Me With My Comfort Stuffed Animals Because They Keep Me Safe From The Hallucinations

Just when you think you’ve reached the bottom, the ground splits again

"What's wrong?" Everything. Everything is wrong.

I wish I could make them happy

I wish I could make their pain stop

I wish I could make all their pain go away

Love being so useless on a day to day basis

Not to be incredibly vulgar and nasty or anything, but I’d like to close my eyes and rest my head in somebody’s lap while they run their fingers through my hair

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

Being traumatized from an early age is strange.

I long for a home I never had.

Another vent

Tw sh, sa, child neglect

If any of this triggers you please dont read any further

I have this friend ill call m for this that is really making me want to sh. Basically when I was younger I was sa as a child by my birth mom (who im no longer with or in contact with) and now I'm adopted by my aunt.however my 3 sister all younger than me are living in foster care with my grandpa now m knows all of this and more that I won't get into but she thinks she can tell me about my situation. I try to explain to her that I think of them as my half siblings since we all have different dads but my friend says that's not how it works and I get it might not but that term feels right to me but today she crossed the line.We were In class talking about families and we got to siblings and we had to raise are hands I wasn't going to since she was going to ask questions I knew I couldn't answer them(I saw them for the first time in 7 years a month ago and know their names only)but my friend made me put my hand up and got mad at me when I said I felt like I shouldn't and she kept persisting so I snapped at her and said that it's my life not yours and you don't and I feel like a shit friend for getting mad at her.but it makes me mad at m since she knows I was sa and neglected but she still says stuff like that and makes me feel like shit for even trying to to tell.i feel like a horrible friend and don't know how to fix this

If read all of this thank you for listening

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