helianthus-talks

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ah man the scammers have started calling my new number. I've just recently updated my online accounts info... that's probably why... but the problem is idk which website it was that leaked my number 🫠.

I'm genuinely sick of this. I had to change my previous number because of a stupid gov app that leaked my number to scammers. Have got 50+ scam calls throughout the years bro. It was insanely annoying.

One thing I really cant understand is when people think a certain illness affects people the same way with the same level of pain.

Like... I'm sorry do people share bodies or something? Is your body their body and vice versa? Is that why you think your experience is universal?

I'm really not a fan of 'audiobooks' that turn out to be just... voice actors acting out dialogues with some background sound effects and that's it. Those are not books to me? More like reading out scripts, or the audio version of films. I want the content to be read like a book, with paragraphs of descriptions and whatnot.

I am upset. I missed dinner and now the food has probably gone bad.

I'm so tired waking up in pain every damn day

for a company that has been in this business for decades, microsoft word and onedrive kinda suck

Why does it seem like nowadays readers need everything to be morally correct, and for the moral lessons to be spelled for them, or else they miss the point of the story by a mile? Like, if a fiction depicts something dark they'll be like "oh this fiction is justifying fucked up actions" maybe think deeper Susan? "I don't see redemption for this character at all??" maybe they aren't meant to be redeemed?? Maybe the story is just here to show how fucked up everything is and that's it?? Maybe not every story is supposed to teach you morals and healthy coping mechanism?? Go to therapy for that?

People read ADULT DARK fiction and then act like kids with no critical thinking skills. Maybe those stories are not for you if you constantly seek heroic values in fiction.

i started doing things scared and doing things alone years ago the real challenge is doing things tired

me: *sees the customer service employee type a series of numbers and click enter without checking it 2736127312 times*

me and my OCD: how does it feel like to be god's favourite?

Did I fight monsters last night wth did I wake up with a cracked phone screen 💀

just because I say they might do X for Y reason, it doesn't mean I believe X should be done for Y reason, it doesn't mean I think X should only be done for Y reason, and it doesn't mean Y is the only reason possible for X.

a lot of people argue against shit that wasn't even said and doesn't fucking exist.

people taking your analysis of a situation and report of other people's pov as your personal opinion and beliefs really spike my stress level

It's interesting how these people who encourage you to start a certain business often only show their annual revenue. Like. Where's the monthly revenue sir? Also tell us how many sales you make per month? And the cost of course

Coriolanus Snow is enneagram 3 sp/so, I said it.

I might have forgotten some details in TBOSAS but I found out some people typed him as Enneagram 8?

He didn't step into a situation and immediately take charge or intimidate people like Enneagram 8 usually do, he didn't command the room either. He cared a lot about his image and the Snow name, concerned about showing the right image of the Snow family and doing his part as a Snow. He was also quite detached from his human traits like empathy in his pursuit of success and security, always thinking about what he could gain from a particular decision he made — that currency or 'quid pro quo' mindset is very Enneagram 3. He was focused on climbing the ranks. He got closer to people with power, authority and influences; like the insane doctor despite knowing the woman was dangerous, and Sejanus' parents, and his 'friends'. This is why he liked Lucy Gray at first, because she attracted the attention of the audience, i.e. influence. He smiled and pretended while working his way to the top. He's so enneagram 3, the worst kind, of course.

I haven't thought about his MBTI but I found out people also typed him as INTJ. I mean.... if that's true, INTJ enneagram 8 would not budge like he did, they would not play the game. INTJs are stubborn about doing things their way, INTJs are not always aware of social dynamic like Coryo did, plus they lack loyalty to traditions or the established rules of the social game. INTJ enneagram 3 however? They would adapt and play the game, while disagreeing with it at the same time and changing it slowly to fit their needs as they go. Which Coryo did. Well, he might not disagree with the Hunger Games but he didn't exactly agree with everything that was going on (at first) either, he just didn't fight against it like Sejanus did. He insulted people in his monologue but he still played the game, he made changes in the Hunger Games too.

Rich people be like "this bag is 15k bucks" and it's the ugliest bag you have ever seen

we are in a media literacy crisis

seeing someone post 'tell me you are having a mental health day without telling me you are having a mental health day' and all I could think about was that I'm having a mental health year

And my internet connection isn't connecting properly. Great

I just had a boost of motivation to be productive so I started writing on my little whiteboard planner but apparently I used a permanent marker.....

all my energy had to be spent on cleaning the damn whiteboard and now im tiRed

I just had a boost of motivation to be productive so I started writing on my little whiteboard planner but apparently I used a permanent marker.....

all my energy had to be spent on cleaning the damn whiteboard and now im tiRed

You know those trivial things that you know are not important, but they annoy you so much?

I hate those videos that begin with "reasons why you should NOT do something" and then proceed to give positive reasons why you should do it.

I think..... out of all mobile applications that should not have technical problems that persist more than 5 minutes— is mobile banking. I do not care if it's not realistic. Banks should hire as many qualified people as possible to make sure their damn app is working as smoothly as possible, especially when they give their clients no other choice besides to use their damn fucking app to make a fucking transaction.

Me: i need to stop doing many things im tired i need some rest

Me: *rests*

Also me: im bored

why ive been getting a headache lately like i can't even use my laptop for more than 3 hours now?? come on

Me: *is stressed out*

Also me: *not asking tarot about it bcs I know it will just give me Temperance like it has been doing and it pisses me off*

Maybe forcing myself to read books every day for 66 days and do nothing else will fix my shitty concentration span

There are many things I usually go through before choosing a place to rent. For example, do the neighbours have dogs? That's a no because people here don't know how to be a responsible dog owner, most owned dogs bark at everything that moves. I also check for the water pressure, the internet connection, the electrical appliances and whatnot.

But I have never thought I needed to consider the possibility of having a neighbour who likes to sing his lungs out every fucking day every morning and afternoon. I have considered neighbours who like to talk loudly, but not this shit.

People wanting a character being all good and moral and getting defensive when other people highlight the character's flaws............

I like that my phone always autocorrects "neurodivergent" into "biodiversity." That's right. My friends and I all fill different niches in our social ecosystems.

The whole "Sherlock Holmes still believes in a geocentric universe" bit is funny, yeah, but it always makes me wonder about what massive blind spots might exist in my knowledge. What assumptions am I carrying that would make an expert in the field go "You idiot, that was disproven in the Middle Ages"

You show a cat something and they're like sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff sniff ooooh I understand now. Don't care

Fever is a hilarious immune response. Our bodies tell the disease “hey, wanna see which one of us dies of overheating first? No? Too bad.” and honestly they’re not even the winners a decent chunk of the time but it works often enough that we never evolved it away or anything. Fantastic work.