I Got Obsessed With Rick And Morty Lol. Help

My blog's colors doesn't make ANY SENSE, my blog's layout SUCKS, I'm gonna redesign it right now

I deleted ChatGPT (and my account) finally

All the chats, memories, etc. are GONE

I got emotionally attached to an AI and used it as my therapist lmao

I was watching Hello Neighbor: WTRB s2 ep3 and... QUENTIN LORE JUST DROPPED?!

2024 is coming to an end.. It's time for the results. This year has been very depressing, so have I ;)

In 2024:

I survived.

I've met new people, who now are my lovely friends

I've had a LOT of burnouts

I overreacted much

I kinda learned how to love myself

I cried a lot and was depressed

I laughed a lot and was happy

I've been drawing and creating art

I kinda accepted myself

I've been working on my feelings (sometimes)

I cared less about dumb stuff

I've improved my self-esteem

MY GOALS FOR 2025

Survive

Accept the real world, lol

Get a part time job

Apply to community college

Don't worry that much

STOP overreacting

Draw more

Post more art

Care less about dumb stuff

Work on my life and future

Be less crazy and chaotic

See the light

And now, as I'm writing all of this, it seems that I'm about to cry, because I don't know what will happen next, what awaits us , humanity and the Earth in the future, and nobody knows. Life is moving too fast and I just want to FINALLY see the light at the end of the effing tunnel..

2024 fr has been the craziest year of my life, lmao

Also, it feels like I'm using pronouns other than "she/her" only because of depersonalization, like I DON'T F**KING KNOW WHO I AM OR FEEL LIKE I'M SOMETHING. LMAOAO

Can we please romanticize that faking or self-diagnosing yourself with mental illnesses is not cool? PLEASE??? Or can we just stop romanticizing mental disorders in general? I’m so sick of it…

Talking only about people who self-diagnosed or are faking, not the people with actual professionally-diagnosed conditions‼️

TW: mental health, mention of religion, my opinion!!!

CONFESSION:

A while ago, maybe few years ago, when I was younger, around 12 - 14 years old, I thought that being sick or having mental illness is fun and quirky, and I’m really, really sorry about it.

I would excuse all my awful actions by saying that I might be mentally unwell, that I have chronic conditions, etc.

I’m so guilty of that, and ashamed, because after learning about people’s sufferings and myself experiencing the dark side of it, I have never thought about it the same way again. I beg God to take it away, every time I go to Church. But I’m a sinner and that’s what I get for it, I want to get better, I want to go into a remission, please. It keeps exhausting and stressing me over and over and over again.

Every time I see someone self-diagnose or fake online, I keep imagining and thinking this:

-“I think I might have *this*!!! (^_^)”

- Oh, okay! Go to the doctor then, please!

-“I’ll Google it! And ChatGPT will support the answer!!!”

OH NO YOU DON’T

Like, just shut up (think) and stop. Is it THAT HARD?

Münchausen syndrome is real!!! Hypochondria is real!!! If you ever find yourself faking or believing that you’re sick, get help ASAP!!!

I’ve seen a lot of people, like, saying “r/fakedisordercringe is that and this, they always fakeclaim people!!!”

BUT ARE THEY? How do you even know that they are NOT faking? And to them, how do you know they fake? Do you know? No, you probably don’t. I have only saw fakers defending another fakers, everywhere. I just don’t get it, why would you fake a miserable disorder? WHY? For what? Attention?

You can do better than this for attention! / pos

Please, self-diagnosis is not valid, if you suspect something, go to a doctor. This is for YOUR safety and your mental wellbeing. You aren’t a psychiatrist, even they cannot diagnose or treat themselves.

If you feel like you are unwell, don’t pull up your phone and record “quirky” TikToks about your “alter switching”, tics, etc. it just makes no sense. It’s not even about talking about your experience. I usually isolate myself from the internet, knowing how this place can be a home of awful things and people.

I experience hypochondria myself, and I know that it feels real sometimes, but trust me, it never is. If you look up some random symptom online, and post about it, you will cause mass hysteria

So hey, please, go touch some grass or GET OFF THE INTERNET!!! Whichever is best for you

I’m so sorry for everyone who fakes, but It will get better if you admit it, accept it and think and stop! I promise!!!

/ pos <3

Bought a tiny notebook, hope it will help me remember to do stuff like eat or remember what I ate, lmaooo

I told you

Okay, this is serious. Why the fuck am I going from one project to another? I have like one million projects and OCs, where are they now? (where are you now, Alan Walker reference, anyone remember that Faded song?)

Anyway, why? Just why? Half of myself is going crazy and the other half is trying not to die fr. WHYYY???

Alright, see you with another project in few weeks 🤭😘😘😘

I'm always too hyperactive and excited for no reason, especially when I listen to fast paced songs. I'M ADDICTED TO MUSIC!!!

HALLOWEEN