Stupid Idiot

yunjin's messy hair (feat. sakura and kazuha's help)

chat is this delusion… chat… ? 😃

my boyfriend 😩❤️

huh yunjin

pyramid game is such a perfect little drama for the sapphics because you've got a whole demented psychological thriller going on about high school girls creating a whole fake social class system that results because one bored little princess bitch thought it'd be funny, and you've got all these dynamics that can only be boiled down to some kind of love story because like. ye lim and eun jeong's dynamic? the princess idol and her athlete bodyguard. soo ji and ja eun's dynamic? the cold mastermind and the compassionate heart. even whatever da yeon and seol ha have got going on? typical hitter and loyal dog dynamic. the list can go on.

BE THERE OR BE SQUARE 🤩🤩 #nobodywantstobeasquare #keepingitreal

Kids out - The Spinoff #1

Sophia Laforteza X Reader 

Synopsis - You were such a good girl, that your girlfriend decided to give you an early Christmas present 

Genre – smut    Fam/kids out masterlist   

 Warnings – Hands tied, choking, Mommy kink, strap being referred to as your cock, I think there are more things, but nothing disgusting or too hard, sorry if I missed anything. 

Now playing – Burn it, Bibi Ft. DEAN 

Closing the door with your foot, you walk towards the kitchen, carefully placing the bags - full of food for Christmas - on the counter, you knew Sophia was somewhere in the house, but the constant silence made you start to wonder if the Filipina had left at some point while you were at the supermarket. Looking towards the stairs and being silent you tried to hear some noise coming from upstairs, calling your girlfriend's name after. 

When no one answered, you slowly headed up the stairs, slowly climbing the steps, looking right and left in the second-floor hallway, deciding to check the rooms before finally going up a few more steps and heading towards the top floor, where your penthouse room once stood. 

Having no sign of Sophia on the second floor, you finally started to climb towards your room. Before you open the door, you can see a small white card on the floor, bending down and taking the small paper in your hand.   

"I hope you like surprises, you're about to get the best."  

- SL. 

Confused by all that, you opened the bedroom door, the lights low matching the mysterious atmosphere that had settled throughout the house, and when you couldn't see Sophia at first glance, you took two more steps into the room. When the door slammed behind you, your whole body shuddered, before you could even turn around and see what had made the door slam, delicate hands reached your back, coming down and hugging your waist, making you feel a shiver run down your spine.   

"I thought maybe you wanted to get one of your Christmas presents, early this year." Sophia's voice seemed full of intentions, you could feel every obscene thought that the Filipina thought just by the tone of her voice. 

Turning you into her hands, you can finally stand facing your girlfriend. The Filipina wore a lacy lingerie set, it was black and highlighted her skin, it also contrasted with her hair. Her breasts were pushed hard up and all you could think about was how you wanted to get it all out of her. 

"You've been such a good girl to Mommy, baby." She said, running her hands through your hair, taking the messy strands out of your eyes. "I think you deserve a reward."   

The Filipina placed her hands on your chest, pushing your body towards the bed, every step you took, made you feel like you were closer to burning. Your whole body seemed bathed in gasoline, and Sophia was the lighter that would light everything inside that room.   

You gasped as you felt the back of your knees meet the bed, making you sit up instantly, Sophia riding on your lap soon after.  

"I have several surprises for you, baby." The Filipina said, her lips hovering over yours, as if she wanted you to lose control and attack her first.   

And that's exactly what you did, gluing your lips to the woman's above you, your hands going to her waist almost like a muscle memory, the Filipina wrapped her arms around your neck, letting you enjoy the little slip, because she knew exactly that you wouldn't be able to have that freedom in the next few minutes. 

"Okay, you had fun, but I hadn't told you you could touch me, baby." Sophia said, taking the back of your hair in a firm grip to move your lips away from hers. "What do you have to say?"  

"Sorry, Mommy." You said embarrassedly, your head starting to hurt from Sophia's grip.  

"Alright baby, I've forgiven you." The Filipina says, leaning over and reaching for something that was a little behind you on the bed. "But, you're going to get your punishment first."   

You can see the tape in Sophia's hands, and even though you didn't fully know what awaited you, you were upset that you couldn't use your hands and touch your girlfriend's body whenever you wanted.    

"Now, lie down and put your hands behind your back for me, okay, baby?" Sophia said, her voice sweet and calm as she left your lap, kneeling next to you on the bed and waiting for you to follow her command. 

You thought it best not to object, staring at her with curious eyes as you lay on your stomach, putting your hands behind your back and immediately noticing that the position was a little uncomfortable. Feeling Sophia shift on the bed, your shoulders tensed a little as you felt the woman put each leg on either side of your waist, the Filipina sitting on top of your ass and starting to pull the tape to hold your hands together.   

