“not All Men”

One of the things I liked about this new Percy Jackson episode is that they made the choices the kids make intentional

Instead of just going to the Arch to kill time, now they go because it is a temple for Athena, who Annabeth believes will help them.

Instead of the trio being separated because there wasn't enough room on the pod, Percy deliberately chooses to get Grover and Annabeth to safety and face Echidna alone.

It gives them a lot more agency in their actions and makes the Echidna fight carry more weight.

I'm watching the 4th episode right now and I just love how they're already building up Percy's whole "They might be gods but this is a shit way to treat kids. So, fuck you" Like, a 12 year old just lying there awake after a nightmare and discussing this with the smartass girl who he thought would have never befriended him.

And then said smartass girl stating that it's just bow everyone works, not just the gods??? Like, I love how Percy was treated so good that he could say fuck you to the gods but then I also hate how Annabeth just accepted it, because arghhhhhhhh

I would fall into the pits of hell with you rather than face the thought you might suffer alone. A powerful goddess erased all my memories but she couldn’t make me forget the sound of your laugh. You are my tether to mortality and the hand that saved me from drowning. The first time you kissed me I caused a seismic volcanic earthquake. When I met Aphrodite I thought she looked like you. The divine rulers of this universe fear I might burn down the world if you asked. And I would. Without hesitation. Do you get it? Do you understand?

Please just ignore this

(In case you don't:

Tw:sh, suicide attempts, and idk anything else that might trigger anyone from this but sorry)

I feel so fucking pathetic. Idk, I feel like I don't actually feel what I say I feel and am just lying because it's what I used to feel. I feel like I'm lying because the problems aren't even real problems and even if they were the reason I was messed up is trying to make things better. But I just don't. Idk. I can't seem to appreciate what they're doing because they didn't see it in the past 6 to 7 years. And now they're trying just after I tried to overdose on medicine at my hostel(I stopped before it would have been too much, I knew it wouldn't kill me when i stopped). They knew I used to SH. They knew for sure I still did it for about 2 years. They thought I stopped after that. Idk, they just assumed it was all better overnight. It's not like I hand tried to kms before, but they never found out about it. So yea, I feel like they're here too late. So I blame them for it and for the stuff they said, they stuff they did and didn't do. The part that makes me feel worst is that when I'd told them about it, they said it was just an excuse. After I told them that I was hurt about that(about 1 week later), they retracted the statement and said I that I might be trying to punish them but really it's just me I was punishing. I know its me I'm punishing. And it still hurts that they think I am doing this to punish THEM, that they still don't understand how deeply I hate myself(also a feeling I feel like I'm lying about, idek why I would lie about that but eh) even after I told them. And now I feel like I have no friends to talk to about my feelings. My almost 15 year bsf has .....idk, changed (she has a lot going on) so we just never talk about deep feelings. I have my cousin, almost like a twin, same age and the bond and all, but she is always trying to make me see their side of it and sometimes I just need someone to listen. I had more really close friends but we sort of just drifted apart. Idk what to do, feels like I have no one to talk to, life doesn't seem worth living, nothing worth fighting for, i dont seem worth fighting for. 2 people I grew close to at hostel made me swear I'd never cut again and it hurts so bad not doing it I feel like I will kms this time without coming to reason and be gone, it's like I'm waiting for the moment everything gets just too much and I finally snap.

Things Percy Jackson remembers in Son of Neptune:

Annabeth exists

I met Annabeth at a camp

Annabeth and I kiss sometimes

Fuck Ares

Oh, yk what else they have in common? So much suffering and them not ending up together:')

I was today years old when I realized Percico has the exact same age gap as Romeo and Juliet.

It means absolutely nothing, but it's neat to think about.

jude "i wouldn't marry me either" duarte and cardan "i'd marry you with paper rings" greenbriar

I've always wondered why the Romans think demigods all of a sudden started getting claimed? They couldn't know about Percy's deal with Olympus, so what do they think happened?

The gods were probably like "as a reward for fighting in the war we will now claim you all!"

The Romans were probably pretty proud of that.

Then like a year later this conversation happens:

Annabeth: and then after Percy made the gods promise to claim all their children-

Jason: THAT WAS YOU?!

Percy: yeah. Why did you think the god suddenly started claiming everybody?

something about percy winning against ares by drawing first blood, not giving a fuck that it’s the god of war he is making an enemy out of vs him being caught totally unaware by luke and luke drawing first blood because percy hesitated, because this is his friend, because making an enemy out of a god is way more preferable over making an enemy out of a friend. percy winning against insurmountable odds vs him losing because his loyalty is truly and undoubtedly fatal.