R U Ok?

Heigh Ho, overthinking don't go

Lods of stuff that is out of my control is kinda being at play rn. And while I always abide by "don't waste energy on thinking about stuff you can't control" moral, I can only repel my dark thoughts for so long.

I keep getting worried, intrusive thoughts of worse case senarios popping from time to time, past fears came back with the milk and, cherry on top, work pressure ain't helping. A few people helped me, their company is a really good sword against the dark....

But still, I am starting to shake under the pressure of work, of worry for events that display before me without being able to do shit, of longing for some things that heedlessly disappeared from my reach and left a part of loneliness and of guilt for feeling lonely cuz I have my friends sticking around and helping me (special shotout to castle folks and some other pipes, and ofc my parents do help. Thanky'all.). But despite all that... I feel like a lot of other stuff is being amputed from me, and leave a blank hole in my chest... I miss a lot of stuff... And a lot of other stuff is threatening to leave too... And again, that leads to the Loop: Ya see something isignificant -> Ya relate it to your shit that's happening frequently -> Ya imagine some convoluted senario where ya maybe lost smth valuable, some ppl wanna tell u to fuck off and then u remember all u lost -> You feel lonely cuz u miss the past -> You stay silent for some time trying to order your thoughts.... Until you see something insignificant- Anyway, gonna just quote a bud I really like: "Leave me be for I'm the one within the darkened sea"

Not sure how long I can pretend I am good. I may have crossed my mental limit and not realized it. Two days ago I found myself opening the window of my hotel's room and almost climbed it to jump... Until I realized what I was doing and stopped myself... I can't think of how much pain that would cause the ppl around me, so I try to stay sane and not think of THAT again but pressure is growing more and more... People leaving me, people wronging me, and pressure from work. Idk what else can I say? I feel a little betrayed by some, longing for others, pressure from my kin and their lack of acknowledging my situation doesn't help. In short, I feel like I'm trying to hold onto a small statue of sand... Whataver i do, it's falling apart, and I'm slowly saying "what's the point of keeping it together now?" and slowly wanting to let go more and more. I try to keep up for me, for my friend, for my religion... But until when?

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Me on my way to the exam: (I revised nothing at all)

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The prophecy was true

Waddap gang, Icehorse2007 here.

Welcome to my Tumblr blogs where I'll post the story of an Undertale AU OC.

His name is Nitham (means order in Arabic), a guardian of the multiverse. His role is to ensure that the balance between creation and destruction doesn't get compromised. He has no right to interfere with its continuity unless its stability is endangered.

There will be references to other AUs but I'll make sure to point them out and their respective creators.

The story will unfold as a... Well written story lmao, with bits of drawings here and there. I dunno how to make comics

Hope y'all will like it. Criticism is open.

This is him:

Drawing by the amazing Yaya!