"I know you don't wear tape when you tie me up, but I tore those the last time we wore them, so let's improvise a little. You can handle it, can't you, baby?" The Filipina said, getting off you after pinning your wrists together.   

"Yes, I can handle it." You said, trying to sound determined, but your voice coming out just flickers.   

"I know you do, you're always a good girl for Mommy." Sophia says, her hands on your shoulders, making you lie on your back and consequently on top of your hands. You can see what has changed in the environment, no big deal, if it weren't for the fact that Sophia had taken off the bottom of her lingerie, leaving her pussy free for you to see. 

"I know it's uncomfortable, baby." The Filipina says, pouting that looked more like she was mocking you. "But, you said you can handle it. And you want to make mommy feel good, don't you?" Sophia laughed when she saw how fast you nodded in affirmation.   

"yes, it just hurts a little bit." You said trying to move your hands to get more comfortable. 

"Oh no, baby. You can handle it, look at yourself, you are strong. Don't move and let mommy have fun, okay?!" Sophia positioned each side of her thighs between your head. 

Your breathing was quick, you and Sophia were always changing in bed, and it was amazing for you. As much as Sophia was rough or very bossy, she knew when she was breaking your boundaries, and she had never reached a breaking point with you. You and her always had a lot of conversations about what you liked and didn't like in bed, and you both loved each other too much not to pay attention to every detail of what you said and did.   

The Filipina caressed your hair, your breathing was slightly unregulated and all you wanted was for your girlfriend to lower her hips in your mouth.  

"Baby, calm down a little, you're not going to have anything while you're so desperate." Sophia said, her hands running freely through your hair.   

"It's easy to say, it's not you who has the hottest woman in the world inches away from you." Sophia laughs at your speech, but sees your breathing begin to normalize.   

Seeing your breathing return to normal, the Filipina finally lowered her hips into your mouth, you immediately licking and reaping every little drop of excitement you could. The Filipina moaned when she felt your tongue in her pussy, her hips seem to have taken on a life of their own as they started to unconsciously move in your mouth. Sophia's breathing was unregulated now, your tongue reached all the points that made the girl melt, her head seemed to process nothing other than how your tongue was doing such a good job on her. 

Sinking your tongue deep inside the Filipino girl, you thought of nothing other than making your girlfriend cum. Her legs around your head restricted your breathing, but you would never complain, you could suffocate to death between her thighs and you would be happy. Her taste was wonderful, her smell was so good it made your head spin, and if you could make a wish at that moment, you just wanted your hands to be free so you could pull her hips even more against your mouth.   

You were awakened from your own world by the loud moan that the Filipina let out, writhing all over you. You felt Sophia's liquids drip down on you, dirtying your mouth, your chin, and a little of your nose. Your already scarce air became even scarcer, and you began to thrash under the woman on top of you.   

Seeing your clear shortness of breath, Sophia laughed lightly, holding your hair as she swung her hips on your face once more, making you thrash harder, getting off you right after. You were about to see stars and faint when an exaggerated amount of oxygen came towards you again, your chest rose and fell rapidly, your wide eyes seemed slightly bright, and despite the asphyxiation, you were happy with everything you had received.   

Seeing you recover, Sophia sat next to you on the bed, the Filipina's hand reaching under your shirt, she lightly scratched your abdomen with her big nails, leaving marks that would soon disappear. Her eyes had a fire that you saw a few times, it was that look when she knew she was in charge of everything, that she had you wrapped around her finger, the look that she knew would make you do anything for her.   

"Are you okay, baby?" Sophia asked, helping you to sit up, relieving some of the pressure that was being put on your arms.  

"Yes, I'm fine. I said I could handle it, mommy." You said, tilting your head to rest on Sophia's breasts, which were still attached with her bra. 

Sophia, who was kneeling on the bed next to you, stroked your hair, you felt her chest tremble slightly as she laughed at your statement. It was clear how much fun she was having with it all, and to tell you the truth, so are you.  

"We're not done yet, baby." She said, making you lift your head from your girlfriend's tits.   

Without saying anything else, Sophia made her way towards the closet you shared, leaving you tied up and confused, still with your clothes – which were starting to get uncomfortable – on the bed. Seeing your girlfriend come back, you were even more confused, you could see the strap you regularly wore on her left hand, and a pair of scissors, very sharp on her right hand. 

"Stay calm dear, the scissors are just to cut the tape. You know I would never hurt you." Sophia said laughing, climbing on the bed, letting go of the strap and dragging her knees until she was behind you, cutting the ties from your wrists.   

The feeling of relief was wonderful, you rubbed your wrists lightly, and you could feel your blood flowing normally again. Turning slightly on the bed, you came face to face with Sophia, kneeling behind you, her lower lip being battered by her teeth as she looked at your back, wanting to take the shirt off your body and scratch every inch of your skin. 

