Selfishly, It Was Relaxing Being With Only Mike. It Was Strange, Being

beverly 📲 ben👷🏻

beverly: ben hanscom !!

beverly: i have a very important question for you.

beverly: do you still have that NKOTB poster? or any of their records/cds?

A BEVERLY MARSH PLAYLIST  ・。・

below the cut are lyrics of importance from each song, plus a few extras ❄️🔥

001. BAD REPUTATION - JOAN JETT

“a girl can do what she wants to do and that's what I'm gonna do. and i don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation.”

002. LIABILITY - LORDE

“so they pull back, make other plans. i understand, i'm a liability. get you wild, make you leave. i'm a little much for everyone.”

“the truth is I am a toy that people enjoy ‘til all of the tricks don't work anymore, and then they are bored of me.”

003. YOU’VE GOT IT (THE RIGHT STUFF) - NKOTB

“you're the reason why I sing this song. all that I needed was you.”

004. LOOKING TOO CLOSELY - FINK

“the devil's right there, right there in the details and you don't wanna hurt yourself, hurt yourself. looking too closely.”

“put your arms around somebody else. don't punish yourself, punish yourself. truth is like blood underneath your fingernails and you don't wanna hurt yourself, hurt yourself.”

“so don't kid yourself, kid yourself. it's you right there, right there in the mirror.”

005. LOSER - BECK

“ soy un perdedor. i’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me ??”

006. FORTRESS - BEAR’S DEN

“nothing could ever make me more frightened than the thought of hurting you.”

“this is how it's meant to be. this is where we're supposed to be. i don't think anyone could ever love anyone the way I love you.”

007. FATHER DAUGHTER DANCE - KESHA

“it was always drama. i’m sorry i’m always so anxious and numb. just sorry i’m fucked up. i really just don’t know how to love, how to trust. i try, but when i talk about him i should probably cry but he’s nothing, he’s no one, a stranger.”

“oh, i wish my heart wasn’t broken from the start. i never stood a fighting chance. in all my days from my cradle to my grave, i’ll never have a father daughter dance.”

008. BEVERLY - IT (2017) SOUNDTRACK

(  vibes™.  )

009. UNBREAKABLE - FIREFLIGHT

“where are the people that accuse me? the ones who beat me down and bruise me? they hide just out of sight, can't face me in the light. they'll return but I'll be stronger.”

“god, I want to dream again. take me where I've never been. i want to go there, this time I'm not scared. now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable. no one can touch me. nothing can stop me.”

010. THERE IS A LIGHT THAT NEVER GOES OUT - THE SMITHS

“take me out tonight where there's music and there's people and they're young and alive. driving in your car, i never, never want to go home because I haven't got one ... oh, please don't drop me home because it's not my home, it's their home and I'm welcome no more.”

011. LOVELY - BILLIE EILISH FT. KHALID

“oh, i hope some day i'll make it out of here, even if it takes all night or a hundred years. need a place to hide, but I can't find one near. wanna feel alive. outside i can't fight my fear.”

“isn't it lovely, all alone? heart made of glass my mind of stone. tear me to pieces, skin to bone. hello, welcome home.”

012. HANG ON IN THERE - QUEEN

“don't let go, don't lose your mystique. wait a little longer; tomorrow brings another feast. don't let go, don't lose your reputation. thank God you're still alive, ha. you're still in one piece.”

013. CHERRY BOMB - THE RUNAWAYS

“can't stay at home, can't stay at school. old folks say, ‘you poor little fool.’ down the streets i'm the girl next door ; i'm the fox you've been waiting for.”

luna tag dump. 

A MIKE MUNROE PLAYLIST・。・

below the cut are lyrics of importance from each song, plus a few extras 🐺 

001. CONTROL - HALSEY

“the house was awake, the shadows and monsters. the hallways, they echoed and groaned.”

“i'm bigger than my body. i'm colder than this home. i'm meaner than my demons. i'm bigger than these bones.”

002. RUN BOY RUN - WOODKID

“tomorrow is another day and you won't have to hide away. you'll be a man, boy! but for now it's time to run, it's time to run!”

