No one will see this but I absolutely hate the way I am the way I think the way I let certain people treat me like shit then if I say anything to them I'm the bad person I just want to walk outside and never look back the only reason I want to walk is so they can have my pickup it's the only reason they want me here I'm not stupid they think I am but I'm just holding everything in no sense of me saying anything to them they dont listen to me I'm such a dumbass for coming down here I've been here sense the end of December and they haven't even tried to help their situation I have a job right tell the end of fed and that's it I'm going home and they better not ever ask for my help again ever you cant help people that dont want to help themselves I just dont care anymore if I live or die
Why do i have to be in love with a women that has nothing for me the only reason she keeps me around her is i give her half of my paycheck because I still want to provide for her and hope she will realize how much I love her and willing to do anything for her I told her I'm done helping at the end of this month and she won't even fight to keep me from leaving for a long time i thought she was the fool but I came to realize I'm the fool and a idiot then I found out last night my mom has a lump on her lung she only has one lung lost the other one to cancer if it turns out as cancer this will be the 5th battle she has had with cancer this changes everything. I'm kinda lost now
I wish I had a slutty wife lol
I'll keep posting what I like if you don't like it delete my account screw your censorship
I feel so worthless and ashamed I just want to walk away from everything and disappear completely