Attacking the woman in front of you, you and she fell on the comfortable pillows, the mouths of the two of you glued together in an obscene kiss, the cracks could be heard, as well as Sophia's moans. The Filipina's hands made their way to the hem of your shirt, tearing it from your body and throwing it somewhere on the bedroom floor. Your hands were squeezing her breasts, the Filipina panting in her mouth as her directed her hands to your back, grabbing and scratching every inch she reached. 

You - with great difficulty - reached the clasp of the woman's bra beneath you, finally freeing her breasts. Your mouth bulged and you put the right nipple in your mouth, while massaging the left, changing after a few seconds. Sophia's moans were music to your ears, and when you finally remembered the strap, you walked away, getting out of bed and taking off the rest of your clothes, becoming the same as your girlfriend's state.   

"Yes, baby! Come, get your gift. Fuck mommy the way only you know how to do it." Sophia said, leaning on her elbows when she saw you take off your clothes and put on the strap.   

"Come here, Mommy. Can you do it for me?" You said, sure Sophia was still in control, but you were feeling more confident to start dictating your rules.   

Getting out of bed, Sophia stood in front of you, almost daring you to take control of her. Despite the intimidating look, you didn't get carried away, grabbing the back of the Filipina's neck and pulling her into a kiss. Your teeth clipped into hers, your tongues fought for dominance, and for a moment, Sophia even thought she was going to win. But she had forgotten, she was so involved, that for a moment she forgot that you were stronger, taller, just... bigger than her. You obeyed it because you wanted to, not because you were physically obligated.   

When Sophia's knees touched the floor she wasn't sure if she knelt down herself or you managed to put her in that position, she just knew that she had lost her dominance, at least part of it.  

"Look, you look so beautiful down there, Mommy." You say, running the head of your cock over Sophia's lips.   

The dominant look on your girlfriend's face had changed, as if that dominant part had never happened, her puppy eyes were there, looking at you, the beak on her lips made you want to kiss her and push the strap down her throat, you were about to find out which of the two you wanted more. 

"Baby, be kind, please." The Filipina said, your left hand caressing her face while the right continued to hold your cock.   

"Open that beautiful mouth for me, Mommy." You said, without answering the woman below you. 

When the Filipino girl finally let you slide your strap inside her mouth, you wanted it to be real, you wanted to have a cock to feel your hot mouth around it. You started thrusting lightly, Sophia's hands grabbing both sides of your thighs to steady herself, the Filipina trying to get used to the slow thrusts. As you started to accelerate, Sophia's hands went to your hip bone, trying to get you back to the slow speed of before. Stopping the thrusts and taking your cock out of the Filipina's mouth, you grabbed her hair, making her look up and meet your eyes.   

"You're not going to touch me, do you understand? You weren't kind when you were in charge, why do I have to be?" Sophia looked at you, fake tears in her eyes.  

"Baby, please, you know I can't take it as long as you can." She said, as she tried to convince you to give in.   

You both knew the game you were playing, Sophia loved brutality, she loved it when you followed her commands, she loved to leave you scarred and begging her to turn down the intensity, whatever she's doing. But she also loves to beg, to act out that she can't stand it when all she wants is for you to break her and go harder.   

"Shut up, you had fun, you can't stop at my turn, Mommy." You said, pushing your cock down the throat of the Filipina, your thrusts were fast, saliva ran down the woman's mouth while all that could be heard in the room were the sounds of gagging coming from her.   

Deciding it was good, you stopped the thrusts again, letting Sophia breathe, her hair was messy, her eyes watered and when she looked up, you grabbed her hair, making the Filipina get up from the ground. 

Throwing her body on the bed, you laughed at the way she tried to settle into the pillows. Sophia felt you pulling her by the ankles, causing her to let out a scream followed by a giggle. 

"Baby, calm down, I'm not going to run away." She said, your hands turning her body to lie on her back.  

"I know, I'm just putting you the way I want to take you, Mommy." You said, reaching over and kissing your girlfriend's swollen lips.   

Despite the atmosphere, this kiss was calm, a bit of romanticism in the midst of the savagery of the two of you. Sophia's legs wrapped around your waist, while your hands were on either side of the Filipina's head, preventing the weight of your body from crushing her.   

"Are you ready, Mommy? 'Cause I'm going to fuck you 'til your brain melts." You said, pulling the Filipina's legs and placing them on either side of your shoulders.   

"Yes, baby. Make mommy feel good, get your gift." 

As soon as you slid the strap inside Sophia, a loud moan escaped both of you, the sight you had was the best thing in the world and the feeling of your strap entering Sophia, took the Filipina to paradise. You started to lunge slowly, giving the woman below you time to get used to your size.    

"Oh my god, baby. You're so big." Sophia said, her eyes closed as she grabbed your hands, which were holding both of her thighs.   

"Alright baby, I'm going slow."   

