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Illustratum Paradoxon

Don’t 👏 call 👏 people 👏 with 👏 mental 👏 illness 👏 crazy 👏

Amen!

Lawless abound Soon the beast will wage war against the saints

Then said he unto them, Nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: -Luke 21:10 ( Riots and BLM )

And great earthquakes shall be in divers places, and famines, and pestilences; and fearful sights and great signs shall there be from heaven. -Luke 21:11

But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name's sake. -Luke 21:12 ( right on God timing )

And it shall turn to you for a testimony. -Luke 21:13

Settle it therefore in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer: -Luke 21:14 ( be a stead fast resolved determined to finish your race strong not be shaken by what you see , hear or experience )

For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist. -Luke 21:15 ( God will empower you through this do not be afraid )

And ye shall be betrayed both by parents, and brethren, and kinsfolks, and friends; and some of you shall they cause to be put to death. -Luke 21:16 ( again this will happen so learn to be wise but still preach the Gospel listen to the Holy Spirit instructions when to move when to speak )

And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake. -Luke 21:17 ( we see this now )

But there shall not an hair of your head perish. -Luke 21:18

In your patience possess ye your souls. -Luke 21:19 Amen

LMFAOOO why am I like this? 

Meirl

1. I hate inauthenticity

2. Jesus

3. Malls maybe. Books will never die!

4. Being a kid. Carefree and no worries.

5. Any memory with my Children

6. I felt lonely in the city. I moved to the suburbs. Still feel lonely at times.

7. Society is headed towards new beginnings.

8. How much focus people put on fighting about how DIFFERENT they are instead of embracing that we are all very much the same. We are HUMAN.

9. I think about how gorgeous the clouds are. I think about the people I lost who are up there watching over me. I think about an everlasting after life and what’s beyond what my eyes can see.

10. Sunsets

11. Yes! Creativity/Art can come in all forms. I think if we all just learned a craft or skill we would be productive and happy.

12. The arts can hurt people if there are dark meanings behind the art. Or if the Art is glorifying death, depression etc. then it can hurt you more then it can help you.

13. My mind.

14. I believe in a divine plan God has for each of us. If we follow his will then I guess you can call it fate, but we do have free will and some of us detour Gods plan and get there later then he wanted us to or sometimes never depending on which path we chose.

15. It’s depends on the situation. I panic when I feel out of control of a situation. I like to find solutions and when I can’t I panic.

16. Sometimes lol. Sometimes the best has no chance and it goes first lol.

17. When something is worth it, it not only aligns with your goal, but the morals and values to achieve that goal will also align with you and that’s what makes it worth it and rewarding in the end.

18. My two older brothers that I’ve only seen twice in my life.

19. None. Don’t have any to be close to. One has been incapable since birth and one is unknown.

20. I would change being hyper sexualized at a young age. I thought my initial answer was I wouldn’t change a thing because it made me who I am, but that really bothers me. I knew about sexual stuff way too young.

21. Alone.

22. Of course! And second and thirds. I’m talking about people you love and matter. I’m not talking about abusive boyfriends and toxic frenimies. God forgives us daily and I try to replicate that with the people I love and who mean everything to me.

23. Moving doesn’t effect me anymore. It did but I created my own tribe and now I don’t feel alone. Now when I move, my whole tribe comes with.

24. That’s hard. Both? They go hand in hand kind of.

25. Not many exciting things happening this year....

26. I would change how judge mental everyone is towards each other. Just let people be. Stop spewing hate just because someone is different.

27. My darkest, taboo thoughts? I tend to think about death a lot. Not necessarily wanting to take my own life, but I do wonder how things would change if I wasn’t here. Would people understand me after I’m gone?

28. Home is most definitely a feeling.

29. In my past life I was FEARLESS. In this life I allow fear to stop me at times and I can literally feel that FEARLESS person trying to rip out of me. Hey maybe she’s not so far in the past.

30. I’m gonna answer this with a story: whenever my estranged mother would come to visit me I would cry knowing she was coming. When she finally got there and I got through my “Hello” and was content with her being there, she’d say it was time for her to go. The crying would begin yet again. Sigh. So I don’t know honestly. Hellos are better then goodbyes but I find relief saying goodbye at times. Pure Relief.

31. I would rather love. I love deeply. I love intensely. I love playfully. I love sensually. I love GODLY. Sometimes I expect THAT kind of fiery love in return and it’s not the case. So I’d rather love because I have lots of it to give and I like to show others what it’s like to REALLY love.

32. Beauty is effortless. Honestly it truly is in the eye of the beholder. I can find beauty in almost anything. That’s because that how I view the world around me. It doesn’t have to be sparkly and shiny to be pretty. Beauty is found in the deepest smile creases or it can be found in a monochrome view of a funeral where family members are embracing and the only color that pops are the reds of the roses.

