You Guys Ever Get Like, For Lack Of A Better Term, Imposture Syndrome About Your Own Sexuality And Attraction

vent but aroace but like speakin i really struggle with being ace i dont have any irl people who are so its just me and no one takes me seriously about it cause i fluxuate sometimes i think it's fluxuating? see i dont even know sometimes i don't think about sex at all sometimes im repulsed by it even when I have a partner im attracted to sometimes Im a goddamn deviant and its like that with romance too ive always liked romance as a concept its one of my favorite things to read about but i really struggle to feel it for others one time i started falling for someone really hard really fast and I was like ?????? was I making it up the whole time??? and I fell into that acephobic rhetoric of oh you just didnt find the right person til now then I see people talk just like me and confidently say theyre ace and I cry