Fulfilling your promise, your movements were slow, but  reached deeper and deeper inside the Filipina, the girl moaned uncontrollably, and sweat was starting to appear on the bodies of both of you. As time passed, your thrusts became quick, Sophia's moans mingled with yours in the closed room. The air conditioner didn't seem to do anything, seeing how sweaty your bodies were, and seeing the expression on Sophia's face, you knew she would cum soon. 

"Mommy, can you go further back, please?" you said, letting go of the Filipina's thighs. 

Sophia, doing as you said, crawled to the head of the bed, laying her head comfortably on the pillows that stood. The woman's legs were shaky, her body was sweaty, and she was loving every moment of that early Christmas present.   

After Sophia settled in, you finally climbed onto the bed, your legs weakening from standing so much. You crawled up to your girlfriend, positioning yourself between the Filipina's legs. 

"I love you so much, baby." You say gluing your forehead to hers. "I can't wait to have a child with you." And with that, you pushed your cock back into your girlfriend, making the Filipina moan loudly, not only for the feeling of having you inside her, but also for your words.   

"I love you, baby." Sophia said, your thrusts becoming fast again. 

The foreheads of the two of you were still glued, you glued your mouth to Sophia's, interrupting the moans she let out. The Filipina's hands ran down your back with furious scratches, leaving marks and slight traces of blood.   

"OH MY GOD, BABY. DON'T STOP! I'M CUMMING!" The Filipina said, clinging to you as you put your face on her neck. "YES, BABY! JUST LIKE THAT, GIVE ME YOUR BABIES! MAKE ME A REAL MOMMY!" 

When Sophia yelled that, you were surprised, but you continued your movements, thrusting hard and fast inside the Filipina. Your arms were on either side of Sophia's head, supporting your body, as they did almost all night. 

"Take baby, take all my babies. Cum for me, baby." You said, hearing a last loud moan coming from the lips of the woman beneath you. 

Sophia's body trembled under yours, you continued fucking her in her orgasm, the strap rubbed perfectly against your clit, making you and your girlfriend cum together. The heavy breaths of the two of you could be heard inside the room, which was now silent.  

The euphoria and adrenaline diminished as you regulated your breaths and filled your lungs with air again. Stepping off the Filipina and discarding the strap, you lay down next to Sophia, the woman snuggling close to you instantly. 

"When we get the chance, do you think we'll still want to have kids?" Sophia asked, her head on your chest as tears welled up in her eyes. 

"I will always want a family with you, Sophia." You said, taking her hand in yours. "No matter how long we have to wait, I'll still be here to build everything with you." You say.  

"I always think about how long it can all take, I have a career starting and..." Sophia began, being interrupted by you. 

"Hey, I don't care. I'm so proud of you and everything you've been building with those girls. No matter how long it takes Sophia, I'll be with you until the end. I want everything you want." You say, Sophia lifting her head from your chest and pressing her lips to yours in a kiss full of love.  

It was all the woman needed to hear, that you would always be there, no matter how much time passed, you would still be by her side, waiting and taking every step at the right time.   

"Now can we talk about how I would like to get another Christmas present like this?" You said, breaking the kiss and trying to lighten the mood. Which seems to have worked, as the Filipina let out a laugh, slapping her hand on your abdomen.  

"Only on your birthday." Sophia said, looking at you with a wide smile. You moaned, throwing your head back, joining in the fun.   

"How about we do this on every holiday." You said, raising your head quickly, making the Filipina laugh again and press another kiss to your lips to finally shut you up.   

I don't know how I wrote all this, in fact I'm trying to figure out how all this was in my brain. I feel like a teenager in puberty, but anyway, first chapter of Kids out is out.

please i'm just a horny girl 😭

we meet again | huh 'jennifer' yunjin

summary: yunjin and reader go on their non-refundable anniversary trip...as exes

pairing: ex gf!yunjin x ex!reader

themes: exes to lovers, miscommunication, discussions of needs, angst, fluff, suggestive-ish, paris!, sprinkles of humor here and there

wc: 4.5k

you stare into your cup of coffee as you wait for your plane to be ready to take off, the warm coffee is a nice contrast from the coldness you can feel from the woman next to you: your ex of four months yunjin.

she's been all frowny and defensive ever since you picked her up for the trip. her huffing and puffing and crossed arms and legs as she looks away from you.

you haven't spoken to her in months until you got an email that the trip you planned for your anniversary with yunjin sent a reminder email. you cursed your old self for setting up an auto-email service to notify her of the trip too.

then she texted you:

jennifer huh (ex): did you plan an anniversary trip for us?

you call her immediately, knowing you have to explain what happened.

"hi jen, and yes i did plan this as an anniversary trip." you begin rubbing your forehead as you try and weasel your way out of this awkward conversation.

"okay...it says here it's non-refundable." yunjin has always been quick at reading between the lines and you practically prayed for her to miss that portion.

"ah yes, well it is non-refundable." you fiddle around with a stress ball as she talks.