003. WOLVES - DOWN LIKE SILVER

“when i die, let the wolves enjoy my bones. when I die, let me go.”

“oh, the world is dark and i've looked as far as i can see when the years have torn me apart.”

004. THERAPY - ALL TIME LOW

“give me a therapy, i'm a walking travesty but I'm smiling at everything.”

“my lungs gave out as i faced the crowd. i think that keeping this up could be dangerous. i'm flesh and bone, I'm a rolling stone and the experts say I'm delirious.”

“arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to ; they're better off without you, arrogant boy, cause a scene like you're supposed to.”

005. GUN IN MY HAND - DOROTHY

“why did love put a gun in my hand? ... was it for redemption? was it for revenge?”

006. UNTIL IT HURTS - FRANSISCA HALL

“stir up the beast inside, take me for all I'm worth. touch me until it hurts ... until my body burns, love me until it hurts.”

007. GOD’S GONNA CUT YOU DOWN - JOHNNY CASH

“you can run on for a long time. run on for a long time, run on for a long time. sooner or later god'll cut you down.”

008. PRETTY PIMPIN’ - KURT VILE

“all i want is to just have fun, live my life like a son of a gun.”

“then i woke up one morning didn't recognize the man in the mirror. then i laughed and i said, ‘oh silly me, that's just me.’”

009. REMEMBRANCE - BALMORHEA

( no lyrics, but it be a vibe™ )

010. MY EX’S BEST FRIEND - MACHINE GUN KELLY FT. BLACKBEAR

“you know my ex, so that makes it all feel complicated, yeah.”

“i swear to god, i never fall in love. then you showed up, and i can't get enough of it.”

“first off, i'm not sorry. i won't apologize to nobody.”

011. HURT - JOHNNY CASH 

“what have i become? my sweetest friend, everyone I know goes away in the end. and you could have it all, my empire of dirt. i will let you down, i will make you hurt.”

012. COWBOY LIKE ME - TAYLOR SWIFT

“i've got some tricks up my sleeve. takes one to know one ; you're a cowboy like me. never wanted love, just a fancy car.”

“you're a bandit like me. eyes full of stars, hustling for the good life.”

“and the skeletons in both our closets plotted hard to mess this up. and the old men that I've swindled really did believe I was the one. and the ladies lunching have their stories about when you passed through town. but that was all before I locked it down.”

edgcofgreat​  /  ben hanscom * !!

               Ben  couldn’t  help  the  blush  that  crept  onto  his  cheeks.  Jesus,  he  was  a  grown  man,  why  was  he  acting  like  this?  Because  it’s  Bev,  that’s  why.  “  If  it  makes  you  feel  any  better,  I’m  sure  you’re  a  more  tolerable  drunk  than  I  am.  ”  He  got  giggly  when  he  drank,  and  even  though  he  knew  that  Bev  had  seen  him  like  that  before,  something  about  her  seeing  him  like  that  still  made  him  nervous.  “  Well,  something  tells  me  that  this  isn’t  exactly  the  occasion  to  order  a  beer.  ”  He  chuckled  softly,  looking  toward  the  bar  and  shaking  his  head.  He'd  been  in  enough  formal  occasions  to  know  that.  “  Which  is  exactly  why  I’ve  learned  to  appreciate  a  good  whiskey.  ”

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                    "oh, i don’t know about that ben hanscom ; i can’t see you ever being even remotely intolerable.” how bev behaved while intoxicated depended much on the drink of choice && what happened that night, ranging from the silent overly-emotional type to the happy, affectionate type. ever unpredictable as always. the thought came to her without many other clues, but it felt right. she’d get a clue as to why later that evening. “— you could probably be drunk && still design the prettiest of buildings. architect, right ??” bev mused, only to soon chuckle along with him. “damn, just what i was about to order.” she jested, ordering her usual vodka && mixer — this time cranberry juice. “well, cheers. to you being fancy && us being tolerable drunks.”

