I’m Getting Tired Of This Life

🍄My sweet mushrooms boy🍄

You giggle watching him sit down, his fingers twirl lightly as little red mushrooms grow up and twirl with his powers, you reach out and once you touch one it shrinks right back down into a little mushroom which makes you laugh more, he closes his hand as all the mushrooms go back to normal, he smiles standing up “ come on darling” you take his hand and he leads you to a large part of the woods with taller trees the sun peeks through the leafs like it’s interested in what he plans to do next, I smile looking at him seeing his glasses rest on top of his head his baby blue sweater has stains on the sleeves and elbows from dirt, his jeans ripped and dirty shoes but even then he was the cutest thing you ever seen, birds flew over head along with squirrels spazzing out when we walk to close we laugh at them. We reach the edge of the woods pass the trees is a field full of flowers with a pond towards the other side, there were so many colors and you look to George “ beloved it’s beautiful” he smiles “ watch this” he bends down and you sit by him, he moves his hands you can see the green magic move out of his hands as he picks a couple flowers and twirls them together, even tho he’s done many things with his powers it always surprised you ever time. He rest it in his hands and there say a flower crown with blue flowers, he rests it on your head kissing your cheek and laughs “ you like it “ you giggle jumping at him kissing him deeply and cup his cheeks, he smiles softly and pulls you toward the field, you guys lay in the middle, he reaches his hand up bc you do too you feel the wind rush through your fingers then you look over finding his nose slightly pink with a blush as the wind nips his pale cheeks, he light brown eyes hold more colors then the rainbow itself, he was beautiful true art. He was nature. You smile rolling over kissing his nose and lips softly as he wraps his arms around you, you cup his cheeks then look to the pond, you giggle getting up. George looks confused as you pull your dress off and panties, his jaw drops as you go running into the pond splashing, you laugh loudly as he gets up doing the same jumping in with you. You both emerge from the water laughing and splashing, you laugh moving closer wrapping your arms around his neck, his arm rest around your waist then a hand on your butt. You both kiss slowly moving your fingers through his hair and hum lightly in the kiss. It was chilly but you both remained in the water completely as the sun beat down on you both, you both got out and laid in the sun, you close your eyes feeling the heat move over your body and then feel a hand opening a eye, George smiles placing soft kisses down your neck and collar bone, his kisses weren’t lustful or desperate but loving you could feel his soft pink lips gently kiss between your breast and move above your bellybutton, you put your arm over you head turning your head to the side feeling relaxed under his touch, he moves placing a kiss on your hips then thighs moving to kiss your knees along with ankles, he kisses the top of your foot moving back up to your belly and smiles resting his chin on your stomach looking up at you “ we should lay like this more often darling” you feel yourself blush and giggle “ should we love “ he only nods as he moves up kissing you more, then rests on your forearm gently kissing the side of your breast and smile as the sky goes from orange to pink then dark blue the star’s twinkle and shine as you both lay in peace, you see something flickering in the corner of your eye, you smile “ George “ he looks up seeing you point to the woods “fireflies beloved “ you smile big as George rest his hand on your hip moving his thumb lightly over your skin and hums, closing his eyes and kisses your breast again “ I’m tired beloved” you smile moving so his face rests between your breast “ get some rest beloved” he smiles moving his fingers as the flowers cover us like a blanket, he brings his hands to rest in your back and gently rests his cheek on your breast moving to kiss above you breast “ goodnight”.