"so are we going?" yunjin cuts you off.

"what?" you sputter out, the stress ball that's been in your hand turning being smashed as small as possible. you begin pacing back and forth and even end up stubbing your toe. "fuck!"

"are you okay?" yunjin stops in the middle of her explanation when you curse through the phone. you mutter a quick yes and she continues, "well its my ticket, and i want to go. were you planning on going with anyone else?" yunjin goes silent.

"well no, maybe my sister but you would still have to transfer the ticket." you explain and sit back down, damn that pinky toe hurts so much.

"so it is my ticket." yunjin continues and you nod through the phone, "okay, i am going then." you groan out loud and yunjin begins calling you dramatic.

"whatever yunjin, i'll pick you up for the airport, i'll talk to you later."

--

leading to you both now sitting by the airport benches, both of your luggage separating you by a seat. all around you are families or couples headed for paris, when all you can think about is how soon this will be over.

yunjin is sporting her long leather jacket and her newly dyed red hair, which if you were being honest scared you when you first saw her. now all you can do is stare at how well it works for her, even near cursing her for still making your heartbeat after dumping you.

"stupid red." you mutter to yourself as you swirl your cup.

"what was that?" yunjin takes off one side of her headphones and leans into you.

"oh, just nice red hair." she nods at that and turns back to her music, plugging her headphones in. you scoff at the audacity of her. with that you turn back to watching planes, and hope that this three day trip ends quickly.

--

you're settling into your seat and ready to plug your earbuds in for this flight when you notice the couple next to you giggling loudly while cuddling each other, rolling your eyes at them two.

the girl looks at you and yunjin who has taken the window seat, "are you guys going to paris for your honeymoon?" she asks you while the guy nods excitedly at you.

"uhh, no we're not." you let out a nervous chuckle as the two begin going on a long conversation (very one-sided by the way) about how in love they are, and how they're going to paris for their honeymoon/anniversary. all you can do is sheepishly smile along and hope their monologue ends soon (it doesn't). yunjin chuckles next to you and you kick her subtly to get her to stop.

while you suffer through the long monologue of how they met, how many cats they raise and even drama about their friends, yunjin finds it hilarious yet sad, because honestly, you two could've been that couple, had you two not broken up.

-- day 1

"gosh! they talked my ear off, you know i downloaded like five different movies and a bunch of playlists for that flight, only to not watch a SINGLE movie." you begin venting about the couple to which yunjin finds amusing and pokes fun at you.

"that's on you for not knowing how to exit a conversation." she smiles as you both get a cab to the hotel.

once you've placed your luggage into the trunk and set off, you continue, "listen, i've always been horrible at exiting those situations, didn't help that they were both so enthusiastic."

"i know, it's how i got your number, remember?" yunjin says and you stop for a second, thinking about the first time you met. It was at a concert where she was next to you, talking your ear off about how much she loved the artist. she came alone because none of her friends listened to the artist. you, being the kind soul you were, let her talk to you through the whole concert, even letting her talk through your favorite song.

"yeah, i guess so." you turn away from yunjin in the cab, with the rest of the ride turning quiet.

--

"roses on the bed, and a single king bed?" yunjin questions as you enter the hotel suite. you begin to heat up, remembering how you specifically requested rose petals in the shape of a heart and champagne in an ice bath, along with towels folded into swans facing each other and kissing. god, the things you do when you're in love.

"ah! well, it was for our anniversary so i made a special request." you say really hoping she couldn't hear you.

"well, i'm glad i came, now that i can see this, i can make fun of you for being so cheesy," she says as she grabs the champagne from the metal bucket. "damn, champagne's expensive too. how much did you spend on this trip?"

she pops the champagne cork and starts pouring the golden liquid into two champagne flutes. passing one of the flutes to you.

"too much, had to dip into my savings," you say as you think about the credit card bill, a full body shiver running up your spine just at the thought.

she laughs and smiles at you, "well, consider me lucky."

you cough and try not to think about how different this trip would've been had you two not separated.

"i'm going to go wash up." yunjin puts her flute down and starts digging through her suitcase. you nod settle into one of the armchairs and turn on the hotel tv.

the shower turns on and with that you try to quiet your heart, constantly reassuring yourself that you will get through this trip and be able to be back at home away from an ex you're still in love with.

"what did i get myself into?" you groan and close your eyes, letting the sleep overtake you.

--

"hey...hey wake up." yunjin gently shakes your arm as you wake up from your nap. you groan and mumble incoherent thoughts.

"how long have i been asleep?" the grogginess is still settling into your bones, you open your eyes to the sight of yunjin wearing more casual clothes but still looking effortlessly beautiful with her wavy red hair and adorable glasses perched on her nose.

