Imma Eat The Leaves

everyone should be jealous of me.

i have found starlight and he likes holding me.

mmm a little grey is all

the queen is dead

sometimes you just come across a storyteller who knows how to pull heartstrings like a harpist. I keep those close to my chest.

jesus christ does the autumn wind make me remember every good thing about my childhood.

I have officially been waiting here for 635 days.

200 days ago i told myself i needed to start healing. I even wrote it down.

And then i did.

It was hard.

And it hurt.

In August of 2021 I felt happy for the first time.

It’s now January and guess what? Things aren’t perfect or even that great.

And I. Am. Still. Happy.

Yes there are bad things. [I miss my partner who FOR SOME INEXPLICABLE REASON has chosen to be born british. And i am not. Thankfully. But it does mean he is far away. Not cool. >:\ ]

BUT IN SPITE OF THAT

I am still happy.

i am loved

i am love.

i like this.

And I love this

And i love me.

And I love my people who love me and helped support me while I healed.

And so, I am happy.

i just think about him so much

gonna do a little harmonica crooning like some old timey introspecitve prospector who escaped the confines of their society to run away to a hill covered in flowers and lay underneath a big ol tree. I now long for my lover while basking in the sunshine and my newfound freedom. You know. It’s just your average bittersweet Tuesday.