I Was Really Really Hoping I Would Do Arctober, But I Can't Do Much, So Here's The Shittiest And Most

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Seeing you work with clay is making me want to try! I've wanted to work with polymer clay for years but I was always so scared

Anyway, thank you for allowing us to see your progress! I can't wait to see the final result :)

nothing to be scared of, the clay is cheap and you'll be wasting nothing (it's only now that you're wasting time not having tried it) - go on, create, make mistakes and have fun!

I want to share as much of me (seemingly) failing as possible, because I feel like everyone I know struggles with perfectionism and overall a very bad/toxic mindset that social media taught us - everyone posting only their best work makes you think they surely never fail and therefore you suck. It teaches you mistakes are something very, very bad and makes you scared of even trying to make your own stuff, which is wrong on so many levels. Mistakes aren't good or bad, they're an essential part of the process you have to accept (and everyone makes them, no matter how experienced they are); you won't make mistakes only if you don't do anything, and we don't want that!

I learned to accept this a rather hard way - the shittier my life got the less serious I'd get (about myself, my art and running my socials) and failing at anything became a joke (ah man, I only have to remake it another 60 times and we'll be good!).

SO GUYS try not to take your art too seriously - everything can either be fixed, started over or remade as many times as you wish

Craft update #4: Gertrude from start to finish

started: 6 Aug 2023 finished: 17 Aug 2023 status: guarding the encyclopedia

yes, I painted her with wall paint

Craft update #1: the cardboard dragon

started: Aug 2023 status: abandoned

last year I had this wonderful idea to make a big articulated dragon thing (a childhood dream come true) ideally it would be made out of thin wood sheets (balsa wood?) and have bolts for joints - I guess the plan was to make a cardboard and toothpicks sketch and then a pattern to have it all laser cut (if you can even order smth like that), but I stopped at the (unfinished) sketch

it took days to cut out the segments (with the hind legs being remade entirely at some point) and I wasn't satisfied how the limbs connect to the torso (because I didn't plan it) - it would probably have to be remade/fixed a lot more, but I simply got (very) tired of it

now, the wings were supposed to be the really cool part, with hinges to allow them to move up and down, inner bones made of wire and some fabric for the membrane.. this never went anywhere and stayed as an idea in my head (one shitty cardboard wing sketch was made)

as of now, the dragon has been taped together to prevent everything falling apart, and is hanging from the ceiling to watch over when I sleep (first pic)

getting ready to shoot my final photography assignment

[2022] tangerine season

you think I gave up on Arctober? wrong! I NEVER GIVE UP

Vi was done on my worst day (although the 'rivarly' one looks the worst), didn't even use a ref for her (sorry Vi fans, hope it's not that bad), but I tried to fixt it a bit later; the weird creature on the very left is from that chubby dog meme, but I didn't use a ref for it either

blue was obviously my best day - I'm not saying it's perfect, just that drawing finally didn't feel as unbelievably hard as with everything else I did before and it didn't take ages to make

'tell the council I sad fuck you' is a quote from some yt video I saw recently; the context was quite hilarious and it stuck in my head

[IMPORTANT] just wanted to say that I expected around 0 notes on my first Arctober post, but it getting much more than that really motivated me to keep trying, thanks a lot

7th of May 2021, when the sky was burning

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