(Artist: wiasdes @wiasdes)

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Sapnap x reader

“I’ve always done stuff for you, I’ve cleaned and taken care of you. Your so u grateful”

I sit their feel my chest warm and try to hold back tears keep a straight face while my own mom yells at me, I look around the room seeing my dad just ignoring what is happening, he’s never stood up for me or help me once, he’s not my protector. She finally stops and I leave the room. I close my door locking it, I let tears fall and I open my mouth for nothing to come out. I cry silently and fall to my knees. I want to cry loudly and scream so bad. I move to my bed and let tears freely drop as It becomes hard to breath. My mind faces as I cry, ever thing they have said or done to me floods my mind causing me to city harder. I feel a gentle hand move across my back, I meet my lovers face. He’s face shows sadness, I look away feel ashamed of my face. My parents have always made me feel bad for having emotions so to cry in front of him makes me feel useless and worthless. He wraps his large arms around my chest and under my legs. He lifts me moving more onto the bed, he kisses my forehead and wipes my tears as they fall, my body just relaxes in his arm, he puts my hair behind my ear whispering soft words, his hit breath makes me shiver even when I’m in pain he makes me feel so loved. He’s hands gently touch my body as he kisses my cheeks and neck gently as I cry. Even tho I can’t explain my words. He finds ways to make me feel good. I turn holding his hand “ please take me out of here” he smiles warmly keeping me in his arms, we move to the window, he holds me tightly “ close your eyes” I do as he says feeling him jump, I peek my eye open feel a smile creep onto my face seeing how free he looks. I close my eyes until I feel his grip loosen. He lays me in his room, I look over seeing him take his shoes off. I lay on my back on his beautiful bed, I hum then feel his hands move up my sides as he sits between my legs. I look up as he lends over.him being taller makes me look extremely small. He smiles warmly cupping my cheeks. “I’ve always protected you y/n” I look up smiling letting tears run down not out of sadness but of happiness.I owed him the world. Many times I wanted to take my own life. And die slowly or painful or just anyway, he always showed up when my thoughts became dark, he pulled me out so quickly, he always looked panicked as if my thought were sitting next to me with a knife or chains or rope encouraging me to end it. I get pulled from my thoughts when I feel his warm hands hold my eyes and he places small kisses around my tummy, his hair rests over his brows making his beautiful eyes disappear. I close my eyes and relax under his touch. He looks up moving his arms under me, he gets closer to my face places small kisses on my lips holding the back of my neck, the kisses became deeper and more desperate. He moves to my neck and hums “ you know I love you right” I look at him nodding, he looks me in the eyes “ please don’t leave me “ I look at him confused “ I wouldn’t leave you “ he looks almost sad “ I know you don’t want to live but please don’t go please “ his voice cracked and he looks away, my heart breaks. I wrap myself around him and kiss him deeply “ I love you” he kisses me back and rubs his fingers through my hair “promise me please y/n promise “ I look at him “ I promise “ he kisses me more as the night goes on, I feel peace again I feel like the evil that ran through my mind has gone away, I love him with all my heart if only he was real.

Baby techno

(Warning: pregnancy, mention of child birth)

