Hemmorh. Oils, 2020

i was never supposed to make it this far what do you mean my future depends on me i cant even get my ass out of bed to make myself a sandwich

i wasnt talking back, i was trying to tell you how i feel.

sorry i forgot that if my emotions and opinions dont align with yours its considered defiance.

and then you tell me i can "talk to you about anything"? fuck off.

i feel so suicidal tonight, theres no escape

me: im gonna go deep tonight

me: im gonna hit beans

me: im gonna multiswipe

me: i will go deeper than ever before

me: i will need stitches

me: i will rip my flesh from my bones

me: i will get so bad that people will stare

me: i will be valid

me: i will bleed out and die

me: i will stain this ground forever with my blood

me that night: does 2 cat scratches 🤡

I just want somebody to show me that they care. I want a best friend, hell, I want any friend, and I want a lover.