Soooo Red X Blue Dynamic Where's

"I don't want you to be scared of me anymore"

☀️/❄️

Wild mix of...

Me, reading first chapter:

"I just...I think I can trust her"

"She's here with me now..."

"I need to trust her"

"I think it's the right thing to do. I'm sure of it"

I love them

I reread my own post and gasp while fully realize the THING. [Or I just made it up]

In HIS gaze at HER nothing has changed, but HER gaze at HIM is now completely different AND NOW SHE SEE THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER. She now looks at him the same way he looked at her from their very first meeting.

Help me, it’s so good that I'm sick.

MY BEAUTIFUL GIRL YOU CAN FINALLY SEEEEE!!!!!!!!??? "SINCE THE BEGINNING" MAYBEEEEE!!!!!!!!!???????

So... I've realized I'm not reading with my eyes. Or my memory is s/#t. While reading the last chapter, I realized I didn't understand (nor remember) two things:

1. Those who become part of the troupe stop aging after a certain age, no? I just remembered that Sahed's hair is growing... I mean, hair growth isn't a sign of aging... but actually it's just a sign of changes in the body (? I'm stupid sorry), and I don't recall anyone ever emphasizing such things (like someone shaving or getting a haircut). I mean, I don't get it... their body functions are maintained and exist usually until they decide to "leave"? Visually, no one changes... and either Tonny wears the same hairstyle his whole long life, or they stop changing altogether (frozen in time). Or do they all change, just that no emphasis was placed on it, and the moment with Sahed was more for (oh, she noticed such a minor detail!)?

And question 2: Does Sahed know that Julia doesn't have much time left if Tonny doesn't come up with something? I distinctly remember that Kamille and Tonny know about this. But Sahed? It's just that if he knows, he's too calm. And if he doesn't... well, then it's understandable.

*inhaling*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA