track. where are my core supporters the people that actually love me and want to see me succeed. My success is your success. so please people help me. whoever is down for me? anybody? Brb.

Sober (Flip), by The 199x.

track by The 199x.

MY SONG WILL BE AVAILABLE ON ALL STREAMING PLATFORMS FEBRUARY 4TH, 2020

so you telling me they got into the Chamber of Documents and didn’t steal any information? Like nothing to put us on? 🙄 Convince me this is real

FINALLYYYYYYYYY I CAN LIVE A NORMAL AGAIN. CANT WAIT TO LAY DOWN AND FEEL NO PRESSURE IN MY FACE ANYMORE 😭 I COULDNT EAT,SLEEP, LAY ANYWAY I WANT, WEAR GLASSES, EVEN SITTING AN ANGLE WAS KILLING ME THERE EAS SO MUCH PRESSURE ON MY FACE AND JAW GAH DAMNNN. 2021 BOUT TO BE THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE NO CAP.

THE SADDEST DAY IN AUGUST

Horoscope this month 😎