To say the pregnancy was planned would be a flat out lie to anybody who asked. You and techno happily married for three years and everyone knew you guys were on constant adventures and so happy together not very many asked about kids but here you are nine months along and techno piglet instincts are on lvl one-thousand. He has become extremely protective since the news and refuses to let anybody or anything near me the only person that can freely come in is Philz bc he genuinely is excited about his grandson and was planning to help with the labor and everything was planned out perfectly, the house was set up and you didn’t go very far from the house but one thing you didn’t prepare for is out of all the days techno finally lets you stay home alone bc Philz has to go deal with whatever he needs. You water breaks one hour after everyone is gone. You gasp gripping the counter and a slight panic fills you, you go to the door and scream as loud as you can “TECHNO HELP” you knew his hearing was unbeaten. That was all you could at before closing the door, a contraction goes through your body causing you to pause and lean down breathing lightly “ stay calm y/n, stay calm. He’s coming it’s okay” you finally make it up stairs after a few contractions stop you. You get to the bathroom knowing how everything going to go, you fill the tub and lean on the side of the tub breathing deeply “ come on techno come on”. In the distance Techno ears rise up as He hear a faint scream, his heart stops as He turn around heading back to the cabin. You slowly take ur pants and cry lightly as the pressure in your pelvis gets worse. You hear the door open and smile lightly hearing your name, techno comes in “ Y/N”. He rushes over and you lift your head up “ I guess they wanted to scare us a little “ he chuckles lightly lift you up into the tub gently, the warm water soothes your muscles but the contractions rip through you. He goes putting his stuff away and returns with everything. He hold your hand and gently rubs your lower back and stomach gently “ your doing so good my love” you groan lightly moving onto your knees, he checks every once and awhile “ am I there yet “ he rubs my back checking “ couple more cm darling” Philz shows up later and is extremely excited but extremely helpful. Techno takes you out the tub when time gets closer you rest your back on his chest and he holds your legs gently lifting you up more, they cover your waist down with a towel. Six hours pass and unknowingly to you techno brothers were waiting in the living room. You scream out when you feel the baby move “ their coming techno, their coming “ Philz moves as you grip technos arm as he kisses you head and rubs your thighs “ then push! love push! “ you lean your head back screaming out as a contractions follows and you push sucking in air and close your eyes tightly. Techno kisses ur neck and hums lightly “ there you go darling, your doing so good” you breath heavy leaning ur head back more screams at philza “ GET IT OUT”. You push and push and finally a loud cry is heard. Techno looks down and kisses my head softly “ you did omg you did it” tears run down his face and Philz wraps the little pink piglet in a white sheet moving them to rest on your chest, you cry light. Philz smile “ a boy” you smile up at techno and kiss the top of your sons head gently seeing his light pink hair and giggle lightly “ look at him techno” techno was just in awe of his son, he lay you back on the bed and lean down gently moving his fingers over his sons cheek, his son whimpers lightly and moves causing techno to pull his hand away. “ he’s okay beloved “ you let techno hold him and do to the fact he was half human your son was in the 6,7 piglets palm on his back he whimpered lightly and made a little piglet noises, techno looked up at you kissing you lightly “ thank you, thank you” you kiss him back weakly and lay ur head back smiling. Techno gets closer smelling his sons scent and smile looking at his feature, light pink skin and pink hair how he loved his son. His son moves his arms

yawning and rests his head more on technos thumb. You look over just seeing the most genuine smile on techno face the last time you saw this smile was on your wedding day or during special “stuff”(😉) but he was just so in love with his first son. “We need a name honey” techno looks up “Eric which means ruler, he going to be strong” your heart warmed hearing ur husband words. That night you feel asleep with Eric on your chest and your husband right next to you.

Billy Hargrove x reader toxic relationship!