                    after what feng && the others had gone though, she didn’t want to take anything for granted ever again, including public library wifi even if it was never the best. it felt a little more familiar than some of the other places, most like an internet cafe feng supposed. she enjoyed the sense of COMMUNITY places like this brought to a city. no matter how big there was always a few people sharing commonalities. while ivywood certainly wasn’t home it was better than the fog, than waiting around that damn campfire for whatever nightmare would occur in the next trial. FREE WILL — feng almost forgot what it truly felt like. at the other’s call feng jumped — as she did with all unexpected noises, always on edge before attempting to shrug it off. she followed an aisle that led to the other, nodding her head in greeting. “hi. do you work here ??”

anneliese wasn’t sure what brought her here to ivywood, but she was sure her mother was worried sick about her, and so was julian. she just wanted to get home, but the problem was that she didn’t know how. so she made the most of it. she’d gotten a job at a local library, and she was working toward buying herself an apartment to live in until she could get back to her hometown. there were times when she wasn’t even sure she wanted to go back if given the chance, as she’d grown resentful of living in a palace and having the duties and responsibilities of a princess. but… she knew she’d miss her mother too much to just abandon her. she was currently nestled in the local library where she worked, reading a science book about charles darwin. her mother would’ve had a heart attack if she’d caught anneliese reading about evolution, but the princess found it, and science in general, captivating. she was at a specific part, really honed in, when, suddenly, she heard the familiar chime of the bell as someone presumably walked in and soon felt eyes on her. “…hello?” she called out, just in case there was actually someone there.

                    despite the  l o n g  line, finn was rather preoccupied with studying the technology this system had. while advanced in some ways, it also severely lacked in others. no ships, not even speeders. cars, they were something, but damn were they SLOW. if they had the falcon, or really any old ship, they could all be outta here by now. the droids, that’s the only word he could use to describe them, that people were using to select their orders were the same ... slow. finn chuckled at her words, shaking his head. “to be fair, the people ahead of us just might not know how to use those things.” he certainly didn’t. “that or the droids are just acting up. some of the ones i used to know were quite stubborn with when && how they wanted to work.”

Month number two. It was ridiculous. Is ridiculous. Will likely be ridiculous for a very long time. Peggy wasn’t as angry at Howard now. Didn’t mean she didn’t want to be. Having time to cool down and take stock of her situation not that she really had much of a choice was vaguely a good thing. Only vaguely. No more than that. She still had yet to settle down. Any moment, she couldn’t help thinking hoping, she’d disappear from Ivywood and find herself back home with her family. Back home to her position as director of S.H.I.E.L.D. Any moment at all now please. The only thing that happened was the line became one shorter. Peeking around the person in front of her, Peggy nearly tutted at the lack of progress. “How long do you think it will be until there’s an employee out here taking our orders the old fashioned way?”

wxlksxflxfx​  /  bill denbrough * !!

Bill looked at her at little confused before responding. “What do I mean about the town? I mean, all these people randomly popped up here, including us. I don’t understand how these people just showed up. Like, it doesn’t make sense unless you want to believe in the idea of a parallel universe or something.” He offered, shrugging his shoulders as he thought about it more. “It’s not bad, but I don’t trust.” He continued. “They’ll catch us soon enough, unless we all stay apart. No groups bigger than three. Then it’ll be harder for them to find us within the crowd.” 

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                    “wait—” a pause as gaze lingered, attempting to decipher it all. “you’re serious ??” if it were anyone else but one of the losers beverly wouldn’t believe it. but they had gone through so much in that summer, have seen inexplicable things. she didn’t doubt bill’s words. “i wouldn’t say anything is impossible anymore, unfortunately.” she muttered, lips pursed in thought as she tried to understand. “but we still have some TIME. before — you know. && we’re not in derry. It can’t leave.” hopefully. even in the midst of confusion there was comfort in the jests, smile once again crossing her lips. “good plan, big bill. we can create new identities, give ourselves whole new backstories so they’ll never guess such losers are crashing their party. it’d be like we were never here.” 

beverly 📲 ben👷🏻

ben: bev marsh !!

ben: uh, i think so? maybe?

ben: if i do they're tucked away somewhere. why?

beverly: past meets present has all the goods apparently

beverly: this poster is different tho so you have to have it

beverly: i'll get a CD or two as well just in case

beverly: you have to act surprised when i give them to you tho