Ignorance Is Bliss

raison d'être

the most important reason or purpose for someone or something's existence.

With Love, I part ways

My love for you, was as gentle as wind

The wind that breezed across thy face once

Ne'er failed to bring thee a slight glee

You seem'd to enjoy, and assure thine love was true

Which I blame myself as I mistook

You mad'st me believe the enjoyment as love

I trusted it more than my soul

Breaking it, seem'd like a merry chore to you

But for me, it was my oxygen

A reason to live and breathe

Parting from thee felt like a rock lifted off my chest

A heavy block that hindered to inhale the goodness

You wert the block in my life

I devour thee and hence I shall let thee go

“We all have one foot in a fairytale, and the other in the abyss.”

— Paulo Coelho

“Do you ever have those random nights where your brain won’t shut off, even though your body feels like five hundred pounds of exhausted.”

— Becky Albertalli

Anxiety! Is worse than depression

I think this is because anxiety doesn’t just affect your mood, it affects your physical body, especially your nervous system. When my anxiety gets severe, I can barely breathe. My breath is short. My whole body is tense, especially my chest and shoulders. My forehead feels like it is going to explode. My body sort of quits working. I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can’t process anything, I can’t even move. I don’t expect “normal” people to understand, but when I am THAT bad, I feel like I am going to die. My body is in panic mode and although I know there is no fire, my body doesn’t care. It sounds the alarms anyway. I don’t know how else to explain this to other people, but I seriously can’t function during those times. People always say things like “why didn’t you answer the phone or reply to my text?” The real answer is because I was literally checked out.

Everyone gets anxiety at times. In my opinion, what most people describe as anxiety is just stress. Chronic anxiety is like stress x 10000%.

I generally go into depression after weeks of high anxiety. It’s difficult to focus or get things done when I have anxiety. And as you can imagine, it is VERY exhausting walking around 24/7 feeling like that. Add to that insomnia. In my experience, depression is not really sadness. I either feel nothing at all or I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling nothing at all. I care a lot, then I care about nothing at all, then my body is like WTF get your shit together you worthless piece of shit! It’s a cycle. I think that I become numb because my body is worn out from trying to feel everything at once when I was in the anxiety phase. I feel nothing because the pleasure/pain response is turned off. I become a zombie. I think feeling nothing, although not ideal, is easier than feeling everything at once.

Do not feel lonely. The entire universe is inside you ✻.ღ.*.Rumi.*.ღ.✻ ƬĤΛИҠ Y♡Ʊ F♡Ŕ ßƐĪИƓ  

You know, there are some people you meet in life…

You feel like they’re such a cool person. You try talking to them, but there’s this feeling deep down that you could never really be their friend or even an acquaintance even though you’d love to be a part of their life.

You try reaching out often. And though you try, somewhere in your heart, you feel like a real connection is impossible… because they’re totally out of your league.

There’s love from them, yes but it’s so far from you that it’s hard to even notice it, let alone feel it.

It’s like the universe placed them just close enough for you to admire, but never close enough to hold.

This is exactly how I feel about you.

It’s what I felt after one failed video call with you.

No matter how much I try or don’t

the bond... will it ever be something I can truly call a bond?

There’s no blame on anyone.

This is just how it is.

And it hurts.

Because I feel like a sister that is foriegn to you.

Everyone you love, or are close to even in terms of friendship

stays a stranger to me.

They talk to me just for the sake of basic courtesy. This is how I feel. Maybe it’s not the truth.

But the feeling is real.

And sometimes, I wonder

after mom and dad...

do I really have anyone in this life I can lean on?

And that thought… it makes me really sad.

“I crave space. It charges my batteries. It helps me breathe. Being around people can be so exhausting, because most of them love to take and barely know how to give. Except for a rare few.”

— Katie Kacvinsky

And tht became a biggest problems of mine

I talk too much when I like someone.

When she comes to you with her issues..they come with an hope that you will have her back no matter what..

Even if it's wrong..correct it later..

First and the foremost thing to do is to comfort her and not blame.