To say the relationship was good would be a lie both of you on your own paths even when ur paths crossed it was a inconvenient but it kept happening. He asked ya out. Ya said yes and the rest was history only took a week for both of you to be at each other’s throats. You were possessive and a over thinker, a control freak. He was loud rude, possessive, easily provoked. So the night he said he call, he didn’t which left you to overthink. You got mad and he got frustrated with ur silence and ignoring him. He slammed your locker and the look in your eyes made him feel like his fight or flight kicked in, he returned the glare never to be overpowered or undermined. Through closed teeth you told him to meet you. When you both meet, it was good nobody was around and no real objects were around. You both went at it, you accused him of wanting another girl and he blew up because he hated explaining himself or being questioned. The night ended heated but with one gesture and one glance you both held a bond so tight. It all felt so right but it was so wrong. Both ppl with a mindset of being in control constantly brought things down in fire, you held him when he’s dad went on his rampages and beat billy or took his sons pride and stomped it, you held a part of his heart with that. He held yours by giving you the attention your dad never did, you gave him a stool, a platform, a stage to be viewed as a higher power. You wanted any male affection so the fact the most loved and wanted boy in the school wanted you gave you a sense of power. With that when you both would “break up” you both felt that void, that cold aching void. It would eat billy up when he lay in his bed with your perfume mocking him and your shoes or jacket laid in a part of his room. It all mocked him and showed him how much he missed you. For you it was the habit of looking towards the window or his leather jack draped over the chair in front of your vanity or a lighter on your side table. The make up was always like you both first meet full of genuine love and gently words. Wasn’t like you both didn’t love each other or plan a future together but you both were damaged but your traumas made you both fight. The night after the fight, he called and you went out with him, you leaned on your arm as it hung out the open window, you heard the infamous click and puff. He’s window down too. You both sat in silence, you turn ur head looking at him and he looked at you, he moved his hand around your throat placing butterfly kissed your lip, not long kisses but some that lingered on your lips made ya forget. The taste of the cigarette was on his lips but ya didn’t care. His thumb moved over your lips after the kisses, he hums “why do we do this” you felt how your heart ached, you knew what he meant. Why do we fight and argue but come back to this. “ because we know nobody else wants us like we want each other” you said it so coldly, it was as if billy shiver. He moved his hand behind your head, you felt his fingertips on your scalp, closing your eyes sinking into his touch, you turn your head seeing the baby blue eyes that can turn dark in a minute stare back at you. You wanted to kill for him but kill him at the same time. You look over him seeing his red shirt slightly unbuttoned and his gold locket rest over his collar bone, you move your fingers up holding it in your palm on his chest. You both would just touch to touch not a sexual touch but a touch to make ya imprint on it, a touch that made ya rethink it and giggle and stomach flip. He’s hand moved to your cheek as he leaned closer, you moved your hands to his neck as your lips connect, you lived off his kisses. The way they moved and just fit yours so perfect got you every time, how his hand would wrap around ya and rest on your hips as you both kissed deeply, you wrap your arms around his neck. Between kisses he say I love you pulling you closer, you both wised to breath another way hating to pull apart but both always left breathing heavy and flustered. You would kiss his chin and neck,

he would kiss your forehead and nose. A deep passion full of love and want along with desire a unhealthy desire. Only to have it be covered by the arguments or rumors. You wished for theses moments to be forever but you never held you tongue and he never held his which was the cause of petty arguments and unresolved issue. Why did everything have to end with a finger in the face or a door coming off the hinges. The fire you both held was the same that burned you both. But this moment made you believe in hope for you both, a memory to keep the “break ups” a joke, even ppl at school knew that if someone heard of you both breaking up, they would laugh knowing the case and the process. You laugh lightly still up on him, he raises a brow humming. You smile “ we are terrible” he only hums and kisses you again. “ but we are stuck together” and that’s what you wanted to hear till you die.

Midnight tales

It’s the middle of the night and you go to roll over closer to your husband just to find the bed empty and light whimpers coming from the other room, you yawn getting up, you hear your husbands voice is low and gently, you peek into the room seeing him leaned over his son, he kisses his little cheeks and moves his thumb gently over his head as he whispers to him “ when I meet your mother” he told his son about how you both meet and how he fought wars and promised his son protection and love. He gently lifts the his son holding his head and bottom gently as the little piglet moves his arms letting small cries escape his mouth” ooo no no” he rocks his son lightly as you stand in the door way smiling at him, his long pink hair is out over his shoulders as the moon runs through the room over the walls and floor. The snow falls calmly as if it is watching your husband interact with his son. Tech ears perked up having him glare toward the door then he relaxes seeing you, he smiles as you walk closer kissing him softly then rubbing your sons head and giggle “ you heard what the doctor said he’s only a couple months we can’t spoil him by holding him” techno lowly groans and hums “ he won’t always be this little beloved, I understand the task but he was upset tonight” you kiss your sons head lightly “ just admit your wrapped around his little fingers” techno chuckles and looks down “ it is so wrong tho, he is our first born beloved” you laugh leaning your head in his shoulder and hum “ fine just tonight” you kiss him and your son goodnight but can’t help but stay up and listen to techno tell his son of ancient warriors. It’s funny to believe the same man months before cried to me about how he feared the baby would hate him for who he was, he was scared the baby would hate his pink hair and piglet features now techno wiggles his ears at the infant teaching him how to move them and he speaks pigmen to him only to have the piglet respond in his own babbling mess of words. Techno now adored everything about his son. For a man that used to be cold and blunt and ruthless it was odd to see such a small being lay in his once bloodied hands and just sleep their. The next morning you wake up to an empty bed again, groaning you go to get up but stop looking over finding techno in the rocking chair he made in your shared room, his head was leaned back his hair messy along with his son on his bare chest, making little noises fast asleep, you giggle lightly coming closer “ beloved” techno looks over and groans at the pain in his neck, you laugh going to take your son only to have techno pull back “ no no, he’s asleep” you laugh “ would you like to lay in bed while I make breakfast “ he only nods tiredly moving to the bed. You laugh coming back an hour later finding your son wide awake as techno lays on his side, your son rests on his arm and your son looks over giggling lightly and touches technos face, making you question if he senses are at their peek. You set the trey down and smile “ beloved your son is calling” techno groans pulling his son closer kissing his cheek lightly and groans “ I hear him love”, after that their was no hope in getting your son or getting your husband up.

