~Sunday, August 4th 2024~

12.05.2025—late night studying. can’t believe there’s only 2 weeks left of the semester. truly wild

27.03.2025

UK tbt. Missing London, and missing Scotland even more.

| 12 may 2025 |

I've taken a little break after finals to chill. I'm going to my aunt's later this week, she lives near the beach!!

also I'm moving apartments at the end of this month which is exciting but also stressful since I can no longer nag my brothers to help me move (they have full time jobs in different states now 😔💔). I don't have classes this summer, just research but I may try to prepare myself for quantum II and numerical analysis,,, also yes this is in fact another picture from my trip to the chicago botanical garden 😃 (I have too many haha)

research resources

The Eye - An internet library of all sorts of things, not just occult books, but its got a good assortment of those.

PDF drive - it has like, over a million free pdfs. no signup or anything. they got some good occult books there

Academia.edu - I found a link to Azoetia there, and there are likely more occult books available, but unfortunately you have to sign up. LOTS of free books tho

Grimoire Encyclopedia - the shriveled monkey's paw that is grimoire magic. contains spells and spirits from the actual grimoires themselves, and sorts them all very nicely.

Esoterica Archives - it's got that old-internet type vibe, and i quite like it. crazy amount of occult books here, a lot of the grimoires from Grimoire Encyclopedia can be read online here.

Holybooks - its like Esoterica Archives, but with an updated forum feel. People add in the pdfs themselves, like PDF Drive. it's got a wide array of different religious texts

l-o-r-e - a sadly abandoned website now, all about the folklore of food. contains quite a few good recipes, if you want em. this website makes me hungry

pantheon - contains numerous articles on folklore all around the world

theoi - everyone knows about this, right? greek mythology, absolutely excellent.

here's an edible flower chart, yknow, just incase

pinecone.pub - don't hear much about this one anymore, but i quite like it still. good.. inspiration

sigilscribe - it makes sigils for you

scihuß - iirc it moves domains every so often, but its an excellent resource for academic papers.

biblestudytools (psalms) - i find that this format makes it easy to find the specific psalms you want much faster, yknow, for you bastards who don't have a book on hand ;p

planetaryhours.net - calculates the planetary hours for you, for you magicians and witches alike who can't do it by hand

and of course, my favorite, google.com, (or duckduckgo, if you're pirating or just hate google.)

17.02.2025

physician professional behavior roleplay at class today. we collaborated with students from indonesian arts institute, who play as difficult patients. and man it was difficult. kudos to the arts students, they are so fucking good at this.

physical activity: biking to and from medschool, pilates 10 mins, resistence training 200 leg lifts, 200 arm lifts (WOAH! UNEXPECTEDLY FELT GOOD! definitely not as hard as when i started out)

tadarrus (at taubah 50 - 67)

📖 - the bloody chambers, angela carter

5.13.25 - rant and exam update

i'm currently going insane. i failed my discrete math assessment by this much 👌🏻 last week and i'm knee deep in prep to retake it this week. the problem is i need my apartment to be completely free of any humans besides me and my boyfriend is coming over thursday night because we're flying out super early friday morning to go to a wedding.

basically, i have today to get all of my retake requirements done so i can attempt to take the exam tomorrow or kick the boyfriend out thursday night for a couple hours so i can get a proctor slot. my course end date is saturday and i've extended this end date three times since the start of the semester and i just want to be done with this classsssss. self-studying a subject you are not naturally good at is another type of hell.

on a good note, went to the gym consistently this weekend and went on a very nice walk by the river (pictured above).

will update on monday if i'm still alive or not on a pysch hold from stress :)

i am nooooot locked the fuck in. im locked the fuck out. call the locksmith

Espresso-stained pages, whispered thoughts between hardcover spines, and mornings that begin with poetry and croissants. A soft life of books, cafés, and intentional stillness.

paperbacksanddaisies

spectrophotometer lab & physical chemistry notes

25 FEBRUARY 2025 | 34/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

started the day with physical chemistry lab!

then went to work - waiting on a couple of other departments to send me stuff, so had a chill day

evening bioethics lecture!

had a dance rehearsal after class

then finished a couple of problems for physical chemistry

🎧: everybody else is doing it so why can't we? - the cranberries 📚: ulysses - james joyce (i WILL finish it by the end of the month)