More Time Than I Like To Remember. I Definitely Don't Like Any Of Those Bad Feelings So I Love To Self

More time than I like to remember. I definitely don't like any of those bad feelings so I love to self medicate get high as possible put on my fake smile for the robots that we are supposed to be

Have you ever used drugs when everything in you didn’t want to? When you so desperately wanted to be clean? I have. Sitting there, sobbing and shooting up at the same fucking time. Hating myself for craving the destruction that has ruined me. I let the high numb the thoughts of if I will ever be free from my addiction. And so the cycle repeats…