Life runs us all down

He sits by the large window in our main room, he slouches in the expensive red velvet chair, his shirt is a little unbuttoned and he puffs on a cigar and holds a small glass of whiskey in his other hand the smoke flows smoothly out the large window. He insisted having a huge window. He could see all of las Nevada. You smile kicking off your heels and take your jacket off, you move my hand over the leather and rest between his legs. A small smirk comes onto his lips “ there you are my love “ his voice is low and thick, he’s drunk for sure. I look up at him and giggle moving closer cupping his cheek and kiss his scar, he hated his scar but I loved it. He was beautiful in my eyes, every scar, blemish made him perfect. His Scarred knuckles showed his labor for his new nation, it showed his sacrifices for a nation that burned and betrayed him. His chest showed more scars but he hated them so he got tattoos to cover some which I begged him not to. They showed his story, they showed his courage and willingness. One scar I genuinely hated is the one that rest on his neck it’s little and hidden by his mullet but when he was Vice President to jschlatt, jschlatt got drunk and was angry at one of quackity mistakes. He lashed out throwing a bottle that shattered the glass hit his neck. That night I never cried so hard, my husband laid in my lap with a thick bandages on his neck. He gave me his beautiful white smile telling me not to worry. I begged him to leave it all but now I sit before him as his body is covered in passed mistakes but no matter what he was still the same man I married. I smile seeing him looking so relaxed. It’s been weeks since he’s actually relaxed. He looks down and brings his hand up. I feel his rings rub my cheek. I giggle taking the glass out his hand and put the cigar out, he smiled childishly up at me and giggled which warmed my heart he never giggled unless he was drunk, I gently move up unbuttoning the rest of his shirt, I gently pull his red tie over his head gently pull his shirt over his head. He whined slightly slurring his words “ no baby” I smile “ let’s get you cleaned up love “ he stopped whining and just let me undress him, I pull the rings gently off his fingers and smile at him as I put his arm over my shoulder and lead him to the tub as he sits on the side I fill it. Then pull at his beanie and letting his long hair fall onto his shoulders, I cup his cheek kissing him gently. “ your so beautiful my love “ a blush takes over his face as he looks up. I gently lift his leg and set it in the tub as he sighs in the cutest way possible. He sinks into the warm water. I smile and giggle resting by the side of the tub, I go to the shower pulling his products out, I gently pour water over his head. By the tub their is another window is row like a gambling chip and has his signature smile on it pass the smile you could see the sun set. Looking down you see the sun hug the side of his face, his scar looked magic, I could see his gold tooth slightly reflect. I cup my hand pouring the shampoo into my hand and gently message his scalp. He breaths deeply and closes his eyes. I rinse his hair getting the rest of the products out and get a towel. He has sobered up more so he steps out and wraps his waist in the towel and kisses my cheek mumbling a small I love you before disappearing into the closet. I smile changing and go to get him food. Once I return, he’s on the bed laid out in shorts and a tee. His beanie on the dresser and he’s staring at the ceiling. I smile getting closer, I sit on the bed and gently place my hand on his chest. He looks at me and smiles and hums “ thank you” I run my fingers through his damp hair and giggle lightly “ for what my love “ he only mumbles pulling me into bed “ everything my love”