"long enough, i'm hungry, let's get dinner." she says and you nod, feeling the hunger from not eating on the plane and immediately falling asleep in the hotel.

outside, the sun has started to set, people are chatting and bright lights are adorning the streets. people are lively and there's even buskers playing violin and guitars, enticing the people to spare a few coins for their astounding performance.

you trail behind yunjin, watching the way she absorbs into the parisian night, with her film camera in hand and a smile adorning her face. it makes you yearn, yearn for another universe where you're hers once more. but to also yearn for answers of why she dumped you all those months ago.

"let's go in this one." she turns around and you're snapped out of your thoughts, she points at the restaurant and you follow her in. the smell of delicious food and the warm atmosphere is making you more hungry.

"right this way." your server brings you to your booth. and you seat yourself in front of yunjin, honestly something you haven't done in so long, that it's like you're falling in love all over again. the warm yellow lamp hanging over the booth makes her skin glow, and not to mention just her in general has your knees weak.

instead of staring at her like a fool, you try to focus on the menu in front of you. it works well because after a few glances at the mostly french menu, you're beyond confused with what to order. eyebrows furrowing and biting your nails at the french words.

"are you ready to order?" the waiter stands before you and before you can get out a word asking what these dishes are yunjin is quickly ordering her dinner in french and you sit there anxious.

"and for you?" the waitress turns to you.

"uh, this one?" you point at the menu and show him, he nods taking quick note of the orders before leaving.

you're back to the awkwardness of not having a menu in front of you to distract you from the beauty that is yunjin.

"so....how are you doing? dating anyone?" you start, trying to break the ice. you fiddle with your thumbs and avoid her gaze as she processes the questions you have thrown at her.

"are you kidding me? that's how you are going to start the conversation?" she scoffs at your lame attempt at having a serious conversation.

"what? i think those are reasonable questions." you mumble to yourself, feeling embarrassed you start drinking the water next to you.

"fine. i am doing fine and no, i am not dating anyone." she crosses her arms and glares at you from across the table.

"cool cool...." you trail off, trying to watch other people and feeling a little giddy when yunjin said she wasn't dating anyone.

the waiter returns with a basket of bread and butter, also refilling water cups and smiling at you both before leaving quickly. it doesn't go unnoticed that he keeps eyeing yunjin and smiling at her throughout the interaction.

"what about you?" yunjin starts with a slice of bread in her mouth.

"oh me, no not dating anymore, of course not." you let the words tumble out of your mouth, forgetting how you are trying to keep your walls up around yunjin.

"what do you mean by 'of course not'?" she questions as she spreads more butter onto her baguette.

you also grab a slice of bread and start smearing it with butter, thinking of ways to exit this topic as smoothly as possible, "just you know...not there."

she nods and you can see that she wants to prod more into why, but the waiter shows up with both your dishes in hand.

"for you madam," he places her beef bourguignon in front of her. meanwhile placing your seafood pasta in front of you. "and for you."

"shit..." you mumble as you stare at your dish, yunjin sighs but lets out an amused smile at the sight.

"of course you managed to order a seafood dish because you didn't understand french." she laughs at you, and all you can do is feel even more embarrassed from how this trip is going. "let's switch."

yunjin trades plates with you, your heart warms when she remembers your seafood allergy. you thank her sheepishly and begin digging into your dish. "jen! this is delicious!" you exclaim with a piece of beef in your mouth.

she smiles at you warmly and takes a quick photo of you, making your cheeks warm at the sentiment, remembering her habit of taking photos of you when she found you cute.

the waitress returns this time, but you look at him confused because you haven't ordered anything else.

"hello madam," he starts while leaning on the booth by yunjin's side, showing off his pearly white smile and trying to be suave, "how are you enjoying paris?"

"it's lovely here, thank you for asking." yunjin starts, you can only watch as the two engage in conversation, making you more and more quiet as time passes.

they speak about parisian culture and even share a few phrases in french that you definitely could not understand. you end up only focusing on your dish until he leaves much later. yunjin looks back at you and is confused by the switch in your demeanor.

yunjin goes quiet at the sight of you so down, so she also begins quietly eating her (your) seafood pasta, and as the time dwindles to the end. the waiter returns with the bill and a napkin that he slips to yunjin, it doesn't take a genius to understand what he gave her.

you huff angrily as you pay for the dinner. and yunjin follows you out of the restaurant and disposes of the napkin in front of you. she turns to you with her hand open and waiting for yours. you take it as you both stroll down the streets of paris with full bellies and a noticeably happier mood.

-- day 2

yunjin has managed to convince you (you really don't know how) to go and get caricatures of the both of you for "memories". you groaned at the idea, but there you sat in the small ratty chair in front of the french artist, and waited for this quick drawing. after a few quick minutes, the artist hands you the drawing, showcasing a funny imagery of yunjin stomping your head to the ground as your relationship.

"hey! you can't draw that!" you exclaim as you go over the painting, you can't lie though, the guy was talented.

yunjin just laughs and drops euros into his hand before dragging you away from the chairs. "don't take it too seriously, it's just a drawing." she takes the drawing from your hands before stuffing it into her purse and folding her arms with yours.

