Healing Hasn't Been A Great Journey, And I Don't Think It Will Ever End, But At Least I'm Still Trying

a lot of YA and fantasy stuff has always been a little cringe and silly but at least it used to be cringe from the heart instead of designed in a lab to get teens on tiktok to use a certain sentence from it



do you ever have the urge to make someone feel so loved and cared for that the feeling will burst out of them in the form of tears?!

I’ve been playing so much sudoku. You have no idea how much sudoku I’m playing. Every time I close my eyes I see the grid. I’m making moves in my sleep. 179432568. 653897124. 824516937. 915683742. 246175893. 387249615. 561724389. 498351276. 732968451. This morning before I was fully awake I was playing sudoku in my head. I rise with the dawn. I’m a warrior of numbers. You’re nothing to me.

my sister just asked me if i could make her breakfast tomorrow cause she's tired and wants to have 10 more minutes of sleep in the morning, you know what that means?? it means that i gotta do the best fucking breakfast that little fucker has ever tasted, yes, i'm gonna wake up at the ass crack of dawn and show her how the BEST breakfast is made exactly

does it ever drive you crazy how you have never met the present you? cause the second you process the present you it has already become the past you, so you have only ever met past versions of yourself, even if it was only for the matter of fractions of seconds

will there ever be a love more violent than the one between siblings?? i know father's love are harsh, and mother's love are softness wrapped with sharp edges, but siblings? siblings' love is brutal

some of you guys have GOT to remember about fun

i cant even imagine where id be without "thats a really mean way to think about me, i wish you wouldnt think that i dont know what im doing when i love you." and "people want to be useful, trying to do everything yourself makes the people around you think that you dont trust them or that you think theyre incapable" and "people are made to be burdens. we are made to carry each other and not leave anyone behind." and "its rotten work / not to me. not if its you."

when can i just be done already?