How I wish I was dead

I move my hand over my face closing my eyes as the music moves through my mind. I fall into a Trance as my mind drifts away, tears thickly fall down my face as I lay on my back in the large room. Nothing but three huge glass windows watched me cry my heart out over a song, I feel nothing but deep grief. I’m unaware of my love, he sits off the the side watching me. He hated to see me cry but knew it helped whatever stress was built up or whatever my mind struggled with that day. I move my arms above my head and feel a warm hand with cold rings move into mine, I just look up as see a sad expression written on his face, he moves up running his fingers gently over my arms and kisses me lightly. He turns the music down. He moves over me and looks into my watery red eyes “ you know it was never your fault” I feel a sob bubble in my chest as he speaks “ you were so little, what they said wasn’t your fault, you are loved and cherished my love “ tears run out of his beautiful eyes onto my face “ you weren’t born to suffer my love” he wraps his arms around me hugging me tightly “ they messed you up and damaged you” tears run down his face as the pain in his eyes becomes unbearable, I look away. His words are choppy like speaking them hurt him more “ you are precious y/n, you are loved” he runs his fingers gently through my hair as he rest his forehead on my neck “ I wish I could go back and save you, none of it’s your fault. Being scared is okay, having emotions doesn’t make you weak” he places soft Kisses on my neck as his rubs my back gently “ you are just misunderstood my love, please don’t cry” his words make me heart fill with joy but sadness as well. I’m damaged and he still looked at me as if I was the purest thing to live on this planet. He kisses me deeply and wipes my tears “ I love you” I cry lightly “ I love you more”

(Short but enough to make me feel a little better)

Sapnap x pregnant reader

You and Sapnap were a thing for a little bit nothing official and nothing public. But with things like that is was impossible for one person not to catch feelings and guess who caught feelings you did but you were a little to late to confess it to him and a year later he announced his proposal and soon to be partners to the world, you could even describe how you felt. Sick, sad but couldn’t feel betrayed. You guys were never a thing so you decided since he was completely invested in his partners that you should just leave or your feelings would ruin everything, but months after you completely disappeared your sitting in a doctors room with paper saying your four months pregnant and you knew exactly who the father was, you cried for days not knowing what to do, with your new home you didn’t know a lot of people. Months passes and your walking through the town cupping your swollen belly as you turn to the corner you bump into someone and catch yourself before you fall rubbing ur head “ hey I’m sorry I wasn’t” before you finish your sentence you make eye contact with the very man you were trying to avoid all together, he looks at you then you belly. Out of panic you turn away then hear foot steps as you get down the trail. “ Y/N “ you hear ur name and try ur hardest to just ignore him, you cup ur swollen belly and feel ur feet starting to swell, he runs In front of you making you stop dropping ur head “ Sapnap please just go please “ you try and walk around him but he blocked you, you step back stepping on ur dress and start to loose ur balance, he moves forward catch you picking you up “ y/n please “ you sigh starting to feel overwhelmed “ fine,fine “ you lead him to ur house, he walks in sitting you down and rests on his knees looking at your stomach “ is it mine “ you bite ur lip nodding and don’t look at him, he gently moves his hand over ur stomach the baby moves and you suck in air and look at him, he’s smiling big at your swollen stomach. He look up then his smile fades “ why didn’t you tell me y/n “ you felt tears fill ur eyes “ we weren’t a thing and you proposed so I thought it be better to stay quiet and move away, it didn’t feel right to come out of no where claiming to have your baby ” tear run down your face “ I didn’t want to ruin your relationship “ I look away “ where’s your partners “ he looks down “ a war broke out their both out of it. I don’t think they feel the same anymore” he looks up into my eyes “ doesn’t matter what I do, it’s still my baby y/n. You still could of told me” I cry lightly and hum “ it’s not that simple” he tilts his head “ what do you mean y/n “ you wipe your cheek “ I love you, I’ve loved you since the beginning and I wanted to tell you but you went and proposed even tho you still came back to me “ you couldn’t tell if it was from the hormones or from the fact that you are realizing what he did was wrong but you got angry pushing him away from you, he looks up shocked “ did you not feel anything or was I just that to you” he looks up “ I don’t know y/n “ you get up and he grabs your arm “ don’t give me that, the nights we spent together and you felt nothing just leave “ tears run down your face “ please y/n please let me make it all up to you, I’m sorry” you look at him and hum “no,no,NO. I’m pregnant with your baby and all you say is I don’t know seriously, I was a fool once I will” he hugs you and rubs your back “ I know y/n, I know what I did was disgusting and wrong. I’m sorry I put you through all this “ he look into your eyes and cupping your cheeks “ I’ll do anything y/n,you know me better then anybody, please let me make this up to you” you cry and hum “ I dont know” he falls to his knees gently touching your swollen womb “if not just please let me be apart of the babies life please” you sigh sitting down “o…o..only one chance mess it up, I never want to see you again “ he smiles big and hugs you “ thank you thank you”. After that day sapnap wanted to prove he wanted you back and was fully invested, he come early in the morning and do extra stuff to help you, you liked