33. Truth and reality is the key to happiness. If you aren’t true to yourself and others then your life isn’t a reality. It’s just a facade. Who could honestly say they would be happy being fake?

34. I think it is very easy to manipulate people and that’s why there are so many blind and asleep people. The question should be are you easily manipulated.

35. Happiness comes from loving yourself for you. Embracing your flaws and quirks. Happiness comes from surrounding yourself with people who value you just for you and not what they want you to be. Happiness comes from having a relationship with my creator.

36. I do. I feel freer today during a pandemic, quarantining and social distancing against my will then I did before I knew Jesus. THATS how free I feel.

37. Depends on my mood. I love both. 🌊 🌲

38. Nope.

39. Life or death situation.

40. I STRONGLY believe this is true. I was extremely particular about what I named my children and the meanings behind each. I really do believe names have a huge role in who we are.

41. Language allows our thinking to expand.

42. No. I respect all things SACRED.

43. When I want to explain myself to the point of understanding and when understanding isn’t attained I get so frustrated feeling misunderstood.

44. I think we are constantly in a battle. A spiritual battle. It’s like having a little angel and a tiny devil on your shoulders. Those thoughts of romanticizing pain isn’t from God. I can’t fathom any other reason why we sit in pain at times. Are we that decensitized?

45. Both. I give eye contact when I speak to others, but I’m also a physical touch person. Also the eye contact must come first. Don’t touch me without the contact. Because then I feel like you’re using my love language to your advantage and I need that confirmation of the eye contact.

46. If you and that person are meant to be, then yes distance can make the heart grow fonder. BUT if that person isn’t meant for you the distance may actually help you realize that they aren’t for you.

47. There is a whole year of my life that I can not remember for the life of me and it drives me insane. I can remember a huge event right before and I remember everything after that year, but not that particular year following said big event. Sigh.

48. Not really. Every friendship I had ended very sour, but it’s ok because I have an amazing friend now and it makes complete sense why those other “friendships” didn’t work out.

49. Always and forever! Free indeed!

-Illustratum Paradoxon

Questions I wished I asked you

1. What do you hate about people 2. Who are you waiting for 3. Are libraries, malls, bookstores dying 4. What is your favourite memory 5. What memory are you afraid to lose 6. Do you feel lonely in the city 7. Where is society going 8. What disappoints you most about the world 9. What do you think about when you look at the sky 10. Sunsets or sunrises 11. Do you think the arts can save people 12. How does the arts hurt people 13. What do you fear losing 14. Do you believe in fate, or is everything just a coincidence 15. Do you panic easily 16. Do you save the best for last 17. What does it mean for something to be worth it 18. Who from your past would you want to meet again 19. Which parent are you closer to 20. If you could change anything about how you were raised what would it be 21. If you’re in a bad mood do you prefer to be alone or with someone 22. Do you believe in second chances 23. How does moving affect you 24. Language or music 25. Most exciting thing that happened to you this year 26. If you could change one thing about the world what would it be 27. Describe one of your darkest, taboo thoughts 28. Is home a place or a feeling 29. Have you ever had dreams about a past life, what would your past life be like 30. Hello or goodbye 31. Would you rather love or be loved 32. How do you define beauty 33. Compared to happiness, how important is truth and reality 34. Do you find it easy to manipulate people 35. Where does happiness come from 36. Do you believe yourself to be truly free 37. Sea or land 38. Are you easily persuaded 39. When is lying important 40. Does a person’s name influence who they become 41. How much does language affect our thinking 42. Are you sacrilegious  43. Do you find it hard to let go 44. Why do we romanticize pain 45. Are you more responsive to eye contact or touch 46. Does distance make the heart grow fonder 47. Do you ever think about the memories you can’t remember 48. What was a friendship you wish you could’ve still kept 49. Does the truth set you free

Written: 1•30•19

Soul Connected

I was looking for me But I found you While soul searching I found truth That everything was in my head I was so used to past abuse Little did I know How my soul searching Would bring me to you I searched for my soul But my soul searched for yours Soul searching opened so many doors It’s like we vibe better We know we can weather any storm Sex was always amazing But now it’s more than our flesh Our souls make love Why should they get second best So many walls broken through I’m so glad my soul found you In the process of it all We learned the true meaning of This union Has nothing to do with rings, Vows, papers, or the fate of Divorce loomin’

-Illustratum Paradoxon

Self reminder: Stop wasting your time for someone else to actually care. Stop wasting your time for someone to empathize the same way that you do. Stop wasting your time thinking that someone is willing to sit in your pain with you. They won’t ever. You just have to accept that no one loves like you. No one feels like you. No one will ever understand you like you do. So next time they ask if you’re ok, just stick with “fine” and don’t waste your time.

- Illustratum Paradoxon