"so, what should we do today?" she says to steer you away from thinking about the drawing.

"well actually, i had an itinerary ready for this trip," fishing your phone out of your pocket, you begin listing places that you wanted to take yunjin to. "the louvre?"

she stops her feets and her jaw drops and you can see her happiness just overflowing.

"yes yes yes! you know me too well, lifelong dream to see the mona lisa." she says and you smile, remembering that's why you put it on your itinerary, and soon you're flagging down a cab to head to the louvre.

god, you're never getting over her at this point. you try not to dwell on that thought and instead let things come as they are.

--

she's busy capturing photos of the mona lisa and other pieces, while you are capturing memories of her in your mind. taking slow steps behind her as she reads through the description of each piece that intrigues her.

she's gorgeous in her dark green leather coat, red hair flowing down her back with her trusty film camera looped around her wrist. she looks like she belongs in an art museum and you're left wondering if you can ask the art curators to put a picture of her as a piece.

once you reach the end of the museum, you begin to realize there really hasn't been any piece that has intrigued you to look at, even when yunjin was admiring the mona lisa, all you could focus on were her gorgeous eyes.

that day, you hope that you can always make her happy, even if she no longer is yours.

--

"of course we have to go to see the eiffel tower, i don't care that it's cheesy and cliche, we HAVE to go." she explains to you as she's touching up her makeup again. the two of you returned to the hotel after a long day of exploring local attractions, but now yunjin is explaining that you two definitely need to go despite how tired you are.

while she goes on and on about the importance of a paris trip including eiffel tower pictures, you try to keep your eyes open. the warmth of the jacket that you still have on, swallowing you.

"okay okay, we should go." you get up and start rubbing at your eyes, even letting out loud yawns as you put on your shoes. yunjin finally takes a look at you and starts to feel bad for pushing you to do so much today.

"you look tired, we can go another time?" she starts, feeling embarrassed.

you grab a hold of the wall as you tuck the back of the shoe over your sock, "not at all, let's go!"

you look tired, eyes lower than usual. with a stretch and a neck crack, you look more energized and ready to take on the night.

"let's go!" you exclaim, opening your palm for her to hold onto. she can only smile and think about how sweet it is that you are trying to do activities that she wants to do.

"okay, let's go." she responds, your hand wraps around hers tightly as you both get out of the car and walk through the crowd to get closer to the eiffel tower.

while yunjin stares at the little lights adorning the eiffel tower, sparkling like the stars in the sky, you try and take discreet photos of her. thinking about how you are basically in an alternate universe that exists only you and yunjin, and soon reality will return with you alone and single. these photos will remain to remind you that this trip wasn't a dream, what little you have to cling onto.

she's enjoying the night breeze and the liveliness of the people around her, but you're focused on her. she's also capturing photos of the eiffel tower but taking time to snap photos of the people around her. until her camera lands on you, snapping a photo of you, taking a photo of her.

then you both move away from your cameras and look at each other, and time feels like it stops when you both just admire each other. her eyes become glossy and tears are flowing down her cheek.

you make a quick dash to hug her, holding her tightly. you feel her lay her head on your shoulder and you can feel her body wrack into yours, with quiet sobs and she wraps around you like she'll lose you too.

it feels like the world is crashing around you two, with her grabbing onto your jacket and pinching it so hard. you start rubbing her hair in the motion that you know will bring her comfort, as it has done many times before.

you must've been there for a long time, because people are looking at you two in sympathy, a traveling florist even hands you a free rose to cheer you up. you immediately slip the rose into her pocket. and she stops hugging onto you to see the rose in her breast pocket. she smiles a little, and with a shaky voice, "let's go back to the hotel please."

you nod and hold her hand as you two take the long way back. her hand is still very much holding onto yours tightly. and by the time that you two are back in the room, she drops onto the bed and taps the be urging you to join.

you slip off your shoes and jacket and settle on the bed, facing yunjin. she twirls the rose between her fingers and finally looks at you.

"do you know why i broke up with you?" she whispers, and your body has frozen up, yunjin kept the break up very simple. a single 'let's break up.' over coffee and then she left.

"i don't." you whisper back.

"do you want to know?" she whispers back.

"yes, i really do." you sit up and watch her thinking for a while.

"i broke up with you because i didn't feel like you loved me anymore. whenever we hung out it never felt like you cared anymore, you were even inconsiderate at times and i think, no, i believed that you fell out of love with me."

you nod, but each word cracks your heart a little more, thinking about how wrong each word feels. it simply wasn't true, you never stopped loving her and the guilt of making her feel this way makes you want to vomit.