the fact he didn’t hover over you. He brought you flowers and food and different gifts, he was completely invested and didn’t care what it took. One night you lay in bed but hear a knock getting up waddling to the door “ who is it “ I peek the door seeing sapnap “ can I come in “ I open the door “ you okay “ he nods and looks at you “ I couldn’t sleep, I was worried about you “ I raise an eyebrow smiling “worried?, why” he hums “ I mean who wouldn’t be your pregnant home alone and in the woods if that doesn’t worry anybody then their crazy” he Looks up seeing you cup your belly and sits down “ can I please touch you please “ you hum nodding, he moves forward gently moving his hand over your womb letting a small smile rest on his face and rests his cheek on your knee “ have you thought of names “ you smile shaking your head “ have you” he nods and smiles “ yes but is a girl or boy “ you hum “ I wanted to wait till the birth” he smiles “ then I’ll tell you then”.

Love will find you

The day you found out you were pregnant you panicked, you and techno never planned for a baby or even were together at the time so after a month of being sick and seeing him constantly worried you left that afternoon he went with Philza , techno came home to an empty house he next to rip the whole cabin apart, he panicked he called to Philza to help search for you for months. Techno was broken but you were broke too,you feared him rejecting the baby. You left to a village off the map unless someone made a wrong turn you wouldn’t be found. Which was perfect but here you are seven months pregnant, you had no ideas but techno left the cabin giving it to Philza saying until he finds you, he won’t return. But it didn’t take him long in two months. He was coming down the trail to the village, he walked into the village and saw you in a window to a home far from the main road and was going to go to you but stopped waiting till the night you wake up, screaming seeing a tall black figure, techno gets closer letting the moon shine on him, you gasp covering your mouth “techno”. He pulls the blanket but you grip it pulling it back trying to hide your nine month belly, he finally ripped it away and saw your belly. His heart broke millions of thoughts ran through his head, he gripped your arm “ who is it’s y/n, WHO IS ITS Y/N” you cry and look up “ it’s your techno, it’s yours. I was scared when I found out” you went on and on as he stepped back, his expression surprised but somewhat blank. It broke your heart, you tried to reach for him but he look down at you angry and gets closer “ you’re telling me, I spent months month’s thinking you were dead but no you you run away bc of the baby” he pinches his nose as he breaths heavy “ you dragged our baby MILES INTO THE WOODS” he moves forward and you step back sitting on the bed“ WHAT IF YOU GOT HURT Y/N, WHY DIDN’T YOU JUST TELL ME” you cry lightly and he groans moving forward kissing you deeply, didn’t know why you kissed back but you did. His kiss was full of desperation and fear and love, he pulled away running his hands down your back and side over your belly gently and cries lightly “ please just come home,please forgive me. I don’t understand what I did” you cut him off cupping his cheeks moving his long pink hair back behind is ear“ you did nothing,I..I..I was scared techno we didn’t plan for a baby and were not even together, I just didn’t want to get rid of the baby, I wanted to keep the baby” techno kisses you softly and runs his fingers through your hair and rubs your back gently,pulling out a ring “ I want the baby,the day you left, I was going to ask you to marry me y/n” your eyes widen you hide your face in his neck and sob wrapping your arms around his neck “ please forgive me techno” he kisses your neck and lifts your hand putting the ring on “ it that a yes” you smile lightly wiping the tears “yes..yes” he smiles “ shall we go home my love” you smile wrapping your arms around his neck, he smiles rubbing you belly “ let’s go home little one”.

