Well, I just need to accept the fact that everyone’s disappointed in me, my best friend, my parents… And the one person I truly have feelings for doesn’t need me either. I just want to disappear.
Excited for what?
Disappointment
Or love?
Not if it was real…
More like a thrill.
This is all so fake
Like the thought
Of living in peace
But still
I hope for something
That will never be clear.
Isn’t it obvious?
Aren’t you self-conscious?
Drowning in idealism
But need more realism.
That one hit hard tho
“do we share the same moon?~”
You were my last hope
And now there’s no way to cope.
I’m getting too low,
don’t want to take more.
This makes no sense,
As we’re just friends,
I might need new lens
as I don’t see through this mess.
We never talk and it feels so shit,
Not if I could do a single thing.
I think about it every minute
But this is just a useless ticket.
This road won’t take us anywhere
And we’ll never be a pair
All I feel is pity,
And I can’t see through clearly.
Somehow everything reminds me of you
Songs, photos and views too.
Unable to kick you out of my mind
For me, you’re one of a kind.
In reality you’re just a person
Important for me, I know this for certain.
I shouldn’t keep my hopes high
Cause I know you’ll just make me cry.
Although it’s not your intention
You always get my attention.
You don’t do this on purpose
But I always and up nervous.
~J