4.21.25

i don't "date" and i don't "chill" and i don't "hang out." i make pacts. i swear oaths. i forge unbreakable bonds. this makes me a cool breezy person to take on road trips et cetera

| 12 may 2025 |

I've taken a little break after finals to chill. I'm going to my aunt's later this week, she lives near the beach!!

also I'm moving apartments at the end of this month which is exciting but also stressful since I can no longer nag my brothers to help me move (they have full time jobs in different states now 😔💔). I don't have classes this summer, just research but I may try to prepare myself for quantum II and numerical analysis,,, also yes this is in fact another picture from my trip to the chicago botanical garden 😃 (I have too many haha)

05-24-2025 // 2:30pm

Woke up at 7am as usual and went to the library at around 9am, stayed until 1:30 pm and then came back home to have lunch. I actually did some good progress on the coding assignment so I’m very happy but I’m still at 1/3 of the total so i gotta keep grinding! Going bouldering this afternoon so I hope it’s gonna be fun.

mid sem week wasnt so fun 🚬📚🎧🕯️

I set up my grad school accounts today!! I also compiled a reading list that I organized on Zotero; the goal is to read, annotate, and start drafting a literature review for my first set of grant proposals due in early September.

I'm thrilled to be starting my PhD, and to work with the people who have inspired me. I've also missed being a student

research resources

The Eye - An internet library of all sorts of things, not just occult books, but its got a good assortment of those.

PDF drive - it has like, over a million free pdfs. no signup or anything. they got some good occult books there

Academia.edu - I found a link to Azoetia there, and there are likely more occult books available, but unfortunately you have to sign up. LOTS of free books tho

Grimoire Encyclopedia - the shriveled monkey's paw that is grimoire magic. contains spells and spirits from the actual grimoires themselves, and sorts them all very nicely.

Esoterica Archives - it's got that old-internet type vibe, and i quite like it. crazy amount of occult books here, a lot of the grimoires from Grimoire Encyclopedia can be read online here.

Holybooks - its like Esoterica Archives, but with an updated forum feel. People add in the pdfs themselves, like PDF Drive. it's got a wide array of different religious texts

l-o-r-e - a sadly abandoned website now, all about the folklore of food. contains quite a few good recipes, if you want em. this website makes me hungry

pantheon - contains numerous articles on folklore all around the world

theoi - everyone knows about this, right? greek mythology, absolutely excellent.

here's an edible flower chart, yknow, just incase

pinecone.pub - don't hear much about this one anymore, but i quite like it still. good.. inspiration

sigilscribe - it makes sigils for you

scihuß - iirc it moves domains every so often, but its an excellent resource for academic papers.

biblestudytools (psalms) - i find that this format makes it easy to find the specific psalms you want much faster, yknow, for you bastards who don't have a book on hand ;p

planetaryhours.net - calculates the planetary hours for you, for you magicians and witches alike who can't do it by hand

and of course, my favorite, google.com, (or duckduckgo, if you're pirating or just hate google.)

~Update~

Last night, I had another crashout and realized I'm not at all prepared to test for my discrete math course. my foundation in math is not up to college level and it really shows. i'm going to divert and work on other courses and do tutoring for the rest of the term until i'm ready to take the final for discrete math again (and actually pass).

the relief i felt getting off the call with my advisor was insane. i'm starting on a critical thinking and reason course today so stay tuned for more complaining about that. i feel like a whole human again this is great.

25/03/29

I've pulled a few really long office days this week.

When you would just like to sit in the grass and watch the breezes carry the dandelion seeds away.