Gentle

I lay on his chest breathing heavily and cry into his shirt, he rests his arm on my back keeping me close. Gently moving his fingers over my side. His lips gently kiss my shoulder as I sob and shake. He kisses my head rubbing my side and back gently whispering sweet words that made me cry more not out of sadness but out of pity. I don’t deserve this. I never deserved this. He brings me closer and rubs my wet cheeks as he kisses my forehead, he holds me as if I’m young again. My mind drifts to memories I wish I never had. I sit in a corner of a somewhat empty room crying alone as my world falls apart, I was so little and alone. He pulls me from my thoughts holding me tighter, I feel his chest and arms shake. I feel the wet drops on my head,it’s as if he can feel my pain as if he went into my mind too. As if he sat next to me and cried. He chokes out a sob while I continue to cry into his chest. My sob become more pained. I’m hurting him, I’m hurting him. I grip his shirt and mumble his name begging him to not cry, this pain is my own, they hurt me not him. He saved me. The nights I laid in bed wishing hoping for my death, the dark hole that I laid in. He reach in pulling me out, I still hate myself and life but he makes it all bare able. To feel his body shake as if he’s in pain scares me, i look up at him to see his beautiful eyes glossy, his brows rest downwards and his forehead wrinkles slightly as his sobs rack his body, he speaks lowly. Telling me that he wanted to save me and take this pain away, his grip became desperate as if letting me go would end his life or I would fade away, he was scared. I told him I wanted to die, i told him I’m in pain constantly, i told him I feel dead inside, I’m not me. Theses words broke him to his core, he rubs his fingers through my hair pulling me closer begging me to hang on and that he would help. I feel my head start to pound as he keeps me close,he cries more not caring about how he sounds or looks. This beautiful man sits before me letting the pain for his beloved flood out. He wanted to scream. He loved me and only me.He places soft kisses on my head and face, he moves to my lip kissing me in a way that couldn’t be Described as hunger or lust or passion. It was a kiss of promise, he was my angel sent from heaven, he was meant to be in my life, he was willing to die just to make sure i woke up the next morning. just to make sure i didn’t look in the mirror and hate myself. Just to make sure i didn’t think of constant death. He pulls away breathing lightly, his tears hit my cheeks running down them chasing my own, even tho his eyes were slightly red and his cheeks were slight red, he still gave me a smile. The very smile that made me think maybe life wasn’t so pointless, maybe I do deserve love or a friend. He’s soft gentle hands rub my cheekbones taking my tears with them. His eyes look into my soul, no words or writing could explain the look in his eyes. It wasn’t possessive or desire or need. It was a plead or promise. He had this power to speak without even opening his mouth, he was true to his words even if the words weren’t on his tongue or fell from his lips. His actions were so loud like when he bring me a flower or gazes at me. He is selfless and beautiful no other person could describe him in a way I could, no scientific facts or author or song writer. Not even ancient Scholars could predict or summon a man like him. I rest my forehead on his closing my eyes but hold him tight as if he would slip away. He leans back resting me on his chest as he gently rubs my back. He whispers a sweet “I love you” before I’m consumed by sleep.