"this whole trip, i feel like i saw the old you again, the you that fell in love with me and showered me with attention." she continues her monologue and breathes harder at the emotions that were being kept at bay. "earlier, when you were taking photos of me and i caught you, it was exactly like our first date, it hurt so bad..." and by now she's sobbing and you're sobbing and it's all just a big mess.

"it hurts so bad that now i know you never fell out of love with me. that i made a mistake by breaking up with you and we've been months apart when we could've had this happy anniversary together." she continues with tears in her eyes and she's holding you close. alternating between crying and talking.

you take in the words openly, understanding the position that you've put her in and how hurt she was by your lack of attention. you can't even deny it either, those last weeks before the breakup felt like a rift between the two of you, neither knowing how to go forward. with yunjin making the final and unfortunate decision of dumping you.

"jen, you mean everything to me, and i'm so beyond sorry if it feels as if i never prioritized you." you are also trembling in her hold as she listens to you, nodding to your words every so often. "i never and mean never fell out of love with you. i'm sorry that it took a vacation to figure this out too."

she stops completely and holds your face in her hands as she completely dives herself into a passionate kiss. searing her lips against yours and pushing you into the bed more.

"you're mine." yunjin speaks in between kisses.

"yours." you move your hands into her hair and pull her close, bodies molding into one as the night goes on.

-- day 3

three quick knocks disturb you from your sleep, you rub your eyes and open them to the harsh rays of the windows.

"cleaning service!" you could hear outside the room, and you examine yourself. naked as ever and clothes all sprawled around, yunjin dead asleep on the other side of the bed.

"shit!" you run to the closet and grab a bathrobe and quickly tie it around yourself as you rush to the door. finally giving one glance at the bird's nest of hair, you pat down the hair as much as you can before opening the door slightly.

"hi! um, we don't need cleaning right now, maybe later?" you ask worriedly, the lady eyes your bathrobe and your hair and gives a smirk before walking away to the next room. you cringe at the idea that she knows exactly what you have been up to and close the door quickly.

"phew." you are relieved that they didn't walk into you and yunjin butt naked for cleaning service. meanwhile, yunjin has approached you from behind and wrapped her arms around you.

"hi, come back to bed." she pulls at your robe and pulls you towards her.

"oh okay..."you're confused but let her pull you back to bed. cuddling with her feels nice and reminds you of the days you spent lounging in each other's place.

--

"jen! i cannot believe you!" you stand on the far end away from her, backing yourself into a corner.

"what? i didn't do anything wrong." she stalks towards you with a devious smile as she watches you examine yourself in the mirror.

"you mauled my neck!" you exclaim as you claw at your neck looking left and right at the damage she's done. yunjin rather looks proud of her handiwork and instead pulls you onto her lap.

"okay no need to be a big baby about it, let me touch it up." she pulls out her concealer and starts going to town on the many hickeys she's left littered across your neck.

you huff and complain while yunjin lets you drone on while applying concealer until you're satisfied. she doesn't mention the new marks she's dug into your back, quite happy that only she can see them.

--

you both set out for a much chiller day outside, leisurely walking in parks and chatting while enjoying the parisian weather. you reach a quiet spot in the park, pulling out a blanket and your picnic basket.

yunjin doesn't comment on the humongous scarf that you have wrapped around your neck, but it does make her laugh a bit to see it.

you two are enjoying the nice breeze, when you hear smacking sounds nearby. looking around, you don't spot anything unusual until you notice a couple practically eating each other's mouths off. a closer look and you realize you recognize the two as the couple from the plane into paris.

you immediately turn your head to yunjin, "pss, the couple from the plane is at my six."

she quickly whips her head around and lo and behold the couple is still loudly eating each other's faces off. she laughs at the sight before capturing your lips with hers. "we should beat them."

"jen noooooo." you groan and turn away from her, uninterested at the idea of attracting their attention. she simply laughs and continues to enjoy the picnic. the rest of the trip goes well, often sharing little tidbits of your lives in the past couple months without each other.

after enjoying your "anniversary" trip in paris, you both get ready to go home. holding hands and kissing through the cab ride, plane ride and even through baggage claim.

you spot your sister out front of the pick-up terminal with a big sign "welcome back lovers!" you groan at the sign, of course she would show up with a poster plastering you and yunjin's photos to pick you up.

"she knows we're back together?" yunjin comments in confusion.

"i didn't even tell her, she just kept saying she knew we would get back together when the trip was over." you hold yunjin's luggage as your sister tackles yunjin into a hug, spilling about how much she missed her.

"i'm here too you know...your actual sister." your sister simply swats you away and enthusiastically asks about your trip to yunjin.

you drive off with yunjin's hand in yours and a warm smile as yunjin talks about the trip to your sister.

--

a/n: i apologize if there's any inaccuracies about paris, i've never been 😭 this post was inspired by a fic i read a longggg time ago. stay safe and stay healthy everyone!

Really missing my girlfriend that doesn’t exist rn

oh...

goodnight